April 6, 2008

Samuel: Hello, dears.

Hello, Samuel.

S: She’s shrunk again. Sometimes it feels quite like putting my foot into a shoe that’s just a little bit too small. Have you ever done that? The body’s just a little bit too small, shrunk a bit, you think? All right, that’s a joke. It’s not going anywhere. I’ll just keep going from there.

So how are you? Are you better than you have been? Not as good as you’re going to be? Trick question though. Another answer could have been what?

I’m perfect the way I am.

S: Good for you. I like that. No more answers. That’s the one. And what does it take for you to believe that you are perfect exactly the way you are? What do you need to take you there? Aye.

Lack of judgment.

S: Good. Good. Frank.

It’ll take the belief, the knowledge that you are.

A change of perception.

Another answer could have been . . .

S: Who was that? Say that again.

A change of perception.

S: A change of perception. That’s good. Very, very good.


S: Balance. Inside, outside.


S: Good. Yes. Balance.

The last couple of weeks . . . I’m wanting to say the last couple of weeks have been whatever for you, but I hesitate to set it up like that already.

[Talking about seats] Well, if you’re not going to go there who is?

Here I am.

S: And now there’s one right here, right there, somewhere. Right there, and there, and there. You on the sides, you start getting a little weary of being front and center, don’t you? But there are a few brave souls who are not being wimpy. Good.

Mrs. Campbell, your clown has arrived.


S: That’s right. Cambo and Mrs. Cambo.

Your last couple of weeks, I want you to think about for a few moments, all right? And there are a few things that you may or may not have noticed. The first one is, have you noticed a change—not saying what kind of change; energy change, big nothing word—a change in your perspective, a change in your awareness, a change in a way you are functioning, behaving, or the way others are to you, with you. Are you noticing change since the equinox?


S: And if you are, or if you think you’re not but now that you’re starting to put your mind to it maybe you are, if you are noticing that change, what kind of change is it? Don’t answer this out loud yet. I want you to think for a moment. What are the kinds of things that you’re noticing that you would say, “This is different.” Maybe things are flowing more easily, things are more hard than they have been. “I feel lighter in spite of things being harder than they have been.” Or, “I’m busy, busy, busy,” or “I’m sort of relaxing more,” or “I’m dealing with some of the most difficult issues I’ve ever been able to deal with, and I’m really glad that now . . . ,” whatever it is—what are you noticing? And if you’re unsure what you might be looking at, ask yourself, “What have I really enjoyed over the last couple of weeks, and what would I rather not see repeated?”

I’m not smelling enough smoke yet. Think harder.

Now I’m going to give you a huge threat, all right? Well, hopefully there’s no reason for you to be threatened at all. Your behaviors of the last couple of weeks, the ways you have responded or reacted, the ways that you have accepted or not, you over the last couple of weeks have been given the opportunity to see what needs to be healed. And I use healed because when I talk about healing it’s making whole. That’s the truest healing. Sometimes being whole does not necessarily mean that you have no rashes, or viruses, or . . . you can have all of that and still be whole. You can have—here comes a couple of push-button things—you can have anger and still be whole. You can have sorrow and still be whole. You can have dragons on your feet and still be whole, but you will not be whole if you are not exercising consciously the power of what? Of what? What power?

Of who we are.

S: Yes.

The power of love.

S: That’s the answer, but that’s just as much the answer of who you are. If you can look out over your last couple of weeks, and can let yourself think about the things that were flowing well that you enjoyed, how was love showing up in that situation? And for the things that weren’t showing up so well, the ones you hope not to repeat, how was love showing up in that situation?

In the big picture—but the big one here, all right?—there is one purpose for you, one destiny you will not be happy until you reach [it], one work that is the service you have chosen, one thing at all that should guide your days and guard your nights, and that is . . . want to say it?


S: Love. Not the “let me strip off your clothes and get you sweaty,” although that has its advantages. Not “I love meatloaf and Johnny Depp.” Meat loaf is food, and . . .

[. . .]

S: All right. You see, you send me these strange pictures, and some of them don’t have any explanation. No, not that kind of love at all, although those are a piece of it. Not the love that a parent has for a child. Not the love that you have for each other. What love?

Love of Source.

S: The love of Source, aye. But the love of Source being consciously channeled through you. Consciously given by you when it’s needed, where it’s needed, however it’s needed. And over your next couple of weeks you are going to see that.

