The Rocks In Your Head

April 2, 2000

Audience: [Laughter at Samuel’s expression]

Those are marbles.

Samuel: Have you lost your marbles, love? Now you have rocks. Thank you, dear one. And that’s because it is an extremely important period right now that you’re working in.

This is one of those meetings in which I will do what I can to keep things light—[aside] welcome home—in order that you will be able to keep your mind on what I’m saying and not let it get caught up in details. But I want to go ahead and let you know, right off, I’m speaking about some very serious times coming about, and my desire this night is to put forth a few pushes and make some good use of that time. And it centers around rocks in your head.

This month is your massive holiday month, isn’t it? A lot of very important, by all of your major religions’ accounts, a lot of important days in this particular month, which in a large picture, more or less, tell a bit of a story about the process I’m speaking to you of. And so what I want to do is make some parallels.

All right. Beginning with the idea of this period of time that you’re moving through right now—[aside] you again—this period of time—over the next couple of weeks most definitely, and then probably, all told, another six weeks, and after that it’s part of a process of things that are going on for several months that you have happening in your world right now—[which] have to do with awakening.

So the first things I want you to think about to get that mindset on about awakening is to think for a moment about what kind of a person are you first thing in the morning. Who in here is one of those who just wakes up chirpy and happy and fully awake as soon as your eyes open? And if you’ll keep your hands up, I want all the rest to see that there really is a truth to that. It does happen with some. Aye. I know that for the rest of you it’s just a nasty rumor.

How many of you wake up not certain you’re awake? And what are the other versions of that that show up? Maybe you wake up grumpy or you wake up not sure that you’re dead or alive until you’ve given yourself the proper infusion of whatever it happens to be that you use to get yourself moving.

Lemon water.

S: Lemon water. That was a very holy answer, love, Very good. Looking for points, are you? And, of course, what Suzanne is making reference to is that I have said before that one of the best ways to start your days is to take a lemon, and just stare at it for the rest of the day, being glad that this is what life has given me and therefore I’m going to do something with it. No, that’s not the reason.

Cut it in half, take one of those halves and cut that in half, and give it one good squeeze into a glass of water. Then drink it down. And that sets your body in several ways. One of the things that it does for you is that you start your day knowing that you’re doing something that’s good for you. It’s a very positive and affirmative act. Another thing that it does is it rather cleanses out your mouth and sharpens your awareness because of that, interestingly enough. Lemons are a good source of lithium, and I’m sure that there are those here who know the advantages of that one: stimulating the body even in the most minute sort of way toward a more positive outlook.

Lemon water, as an act of conscious being-good-to-you is, therefore, a holy act, for right action done with right purpose in mind is an act that feeds your spiritual being. Therefore, by the simple act of lemon water, which requires thinking through what you’re doing in order to do it, even though it’s a particularly simple sort of thing, lemon water becomes a way to start your day in a very simple sort of spiritual meditation. Sometimes the easy things can do the most, and very often the easy things are done the least because they’re easy, because if it’s easy, it can’t be worth much. Because if it’s easy and you’ve not had to suffer for it, then it does not mean so much to you. So that’s why the lemon water got points.

However, more often than not, it’s not the lemon water that you’re seeking. What is it?

Caffeine.

S: Caffeine, in one way or another. Aye, you’re human just as soon as you get the caffeine. My question would be, What is it you were before you had it? Maybe that means you should lay off the caffeine, you think? If you weren’t human before then—thank you for laughing for that one.

Right now, in a very real sense, your world is waking up. And the very sorts of reactions that you have in your own life are the very same reactions that the world is having now. There are those who wake up so excited, so ready, so prepared. There are those who are not quite yet ready to get up and get going. They keep hitting the alarm clock for just ten more minutes. “Don’t wake me up yet. This can’t be the time. It’s way too early. Look, it’s still dark out. Don’t make me get up.”

