March 4, 2001

Samuel: Hello, dears.

Hello, Samuel.

S: How are you?


S: Good. Good works. And how’s life?


S: Good. Tonight I’m going to talk about what’s going to seem two separate things, but I want you to be aware that it is not two separate things. It all fits together. But I’m going to begin with a bit of a story. All right?

I want you to imagine, once upon a time—aye—and let’s make it you, and hopefully not insulting you to do so. Just so that you can more or less relate to where I am going.

Once upon a time, you were young. Too hard to remember already? Once upon a time, you were young and just starting out on your own. And you determined what it is you wanted to do was go to a new place, different from what you were most familiar with. