May 1, 1994

Samuel: Well, greetings, dears.

Greetings, Samuel.

S: Good. Oh, Lexington, how you hold me!

All right. Good, good month coming up. Do you feel it already? In your bones, all of that life force just sifting through the world right now. Is it just making you as giddy as a little puppy? Aye, do you just want to go nibble on noses right now? Don’t you think? Well, maybe not noses, all right.

How about two gifts? All right!

While I was away …

S: … and away and away.

… there was a fire in the furnace in my house, and the fire apparently shot out through a hole, a view hole, about eight to ten feet, while the person who was fixing it did not run. And he stayed, and with somebody else put the main fire out. The fire engine did not come. And the man who started it—whom I don’t know and whom I intend to get in touch with, stayed, and I feel that’s just such a gift.

S: Because if he had not stayed …

It could have exploded and the whole house could have burnt down.

S: Aye. Walked through the fiery furnace, did you?

Underneath it.

S: Now, I want you to tell me, my soul, why that touches you.

Someone I don’t know cared enough …

S: Aye. Something that could have been, truly, quite an inferno.

Yes, I think that the flames were shooting out of the furnace twelve feet.

S: And the person in charge who remained with it and brought it under control.

Two people, really, but the one that touched me more, the one that wasn’t in my employ when there’s an agreement—that’s understandable. The one who didn’t have … who started it, could have just run out of there, you know, and he stayed.

S: Tell me a gift out of this. Tell me something that you just learned, a principle of living and life that her experience reminded you [of].

Well, it’s commitment under fire.

S: Literally. That’s good.

Sometimes we’re in perilous situations—we see them that way—and we might want to run, but to make that choice to stay is true courage.

S: Holding fast even when it gets very hot, unpleasant. Aye.

What I learned is it sounds like someone took responsibility for their actions and followed through with it to see a completion, and that person now, in Cynthia’s eyes, is remembered for the completion of something that was a disaster, rather than the instigator of it.

S: Very nice, very nice. Glory be. Now that opens up a whole lot of doors, doesn’t it? Good work. Beautiful. Remember that everything that goes on in your life is not only a message to you, but by the way you deal with it a message to others about who you are and what you believe. Everything that goes on in your life, you are teaching somebody something, and including yourself there. What is your life teaching others about what you believe?

Another gift tonight. Aye, dear.

Well, I know this is going to be hard for most people to believe, but I sometimes doubt that I’ve put into action some of the things that I’ve learned. So I had an opportunity to see how much I’ve grown. I had a girl that worked with me for about three years, and in my mind she took a lot of the work load off of me, gave me a chance to do other things I do in my flowers about three days a week. But she quit; like I found out at eleven o’clock on Sunday night she wasn’t going to come to work anymore. So my old pattern would have been, this is too much, this is a disaster, a catastrophe, I can’t handle this, and oh my god, what am I going to do, the Universe hates me, blah, blah, blah! This is a cosmic lesson and I’m not getting it, or whatever. Instead, I realized how much I’ve learned and how much I’ve grown, and I said, you know, this is a real good opportunity for me to see just how much I can do, if I want to do this, and to explore. And I have power here. If I want to hire someone else I can, and maybe I would enjoy being down spending the time doing the flowers, and if I don’t, you know, I can change that, too. And so I was amazed at how little it influenced me. My gift was to see literally how I’ve grown.

S: And you know, it is one of the probably best sort of mile markers, of markers, when you’re able to see your catastrophes really don’t change. Crises keep happening, don’t they? Life continues on, but your response to it changes. And that changes everything.

Give me a couple off of that. Aye.

You have an opportunity to seize the moment and direct yourself a new way, because the pattern has been broken and there’s now growth.

S: Beautiful. Aye. Good work. Another.

Well, that we not just seize that moment, but that we do learn from our mistakes, and that we are smart enough to advance, instead of staying in the same rut.

S: Good. Shows you that you really are one of those magic rubber bands, stretching, moving, being more. Being more, being more. Good work.

This is now the merry, merry month of … aye? And there is an awful lot happening this month. What is it I’m going to talk to you about?

Spring.

S: That’s in there, certainly.

Mothers.

S: Mothers are in there, you mother, you. Aye.

Rebirth.

S: Rebirth is in there. Yes, absolutely.

Wesak.

S: Sure, that could be in there, too.

Putting into action your plans made in the winter.

S: New beginnings, action. That’s where I’m going, yes.

Talk to me, gardener. What’s going on this month.

Leaves.

S: Leaves are coming out.