And then there are those who go ahead and get going, but they’re not worth a thing until they move through their morning rituals and had a bit of power hitting.

I would wish for you that you would be someone’s caffeine in this world, that you would be the cause of somebody waking up, ready to go, because they had a taste of you, that you would be a gentle awakening rather than a fast and bitter brew—but I’m going off to the side there.

So, just as all of you can relate to the idea of waking up, that is what your world is doing in very many ways right now. It’s undergoing a massive awakening. And there are those in this world who are the alarm clocks, and what I’m wanting to talk to you about, more or less, this night is the alarm clocks, the state of the alarm clock. It’s been batted in the head too many times. It’s not so sure it’s wanting to ring. Because as you are working in your own awakening process on a different level, you’re also a part—because of that—of the awakening of others.

Now, it may seem that I’m bouncing tonight in rather unattached stories and points, and I want to let you know to be looking for my point. I am talking tonight about you. You, right now in this time. And I want you to remember that what I’m talking about has to do with the rocks in your head.

And I want to start with that bit of a story to explain that one, so that you can pull the other pieces together. It’s not going to be one of those—sorry, Bonnie love, who does the information on what was spoken about.

The descriptions.

S: The descriptions. It’s not going to be an easy one to say “Here is what it was about, here are the points, one, two three.”

Thanks, Samuel.

S: You’re welcome, love.

Also, amidst the holidays of this month is, indeed, your Easter celebration, which for this society which likes to think of itself as a Christian society is a story that most of you have grown up with. Very quickly, somebody. [Long pause] All right, maybe you have not grown up with this story, and maybe you don’t know what it’s about. Anybody unsure what the holiday of Easter is about?

The resurrection.

S: Thank you, love. The resurrection story. Of what?

Of Christ’s resurrection from death.

S: All right. Now, I want you to know, without trying to be heretical here, just giving you information that you could find on your own quite easily: Every major religion, from the beginning of religion—I did not say from the beginning of time, mind you—from the beginning of religion, has a story in which the Avataric energy, or the god energy on earth, left the earth experience, died, and rose again, returned. Particularly the Christian story of Jesus Christ who died, was buried, the tomb was made empty, and he was seen again by others afterwards is the central focus, the central proving, for Christians today.

I want for you to go a bit into that story. And very, very often on the first Sunday before that particular event we talk about the story as a whole. I’m only taking a piece of it.

Jesus died and his body was taken away. His body was taken away and he was put into a tomb. Anybody have any idea or know or remember from when I discussed it before, the nature of that tomb?

It was a rich man’s tomb.

S: It was a rich man’s tomb. It was borrowed. All right.

It’s a cave.

S: There you go. It’s a cave. Now, how is it you close up a cave?

Roll a stone in front of its opening.

S: Stone. Did I hear that word? That sounds much like rock. Aye. And that’s where I’m going with it.

The body of Jesus was laid into this cave, which was very typical in that area, typically used as a place for burial, for those who had the means. What would you do? Lease one for long periods of time, something like that. And over the entrance was rolled a great stone, a rock.

Now, a guard was put in front of that doorway with the rock in front of it. Why?

So the body wouldn’t be stolen.

S: So that the body wouldn’t be stolen or bothered in any way, because the government of the time wanted to prove that they were not doing harm to that one. Also because the radical teachings that that one put out had the followers saying he would rise up again. And the government, being as clever as governments can be, determined that what would be necessary would be to post a guard out front, because if that body were to disappear, there would be rioting.

Well, what happened?

He was not there when they rolled the stone away anyway.

The guard went to sleep. An angel came down and rolled the stone away, and [. . .]

S: How do you know? Are you remembering that? How do you know? Because the story continues on that when the women went the next morning with the spices to continue anointing the body—do I need to explain why that one was necessary?—the stone was moved. That’s where I want to start this night.

I want you to take a moment and try, if you can, to put yourself into that mindset. You have, if you will, for that time period a cult leader, charismatic—but one of many of that time—who had devoted followers who were thought of in many circles as dangerous fanatics.

These fanatics went everywhere Jesus went, knew the teachings, and indeed on their own had some of their own followers whom they taught, whom they worked with, whom they mentored, if you will.

Now, the nature of society at that time allowed that there were very specific jobs that the women did. And one of those jobs was the caring of a body. It was a family duty. That’s an important thing to remember. Caring for the body was a work that fell upon the women in the family. And the work was, as I am sure you can imagine, to clean the body, to wrap it with spices. And depending upon which particular society you were a part of at that time, those spices might have been a part of a preservation process or they might have been a part of a—how can you say this politely?

A letting go.

S: Definitely a letting go, absolutely. I was thinking more though of the spices having to do with a . . .

Arresting the smell.

Deodorant.

S: A deodorizing process, that works. Aye. Because, you know what happens to a body. All your life, while you’re sitting there right now, you’re decomposing. And what’s keeping you from having it happen at an extremely accelerated rate? Some faster than others, that’s true. Say it again.

Wearing underarm deodorant.

S: Is that the spirit within you activates the flesh you are so that when the spirit that is within you is gone, that natural process that you are experiencing all of the time as a physical being accelerates to the point that the decomposition process finishes up fairly quickly.

The first thing that I want to ask you about the story is, If these who were so close to Jesus believed he was going to rise up again, why did they bother wrapping and scenting the body? Why did they bother?

It was a ritual.

S: It was an honor, it was a ritual. But do you not think that if they truly thought, “He’s only going to be there a few moments. We’re not even sure why he’s there now,” they would have tied him up forever?

They really had to be sure that they were doing the right thing.

S:  It has more to do, love, with in their incredible disappointment. They still wanted to do what was right. We are talking those who were so close that they were, indeed, temple guards, guardians, keepers of the flame, knowing that this is the one of whom the prophets had spoken, this is the one that was going to bring about—and depending upon which particular sect of belief they had at that time—that was going to free them, release them, bring about change, greatness, love, beauty. In the very same way that you in your life have, those people, those places, those things that are salvation to you, not on the big level, not on the grand scale, but on your day-to-day level—the very same way that you get comfort and awakening from caffeine—you have those things that you are very reliant upon. You have those people, you have those memories, you have those things, you have those ideas by which you have invested so much of your life that when something comes about to shake that, you are temporarily lost. There is a pity here.

When that stone was rolled into place, it was a signal of defeat. That’s the first rock in your head. Not defeat, but the inability to move beyond what you perceive, the inability to move beyond how it has always been, to the point that it keeps you from seeing what now can be. Putting that rock so heavy that it was a guarantee that it could not be casually opened, the disciples were saying, It doesn’t matter, anyway. Why fight to keep them from doing this? It’s over.

Yet, even with it being over, the women went forth to continue doing what the women did at that time. They went forth with the spices, probably feeling that they could between them all get that rock moved, and do what had to be done. Perhaps one of them baked brownies that morning, thinking to bribe the guard with a few of them. “Look what we have. Will you move the rock for us so we can go in there?” All right. Maybe not.

And as they’re coming over the rise, they look toward that tomb and they see that the rock has been moved. What happened right then was a wailing. “Oh no! They have stolen him!” The second rock in your head. Presuming you know what is going on and acting based on what you think is happening.

That first rock had to do with not having the perspective to really be able to know what’s going on, but the second rock is when you act on it anyway! “I’m in grief, I’m upset. Every decision that I make should be put aside for the next six weeks, but I’m going to make a few decisions anyway. I’m going to move on with my life because if I don’t no one else will. Somebody’s got to spice up the dead bodies around here. So goodness, look. We’ve got trouble here. Somebody’s gone off and stolen it. Look what’s happened here. I know what’s happening here. It’s a troublesome time coming up. These are dangerous times to be in, and I can tell exactly what it is that needs to be done right now, how to act, how to be.” If it’s anything other than doing the best you can where you are with what you have at the moment, consciously living love, it’s not the right thing.