Sometimes I like to say, “Here is what is going to happen.” You know, of course, that I have no charge with that. Here is what is going to happen, maybe cosmically speaking, but not so likely for you exactly the way I say it, because you live your own life, make your own decisions—hate that part—you experience this life according to the love you feel. It’s a filter.

You have a light, and you want the room to look green, so you put a green filter over the light, yes? Or close enough to make sense. That filter casts the green glow on all things in the very same way as your function within love is the filter through which you experience all things.

And, you know, I’m not even at what we’re going to do tonight. So maybe I should hurry this part up, but it’s too important to leave out.

“But wait, Samuel, this is something that you’ve never stopped saying. It’s not new. You don’t need to keep saying it.” Well, yes I do, because, you see, sometimes you forget that what you see in yourself, what you see in others, what you let them see of you, is altogether based on how you see yourself living love. And what you need to remember is that this isn’t a statement that fits everybody in the world. Darn, wouldn’t it be nice? It is a statement that fits those who have chosen to come to this world to make a difference, some way, who have found the love of Source within them, and had the ability to live it. Live it.

When the Form was recently in Texas, there was the unfortunate experience of being around somebody who is a very—I’m not exactly sure how you can say this without . . . —who follows all the church rules, who has the language and the programs, but is so incredibly unhappy because this person doesn’t have the love that goes with it, and the love of Source shows itself up two huge ways. One of them is in your acceptance of yourself, because you see without getting into the whole “you are stardust; you are . . .” You’re a piece of the Source right here, sitting in this chair, wiggling Source’s fingers, wiggling Source’s toes, beating Source’s heart. So how are you treating that piece of Source in you? How often do you let it out to play? How often do you let it speak? The more you do, the better you’ll feel about yourself. It just works that way. Truly, it just works that way. No big secret. No group of numbered paragraphs to follow in detail. Source working through you allows you to feel good about you, and where you block that, it’s not because you feel bad about Source, it’s because you feel bad about you.

And along with Source working through you is consciously choosing the loving thing. Everything that you do in life is the result of a choice. Somewhere along the way, you made a choice that brought you right to whatever the decision is right in front of you at the moment. Go left or go right. Stay for the reception or run away home. Sit with the clown or run from the clown. And, of course, everybody watching this on their computers or on their televisions is going to say, “Clown? Why does he keep saying clown?”

Your acceptance of you, of your life, of the choices that you’ve made, your happiness is all about the fruit—the fruit—the fruit of the tree that you are. What’s the fruit? For you, the fruit is your sense of well-being, of acceptance, of pleasure, of service, of love. Your fruit is a piece in the midst of chaos, love in the face of fear. And your living love is the fruit that beats out any kind of program that says “Do good. Be good.” Your ability to love is the fruit of a connection with Source. Your ability to love is the fruit of your connection with Source. Your ability to put love into action in your life with whatever you are dealt is the strength of a tree that produces that fruit, and you have a choice as to how you strengthen that tree.

So, David [Oldham], do I have you tonight?

David: Sure.

S: Stuart, do you need to do anything?

[. . .]

S: He’s going to bring a chair up here.

David: I think we thought it was a [. . .] or something. Surprise! Howdy.

S: Howdy.

So now everybody’s thinking, “If he’s going to do questions and answers, I should write it down,” but that’s not what I’m doing. Well, that’s not true. That is what I’m doing, but you’re not writing them down.

I am going to try something, and the reason that I’m going to try this is because I enjoyed [it] when you were doing questions to me and tossing them off. The last time we did that, I enjoyed it tremendously.

David: Me, too.

S: Good. Good. So I want you to be Source tonight. Okay?

David: All right.

S: And what I want is for Source to take your questions. So if you have a question for questions and answers, raise your hand and Source will call on you.

David: I’ve already received ten of them.

S: You’re doing a good job. And look there’s one already that’s waiting, but I’m going to call on him now and again, not only to call on you, but to answer.

David: Hmm. You should have sat through my Group of Nine.

S: And perhaps one of the easy things to start with is a question that I have. Did you get it?

David: Samuel, would you like to ask a question?

S: For those of you who took part in it, how was The Guardianship Program for you this time around? Just a couple of answers.

David: Angela.

I had more fun this time than I’ve had ever before, and I enjoyed getting to know people better, and my life truly felt more balanced this time than it ever has.

S: Which is handy. Yes?

David: Heidi.

Well, I’ve not taken this incarnation of The Guardianship Program. I took the ones from a long, long time ago, and I’ve had an awesome time. I loved getting to be around people that I think I know and really didn’t know, and grew to love even more. I learned so much from the answers that people shared with our issues. The depth of wisdom in the group of people that we have is just amazing. And I loved teaching, and I loved not drinking wine—believe it or not—and I loved push-ups, and really, except for the drive, I loved every part of it.