For everything there is a season. A time to plant and a time to reap what you have planted. And that is what this time is all about. Yes, it is about the beginning of spring and new leaves coming out, because no matter how hard the winter was, spring comes through anyway. It always does; it always will. It is about, now is the time to begin planning what you wish to harvest a bit later on, to prepare the ground for the greatest yield for what you’re putting out. It is a story of mothers—creative feminine energy, which is in every one of you—and a reminder that every one of you, in one way or another, you are a mother, be it the mother of humans or, I think, in the form’s household, the mother of cats and dogs. I’m not sure science would agree with that one. But the mother of every new idea, of every activity you instigate, of every action you take. You are nurturing, you are responsible. But essentially every bit of that is around two things tonight: What you are putting out right now is what you are going to be harvesting later on. What you are putting out right now…. Look at your physical life. Is this the body you want to have for this next year? Is it as healthy, can it move as well, as you want it to be? What about for the next ten years, the next twenty—because everything that you are doing today is going to have its effect farther down the road.

What are you doing for your mental body? How are you feeding your mind, and is it ripe for harvest? What is there to harvest? What is the nature of the fruit you bear?

What about your spiritual harvest? Somebody define for me “spiritual.” That’s a very hard word in this day, where so very often it is associated with some sort of religious practice, and that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about your spiritual harvest here. What am I saying? Aye.

To me spiritual means my practical, my daily life, my practical living and how I go about that, my consciousness about that.

S: Conscious daily living. I would go with that. Conscious daily living. The consciousness of your moment-to-moment experience, or perhaps your moment-to-moment experience done consciously. That’s sort of a trick statement, though, isn’t it? because everybody in here who has been practicing consciousness knows how hard it is.

Here is how to practice consciousness. Everybody, I want twenty seconds of your time. Who here can beep it for me. Frank, can you?

I won’t beep, but I can tell you.

S: All right. I want twenty seconds, and during that twenty seconds I want you to do only one thing. Pick a body part—take off a shoe, look at your toe, look at one finger, the tip of your nose, a piece of your hair. It doesn’t matter what, just one thing, that’s all. One thing. And for twenty seconds put your focus totally on that and nothing else. Not your neighbor, not what you had for supper—nothing but that one object. Only twenty seconds. Go for it, Frank. Begin. [Pause]

Now.

S: Was it good for you? Now, why did I have you do that, when I’m talking about consciousness. Why did I have you do that? What did you get there? What was my point?

Awareness.

S: Acute awareness. Yes. Because that is a part of consciousness. Super-awareness.

Focus.

S: Absolute focus. Can you imagine using that focus on everything that you do every day? Every moment that clear, that directed? Anything else?

I became more aware of other senses.

S: Good. Was looking for that, too. Can you give me a for instance?

Yes. I was looking at my index finger, and I have been writing, and there’s a little red mark right there which is from the pressure of the pencil. And I found myself asking, this awareness of this finger to teach me something about my life. And what I was thinking was that right now I’m in kind of a compression stage of completion and there’s a little bit of pressure right there.

S: That’s not exactly the one I was going for, however, but yes, even that sort of twenty second concentration can give you inner awareness and a greater inner knowledge, and yes, that’s true, that’s very good. But did any of you notice such things as, while you were very, very focused on staring at your finger, you became aware of the seat sensation, perhaps, or maybe your hearing became more acute, or such things as that? Sure, because when you are focused, everything is raised to its highest level. Spirituality is your doing what you do, living how you live, being who you are at this very moment at the highest possible level you are capable of in this moment—insinuating, of course, that the spirituality you are capable of experiencing is going to be different from that you experience in the next moment. Very important to remember. Not only gives you a challenge, but also gives you a break, and sometimes that helps.

So, for your spiritual self, then, what are you doing? What are you doing for that self that is capable of experiencing All That Is at the very highest level? What are you doing for that self? And in that direction, I want to spend just a few moments talking to you about something that your childhood gave you that makes it difficult for you to experience your greatest spiritual awakening.

All right, prepare yourselves now, because here is going to be one of those experiences that you can look back on later and say, “Gee, I knew it happened it my childhood. I knew that it was their fault.” It’s always pleasant when I can give you a target to lay blame on, don’t you think? And that’s so much of what life is about, don’t you think? Seeking out the best target to pass things to. Makes life so much better when you know it’s not you. Don’t you think? It’s always easier when you have no power, because that’s the send-off for no responsibility.

Obviously I’m not going to be giving you a target. I’m going to be explaining to you that, although I heartily endorse your true and honest search for the child within, I do wish that you would hurry up and let the adult take part. After all, it’s the body you are using at the moment and the one that’s having to live this life.

Nonetheless. Most individuals in this particular society are raised with this fairly common experience of what spirituality is about. Spirituality is experienced through—more often than not—the Judeo-Christian view of God, which is also, interestingly enough, should be said the Judeo-Christian-Islamic view of God. And what is that view?