In the meantime, I want you to take just a moment to remember that while the women are going, “Oh, they’ve stolen him,” where is it that the other disciples are?

Hiding.

S: That’s right. The rock in their head is fear. “All right, if we go near this tomb, they’re going to get us. If they’ve got him, they could get us even easier.” The rock in their head was disbelief. They spent years trusting their relationship with Jesus and literally overnight, giving it away.

Disbelief in what their heart knew. Choosing instead with what their head wanted, which usually is the easy way. “Oh well, gone, dead, better get out of here.” A lot easier to deal with than completing a compact, continuing to live through what you no longer have somebody guiding you about by the fingers  through. It’s so much easier when you’ve got the writing on the wall saying here is what to do. Drink this. Aye.

Didn’t Christ, when he was at the very end, did he not have a small bit of that himself when he thought Source had forsaken him, just even for a brief moment though, in his humanness?

S: In the humanness, yes. Does that make it all right?

Even as perfect as Christ was, even in a brief moment of his humanness.

S: Indeed. That, however, is a totally other story. I think it was last Easter. Indeed.

And now I want to offer you a slightly different scenario for the disciples. I want you to think about it perhaps based on how you would think it through. That here their teacher has been put to death in a horrible fashion, and sure enough he looks really dead. You don’t want to believe it because, of course, if he is dead, if he is gone, so is everything you have been building toward. So are all of your dreams, so are all of your hopes, because they were centered in that teacher and that teacher’s work.

And as that body is being put away into the tomb, and that stone is being put into place, you leave, dejected, disbelieving, angry at yourself for being a fool for so long. And all of the other human things that very naturally come into play. But I want you to imagine that one of those disciples stayed and watched to see what happened. And maybe when the guard fell asleep for a brief moment, went up to that cave and stood in front of that rock and looked at it and realized that that rock represented a passage. The passage not only between “the living are here, and beyond that rock are those that are not living,” but a passage into “what if it’s true?”

The rocks force you to look at what you believe, because you are facing the rock that covers the tomb, and inside that tomb you have no idea if there is a slightly groggy, slowly unwrapping Jesus, as you want there to be, or a dead man. What would the disciple believe? What that disciple would believe, of course, has to do with many, many factors. And as you know, the stories do not speak of the disciples keeping guard. They speak of their dispersing themselves far away, quickly.

But in your life, you very often in your path come across huge obstacles that cause you to stop and look. This is a defining moment in my function here in this world, because what is beyond that rock is whether I continue on or not. If there is what I want behind that rock then I will continue on in service to that great being of light; if there is not what I want behind that rock, I will hide. I will hide behind fear and anger, behind an improper perspective and actions that are based on improper thinking, because when I move away from that rock, I am choosing to spend the rest of my life living by my wits. And let me tell you, for some of you that’s a very scary prospect—living by how you see.

Within your life, have you ever had an experience in which what you thought was going on was not what was going on? Sure you have. Sure you have. Within your life have you ever had an experience in which the worst thing that you could possibly imagine could happen, happened? Oh, don’t you hate it? The worst thing that could happen happened. And at that moment you faced your rock.

The rocks are in your head. Do you see what I mean by that now? What are you going to do? Well, what did you do when the worst thing that could happen happened? You either took action or you hid. That’s what you did, that simple. Was the action the right action? Maybe it was, maybe it was not, actually.

And let me go to that one. The women took action to do something that really was quite ridiculous under the circumstances, but they took action. And what they saw was there was no rock. I wonder if the alienated, frustrated, disappointed, fearful disciples had come across the rise at the very same time, if they would have still seen the rock.