S: But the drive was part of it.

Yes, and the drive was fun with the group that I drove with.

David: Kathy.

I really enjoyed the laughter. There was one point where I thought I was going to quit the program, because it just felt like a lot of pressure, and I’m so glad that I didn’t, because it taught me to change my perception of needing to be perfect, and how that pressure is really an external . . . it’s external.

David: Source is glad you didn’t quit.

Yes. And so I can’t say I was perfect at the program, but I’m okay with not being perfect in the small picture, but in the big picture I know I am.

S: Well said. Well said What was hardest? Now, if you were in the program this year, raise your hand. I’m saying this because there’s a lot of you. With this many here, there ought to be a little more answering. Frank. Oops, sorry, it’s up to Source.

David: Frank.

I was realizing today that . . . I think the food—giving up either sugar or wheat—was hard, because in the past I’ve given up types of sweets, and I think I’ve given up wheat before, but having to give up a whole class of things rather than just a section of them . . .

S: No candy bars, no dessert, whatever.

I gave up desserts, but still had other sweets, or no candy bars, cake, cookies, whatever, and for it to be arbitrary and not my choice, made it harder, because when it’s my choice, I have reasoning behind it. And it was harder this year. I think harder than it has been in years past, in feeling the limits and just it being an arbitrary thing in my life.

S: Anybody else find the food restrictions difficult? And did you find the same interesting realization that it’s a lot easier when you get to pick instead of just the whole thing knocked out? You see? There’s the reason right there.

What was hard for you?

David: I wanted to hear from [. . .] in Pittsburgh. I forget where you all . . . I can’t remember y’all’s names. Cincinnati now? You had your hand up before. Would you like to answer now?

S: That’s Jess. She’s sitting next to Chris.

David: We’re missing Owen, is that right?

S: Exactly. Exactly.

I’m sure he’s here in spirit, but he’s physically . . .

S: More than you want to know.

David: So what was hardest?

Well, I’m still in the program.

S: So are they.

Okay. It was really hard, it has been hard, to keep up the commitments to myself. I don’t have a challenge with the commitments to my group, but in the midst of moving, and sort of renovating where we’re living now, and going through a major, major life transition, I questioned whether I should have made the commitment in the first place if I couldn’t fulfill it to the extent that I promised, and that’s been challenging.

S: For whom do you work to gain the approval of? Who do you do what you do for? Do you do it for the approval of Source?

David: I hope not. Don’t forget I’m Source.

S: Do you do what you do for your boss? For your mate? For yourself?

When you take a look at the things going on in your life, and you take on an agreement, a responsibility, a compact, a portion of a job, whatever, who are you doing it for? Who are you trying to impress? Who are you doing for? And there are times that doing it for yourself is the right thing to do, and there are times that it’s absolutely not the right thing to do if you are not aware of which self you are doing it for.

Everything in your life—long, long ago I chiseled it down for easy thinking to level-one behaviors and level-two behaviors—everything that you do, you’re doing for the benefit of that greater you or the one right now weathering the tornado of life. And that’s all right; just know which choice you’re making at the time. Don’t let that be an unconscious one. And those things that you’re doing for the greater you have a whole lot more power to make things work out all right.

The ones that you’re doing for the lesser—not as a judgment, but as a condensation of energy—for the lesser you, are going to be fraught with your fears. And when you act out of your fears, when you act out of a place of fear, you make decisions that are survival-oriented.


David: Yes, Harvey.

When you do it for the higher you, would this be inclusive of the smaller you?

S: It depends upon your state of consciousness at the moment. Truly, yes. In the moment, sometimes you just don’t see it that way.

This year, The Guardianship Program was a lot more fun in spite of it being also a lot harder. Yes, [I] took out a lot of things to make it easier , but the things that got left or turned were harder. You had to work with such things as “What really matters to me at the end of the day?” You had to work with such things as, “How do I do all of this?” You had to deal with such things as life intruding on your spiritual purpose, and the key for it was ultimately for you to please remember that your life is all spiritual purpose. And there aren’t pieces that are more important than others. That creates imbalance. It’s when you’re able to look at every piece and say consciously, “I’m doing the best I can where I am with what I have at the moment—or not.”

The Guardianship Program in Lexington—I asked the leadership to take the program if they could, if they would. And it has brought a very big change, a group that trusts each other more, a group that is more bonded than they have been in quite some time. I’m really pleased with it.