Male.

S: Male, yes. Outside, something out there. What else?

Angry.

Unobtainable.

S: Angry, unobtainable. Angry. Did I hear angry? Angry as in “smite them all?”

Yes.

S: Aye. A lot of smiting in that Old Testament version, don’t you think? Aye. I wonder what that has to do with justifying religious wars. Sorry, that’s another talk, another time.

Heaven and hell. You go to heaven and burn in hell.

S: Your behavior determines what’s going to happen to you in the afterlife, and what’s going to happen to you in the afterlife is going to give you give you heaven, where you are happy and with God, or Hell, where you are not any of those things. Interesting,

God takes care of everything, and you don’t have to do anything. You just believe.

S: God will take care of everything. Therefore you need not to worry at all. His eye is on the sparrow, His eye on you. Not a feather shall come out of the bird. If the feathers are taken care of on the birds, they will be on you, too, correct? Watch out those feathers.

Aye.

God is watching and judging every action.

S: Like Santa Claus. Better watch out, better not cry. That’s right. Knows what you are thinking, that’s right. Sure. Well, I’ve always noticed that very like connection there, haven’t you? That many of your beliefs and many of your beliefs about Santa Claus are very, very much alike. Have you now noticed that? All-watching eye there, and good little girls and boys get all the toys. Sure. Why not?

And how do you meet God? Other than dying.

By being born again.

S: By being born again. Sounds like you’re going to have to visit the horses, doesn’t it? Have to be borne again.

That’s not exactly where I’m going, though. More often than not, where does God live?

Church.

S: Church, sure. In the church. In order to experience God, you’ve got to go to God’s house. And God’s house looks like what? What, Frank, does God’s house look like? You’ve just seen many beautiful houses of God, haven’t you?

Yes.

S: What do they look like?

Very large, very foreboding, generally. Very huge.

S: Foreboding. Goodness, that doesn’t seem like it’s going to draw you right in to a nurturing happy God, now, does it? Let’s try. What does God’s house look like.

Stained glass windows.

S: Lots of stained glass windows.

Wealthy.

S: Sometimes, sure.

Uncomfortable wooden pews.

S: Wooden pews.

It has a steeple with a cross.

S: A steeple, or a dome. But everything that I’m hearing is some building out there, and you were not reared up with a true knowing that what God’s house looks like is what you wee when you look in the mirror. Or maybe you were told that. But you’re not raised up knowing that, and I don’t blame you. Why would you want to have that vicious, judgmental, angry, smiting God in you? And that is what is causing some of the greatest separation that this planet is experiencing. There was a time that it was helpful, good. The type of civilization that the nomadic people and the newly burgeoning awarenesses needed was, here are the rules for coming together and making life.

A few thousand years ago a specific set of rules and something outward to seek and reach out of the muck toward was exactly the sort of God that was needed. Christianity was such a major change in what had been taught over the previous thousands of years, because Christianity’s message was God walks the earth, is loving, is Father. Abba, Jesus said—was the word for God; which meant what a child would say, which meant … the equivalent is “Daddy.”

Stunning revelation, that. Stunning change, that. But—and here is where my message tonight comes—even with the idea of God as your daddy, the child in you still says, no, no, I remember Daddy. No way. Don’t want it, won’t have it.

Your spiritual life is foreign to you because, in order to experience God, you’ve got to go somewhere separate, because whatever is holy is over there in that building; it’s holy ground. Not you, certainly not holy ground. And the child, no matter how deeply, dearly treasured, the child’s experience of God is the child’s experience of parent. No matter how good that parent was, the parent was fallible. To the child, for whom every bit of life came out of those hands, for whom the whole concept of God, of Higher Power, of Source, was parent.

Translation: What you experienced of your parents is how you judge God. How you experienced your parents…. I’m not saying how you experience it now, with an adult’s wise view. I’m talking of the child, the child who sees conflict, the child for whom everything that you needed was given until all of a sudden it was time to stop. And for some of you, unfortunately for some of you, that also comes wrapped up in a package that says, no matter what you do, it will never be enough. Prove your love. For some of you it comes wrapped up in a package which says, you’re nice, but you’ll never fully have my heart as much as somebody else does—your sister, your brother.

Some of you learned early on that you could not trust or fully love, because you had not been trusted or fully loved.

And the child you are became the adult you are, who now, in [being] awakened to wanting more, chooses not to seek out true spiritual power. And you know the biggest reason in those whom I speak with, why they are not seeking out the power they are? Do you want to know why? Because the child remembers seeing the parent misuse it and the adult you are is afraid you will, too.