Nonetheless, the rock was moved. The immediate response was, “Look, they stole him.” I think that one is hilarious. And into the tomb they go. They see remnants. They walked into the tomb and saw some of what they thought they would. They had a decision right there. There is this meaning or there is this meaning. Most of the women ran off, yes? Except for Mary, a close friend. And while she was thinking about that great flash of light that spoke to them, so she thought, before they entered the tomb, saying, “He’s gone. He’s risen. What are you doing here? He said this would be what happened. Go on now!” she heard a voice that said, “Mary.” Thought it was the gardener. Don’t you love it? “I am so wrapped up in my version of how it is. I’m so wrapped in my awareness of what has happened here. I’ve gone ahead, I’ve kept moving. I’ve got the semblance of doing the right thing going here so that I’m not faced with the great rock that some of those that don’t have the faith have in front of them. I have had an incredible, unexplainable, magical experience in which what could only have been some great holy personage spoke out of the light and said, ‘Begone with you. He said he wasn’t going to be here.’”

Just as you have heard in your life those events in which you got the writing on the wall that you asked for, in which you heard the still small voice you were listening for, in which the miracle you wanted and the manifestation you put out there was given to you, every one of you have had your miracles. No less a miracle than an angel stepping forth and saying, “Excuse me. According to what you say you believe, you should not be here.”

And she hears a voice calling her name. She has held on this far and is in that tomb after the angel’s revelation, and she hears a voice calling her name, and she says, “Did you take that body? There was a body in here. Did you take it?” convinced it’s the groundskeeper, faced by a miracle she could not recognize—Source—because it was not what she expected. Her rock. Her rock was the nature of her belief. She believed she did not know.

And so the groundskeeper said, “Mary. Don’t you know me?” What a beautiful, powerful, wonderful passage that is. “Don’t you know me?” Think, for a moment, of all that is held in that. “I am a part of you. Don’t you know me? Look with something other than your eyes so that you might see. Don’t you know me?” And she did see.

Now, shift. You’re going down the road, and this road is your life. It’s the pathway, the means by which you are able to do what you are here to do. And, look—now, many of you do this—look, there in the road, a pretty little rock. Look, a rock! How many of you go away and come back with bags full of rocks?

Not any more.

S: She says not any more. How many of you, when you are at various places, you see the rocks and you say, “Oh this is so pretty.” They just draw you. Are you one of those? Many, aye, because you have an innate desire to get more of those . . . never mind.

So, there, as you’re traveling down the road, now and again you pick up the rocks. You put them in your pocket. You like them. And sometimes they’re large rocks, and sometimes they’re great boulders. And keeping the story that I gave not so very long ago about the two who were trying to dig out and move the great tree, let’s move this now to a great boulder. As you’re traveling down your path, you have suddenly in front of you a boulder that’s covering up the pathway. And you give it everything you’ve got. You push and you push and you push. What to do? You cannot budge it.

All right, this is another one of those rocks in your head, because it may seem to be a massive stop, the difference between your being able to continue on with the path you have been on or having to stop altogether because life is on the other side of that rock and you’re stuck on this side. What do you do?

Well, you have several opportunities here, because the rocks are in your head. One of those is, of course, to just turn around and go the other way. Give it up altogether. This rock is too much. Let it go.

Another one is to just change the path. All right, it’s going to be too high to get over it. I cannot move it out of the way. So, perhaps, what I need to do is just cut my own path and yet go around. And that can be an option.

But when the path you have been on ain’t broke, maybe it does not need fixing. Ain’t broke, don’t fix it. Right? Because you know how it is in your world: as soon as you’re stopped, there’s going to be a back up happening very quickly. And when that back up happens because you’re just stopped, there’s going to be a lot of real grumbly people. Hurry up! Get going! Move. Move. Make your decision. Do it fast.

The number one way to get going when you’re stuck is to surround yourself with those who are also desiring to go that same direction and say, “Let’s do this together.” It’s faster than cutting your own path, and you’ll feel better about it than turning around and giving up. Ask. Ask.