Now . . .

David: Did my friend answer your question, Harvey? Actually, I thought I was going to get to answer it.

S: Go ahead.

David: Well, it’s okay. You did a pretty good job.

S: Well, good. Thank you. Let’s try some more.

David: Okay. We haven’t really heard from right in here.

S: Questions?

Just anything?

S: Sure. Who’s going to win the . . . what is that?


The election.

David: Heidi.

Thank you, Source. Looking very nice tonight.

David: De nada.

Samuel, you are taking a group of people to the Yucatán in September, and I would like to know a number of years ago, I think maybe twelve years ago, you took two groups, two small groups, to the Yucatán. I was wondering how those of us who were on that first trip and experienced the power of that area, if that will help the group do the work, or who will it affect—the work and those of us who have already been there with you.

S: Source, you want to take a kick at that?

David: Your previous exposure to the frequencies of the area will assist you in getting into a deeper level, much faster, on the second trip.

Would you like to add to that?

S: Thank you. What do you think? I would agree with you, except . . .

David: They really don’t care what I say.

S: Except the fact of it is, you are not who went there twelve years ago.


S: And who you were twelve years ago is not the one that’s going to be experiencing this trip. Furthermore, doing the Dragon work has made certain changes in you, and changes as well in those areas that you have gone to to do that work. You will be needing that for this coming work, because it is not even slightly close to any of the Dragon work you’ve done before.

So, how will you feel? Well, do you like heat?

Have I survived it before?

S: Do you like Mexican food? Do you like people that are there with the same purpose you are? Do you enjoy having a spiritual family around you who are having a good time, and making the best [of it]? [Tape break] . . . most of the time, these days, is not at all what I would agree with.

But in that time, in that world—which is only partially this one—there was a place in which the masters, the avataric line, the Ellic force, had come together, and then went out into the world, and that is one of the places they went.

Now, the reason I take you there is so that you will remember—so that you will remember—because it’s in you. No, not every one of you, but in every one of you. And in this trip, I need you to be that one, to institute the change that’ s needed for the activation of the seed there. Pretty odd, eh? And that will involve some pretty big visualization sessions, and that means that you need to be getting your energy up before you go so that you won’t fall asleep. Right. Think that did it?

David: May I ask a question?

S: Sure. I like it when Source asks me a question.

David: Did they pick that area because that’s where Sanat Kumara made a big splash when he came here?

S: Precisely so. How did you know that?

Because he’s Source.

David: Thank you.

S: That one. All right.

David: Chris.

Anybody who goes to a Phoenix retreat often knows that it’s really not a retreat. We usually end up doing a lot of work while we’re there. So could you, Source, maybe tell me what are some of the schematics of the working of the retreat here in a few weeks, so that some of us might start to prepare on our way there to get ready for the type of work we might try to be doing at the retreat?

David: If I told you right now, I’d have to pour wine down you so you would forget.

S: But I know. Call on me. Call on me.

David: Oh, Samuel. Samuel.

S: As a hint, the working that will be done the day before you leave is going to be almost an exact replica of New Year’s Eve. That should say something.

And, generally speaking, so much of what is done at retreats . . . I center it around a particular trigger. And if you are the only ones there, as opposed to those from the rest of the country, if it was only on you, I wouldn’t need a trigger to wake you up and make you aware. I’m interested to see how that works out.

David: We haven’t heard from this side. Do you any of you have any questions. My neck gets turned this way, and that’s a problem. Kathy.

I have a question. Regarding the New Year’s Eve ritual, did the effects of that ritual, ceremony—whichever one it was, I can’t remember—have the effect that you were hoping for it to have? And also why are we doing a very similar version at the retreat this year?

S: This one would be for you.

David: Oh great! I’m going to defer to my star pupil. The seat’s higher, have you noticed?

S: I am the pet of the teacher, yes? Not this time.

I was very pleased with the result of the New Year’s Eve work. And if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.

All right, now you need to take a look at Stuart, and see if he’s making any signals at you.

David: Harvey.

I believe you referred to the New Year’s Eve as a ritual rather than a ceremony, and I was wondering, how do they differ?

S: Do you want to answer that Source? If not, I would suggest that you ask the group if they think they might have the answer to that.

David: I think the answer does lie in the audience. Or is it way. . . I get them mixed up. Who would like to contribute pieces of the answer? Bonnie.

Well, I’m guessing here. A ceremony is a . . . it doesn’t involve the calling of energies beyond the group, maybe.