“Samuel, if I am this being of light, what if I don’t fulfill it? What if it’s not enough? What if I can’t?” Frightening how you can relate to that, isn’t it?

I’ve got a bit of good news for you. You are not the child you were. I’ve got a bit more good news. God is a whole lot more than what your religion needed to tell you It was. And a bit more good news. The holiest place on the planet is the place you go to when you close your eyes and you say, I want to live love. It’s the place inside of you that truly seeks to live love, the only commandment there is.

You cannot live your life running; you cannot, because you cannot live with yourself that way. There comes a point where it is time for you to begin planting that which is going to nourish you for your life. You cannot live on what your parents planted in you, what your society planted in you. You cannot live on what others have told you you could live on—and live with yourself. You won’t be nourished. It is when you choose-forgive me for continuing these farmers’ explanations here—but it is when you choose to put your plow in the ground and turn over new earth and plant seeds and nurture those seeds, as you begin to see that what you are creating is growing and you are harvesting it and you are living off of it, it is only then that you are satisfied, only then. And any gardener and any farmer here will tell you that you don’t count it successful because everything came up. Not everything will come up. Sometimes the bugs get it first. Sometimes there was too much rain, too much of a good thing.

It’s that you have enough. How do you define enough for you? Enough to take care of your needs and give some away? Enough to keep you barely alive? What is enough for you? What is your standard that lets you know your harvesting what you need? Not [that] you’re planting what you need; that you’re doing what works. What is your standard? What is enough for you? How do you know?

Well, if you’re not doing anything, you’ll never know what works, and if you’re doing the same thing over and over and not putting any change into it at all—David, what happens if you grow the same thing in a field over and over.

You deplete the soil; you introduce diseases and insects.

S: Aye. You create super-insects, don’t you? And some of you do that with your life. You just keep doing the same thing over and over—worshipping the same power that hasn’t changed—hah! Doing it the same way, believing the same stuff, following the same patterns over and over and over, and wondering why you feel so empty. Wondering why there’s so little passion in life. And trying to surround yourself with others who feel pretty much the same way so that you don’t have to be the odd one. You can do that; it’s worked for two thousand years.

In this particular month, you are dealing with energies of renewal, of growth, of regrowth, also. That energy is yours. A time to renew your commitment to you. What do you want to be a year from now—physically, mentally, and, yes, spiritually? Well, what needs to be done to bring that about and make that happen? Do you need to just go in and poke up the ground a bit, or do you need to get out the horses and the plow and do a bit of serious work here? What are the seeds you’re choosing to plant? You know, one of the terribles of Christianity is that you will know them by their fruits. But everything goes just a bit farther back; you don’t get any fruit except by the seed that was planted first—and no, I’m not getting into the ground that the seeds are put on.

What seed are you planting in your life? Look at the fruit; that might tell you. Or, if you don’t have fruit, is it because you have no seed? No focus? No vision, no dream? No chance, no hope?

How is your fruit? Is it healthy? Are you happy? Do you love living with you?

It’s a time to grow. The growing requires nurturing. What are you doing to nurture yourself? As a mother nurtures a baby, as a lover nurtures a lover. As you nurture a friend. What are you doing to nurture yourself? If you treated your friends the way you treat you, would you have any? Oooh.

This is a time of power, and you have access to it. And you don’t have to take off your shoes and, with your head bent, walk into the building where God lives, because the good news, my friend, is God is something within, not without. And you access is by using God-language. You know, when you go to Hungary, you want to speak Hungarian in order to be able to communicate and get in with the people. Correct? Well, if you want to connect with God, you use God-language. Guess what God-language is. Yes, it’s the language of love. It’s the doing of love, the speaking of love, the being of love. And it is the fertilizer for the seeds. It is the hope for the harvest.

My message tonight was not new, nor was it particularly funny or exciting or clever. It was absolutely basic, because I have seen very, very clearly that too many of you have not the foggiest idea of how to be beings of spiritual life, and it’s because the whole idea of spirituality is so tied up in the fear of God that you cannot be what you resist.

There will always be the part that says, as Donna so beautifully said in her gift, that says, “Oh, I don’t know if I really have this,” because you’re not seeing fruits, good fruits—even fruit that lives up to your standards. And that says sometimes it’s important to be reminded of the basics. There is one thing you are here to do, and that is live love. And how do you do that? You do that by doing the best you can where you are at the time with what you have.

That’s it. It’s that simple. And by doing that, you light the path for yourself and you light the path for everybody around you. And that’s called spiritual service.

This is a month to commit to you. Get your act together, because you’re going to be bearing what you are making for the rest of your life.

Happy trails, my friends. Glochanumora.