And there’s one more thing you can do. You can take one of those rocks out of your pocket that you’ve picked up further down the way, and you can start chipping on that rock in front of you. And you can spend the rest of your life working on that rock. You can do that. You can give the rest of your life to that great issue that keeps coming before you as something small—as something small or something massive—it keeps showing up in your path, these rocks in your head, over and over and over, you can take and start chipping it away, and say, “All right, if for the rest of my life I’m going to be dealing with issues of—oh, what?—abandonment, patience, betrayal, loss, give me a few—honesty, with issues of compassion, affluence, judgment . . . “

Control.

S: Control.

Fear of asking.

S: Your ability to ask. Trust we’ll say. More.

Inadequacy.

S: Inadequacy.

Authority.

S: Issues of authority. As long as I’m going to deal with these over and over and over, I think what I’m going to do is just stop my whole process and take out my little chip, and make art out of it. And some of you are doing that, too. Taking your boulders and chipping them up so that keeps you occupied and satisfied in order that you can create something that you can at least look at as long as you’re going to be stopped on your pathway, because the rocks in your head have taken over your life. And there are those who do that. They’re so focused on their issues that they have defined themselves by their issues.

We learned a while back, in a workshop I think, about “woundology.”

S: Aye, forever the victim. That’s right. Getting what you want by way of the pain, because of the pain. Allowing change into your life by way of the two-by-four, because if it did not hurt and it was not a struggle to get through it, then it wasn’t worth it, it wasn’t a big deal. It wasn’t enough of an issue, because you would not invest so much time and give so much of your life to focusing on something that was not important, that was in fact in your head, would you? Don’t ask me.

Shift again. You’re walking along that path and there in front of you is a boulder, and you’ve got a pocket full of rocks, and you see that boulder and an idea comes to you. I’m going to dig out from under that boulder so that this boulder begins to rock. I’m going to use its momentum. I’ll place my little pebbles, my tiny little pebbles, on the other side. They’re not going to stop that rock from moving back if it rocks too far, but they can help shift the motion of it. You’ve got this rock in front of you. Start digging under, destabilize its foundation in your life. Take a look at why that rock has been there so long and so untouched and so massive that it keeps you from going on. Destabilize it. Start it rocking a bit. There’s something to be said for rocking your world.

Aye, you’re slow tonight, or I’m really bad. And I’d rather you’d be slow.

Use what you have already to help turn things, to move it out of the path it’s trying for just to get it off a bit. You change your life that way, you know, just tossing something small.

The rocks in your head need not keep you from the path you are here to follow. When the earth is making changes, the rocks tend to be affected. They shoot out of the earth, they break apart, they come from the sky. Rocks hold the old stories. They keep the blueprint, if you will. And in your life your rocks, which are made up of your old stories, keep your blueprint.

This is a month in which communication, belief, your willingness to know what you believe and believe what you know are all likely to show up as rocks in your life, maybe boulders in your path. Right now in your world, you’re very much at a turning point. You are coming over the rise, doing what you have to do. You’ve not stopped. You’ve not run off, or you would not be here, even when you’ve wanted to run off. You’re coming over the rise. It’s dawn in your world. What’s the day going to be like? And what is it you’re going to see? Will the rock be moved? And if that rock is moved, will you know what it means? Will you go running off, because you know they have stolen the body? “Darn it! While I was not looking!” Are you going to march in there, that much faith, and accost the gardener? Aye, well, it’s actually very funny. It does happen all the time. Or are you going to know what you’re in the middle of and be able to make use of it?

I’m going to be talking to you again in a couple of weeks. It’s going to be a questions-and-answers based on what’s going on right now, with you and your world. I will have just spoken in Lexington about you making a transformation that’s happening right now. And you will be very close to Earthlink.

Your road. Your rocks. Glochanumora.