S: It is an internal work, so to speak.

Yes. And a ritual, if I remember New year’s Eve correctly, Samuel was working . . . while we were working, he was also doing a lot of calling, and calling other energies that maybe we weren’t aware of.

S: You might remember that part, being Source, of course.

David: You’re always up here mumbling, aren’t you?

S: I think I’m speaking at a low volume.

So it just involves the calling of other energies to come and be a part of the working.

S: That’s good.

David: Vicky.

I would categorize a ceremony as a recognition of a point of change, like a wedding ceremony, a graduation ceremony, and then the other’s an absolute working. It’s creating the change.

S: Nicely said.

David: Lakshmi.

Previously, when we used to do rituals in the 4:3:2 world, when we were not fused—masculine and feminine—we weren’t able to channel or pull in those energies and use that ourselves, so we used to call them. But once we had the Fusion, we became them so we didn’t need to call them, we just used them. But what it seemed like was we had graduated to a level by the New Year, so we were bigger, or whatever, metaphorically speaking, that we were able to now call on bigger guns, and there will be a time when we become part . . . when they are part of us, and we are not going to call them anymore, and then we’ll have ceremonies for a while—maybe, I don’t know.

S: Sort of a step ahead there in that particular answer.

David: I think we can take one thirty-second answer. Frank.

What I was going to say was a combination of Lakshmi and Bonnie’s.

S: Good.

In ceremonies, we were doing the work, and it was a working, and we were doing a lot of stuff, and with a ritual, we’re doing the work, but we’re having help from outside energies coming in and helping us. Samuel was working with us more in some ceremonies, but I think we’re calling outside energies to work with us also.

S: If you don’t mind, I’m going to take your answer here and shift it over and answer it myself. All right?

David: Hmm, try and wrap it up. I believe we’re coming to end.

S: All right. You like him a lot better than me, don’t you? I just ignore him.

Always remember that ritual is a part of your everyday life. You get up, you open your eyes for the morning, and you start your day of ritual after ritual. You brush your teeth before you release water, or the other way around. You then go down; you pour the same cereal that you’ve had for the last six lives, whatever. You have your rituals, your way of doing things. You get into the shower, or into the bath, and you even wash ritually. How do you do it? You wash your hair first, or you wash your feet first, but you have your system.

Ritual is for the brain, but that is so you’re not frightened—the brain of you is not frightened—when I say, “You’re going to do something that is a ritual.” Because just as you have rituals that satisfy your physical self, so there are rituals that satisfy your spiritual self, that part of you that is Source responds sort of the way that your physical self does, in an instinctual, genetic blueprint sort of way, so your spirit does as well. And certain types of ritual activate that waiting spirit. Certain types of ritual—and by that I mean certain patterns: sound, word, even movement.

Guardians are here to become a vessel. Now, the potter takes that clay and throws a bit onto the wheel and punches their hand into the center of it, and lets the clay go around that hand. And you create . . . that potter creates a vessel, a bowl. And everybody enjoys the bowl, and everybody uses the bowl, and some people have really pretty glazes and some people have experiments.

And then one day the potter looks at that bowl and says, “It’s time for something else,” and takes that bowl, and pushes a hole into the side that causes everybody that knows the potter and all of the bowls that potter has always made, causes them to say, “What have you done? You have ruined the bowl.” Or maybe they say, “You’re making something new.” And the potter takes that vessel off of the wheel, and turns it over on to a plate that holds a candle, and there has been created, all of a sudden, a vessel that guards the light, that keeps it from the winds of non-existence.

And, although I’m just playing with that as a bit of a story, the point that I’m making is you and your world—you feel it in your bones, you know it—this world is on the edge, that it is time for change, that a transition is coming to the old, familiar.

A ceremony makes you aware of what is needed. A ritual draws what is needed out of you for the purpose of creating a new vessel, one that guards the light. And, yes, it’s absolutely accurate, you are able to call what you can become. Remember that. That’s what? Two weeks? Something like that. Soon, very soon.

The seventeenth.

S: And you would know that. Kay is the retreat goddess, and a very good one at that.

All right, now we’ll give into Stuart. Thank you, Source. You have done a remarkable job.

David: I think my student has done very well. I think next month you could come back and do it by yourself.

S: You think? I look forward to that, but we’ll see how it works out. And, of course, nobody is forgetting your part in all of this.

David: I don’t know if that was quite the right gesture.

S: Jim and Marilyn, thank you. You sacrificed, and made a great gift to me. Thank you.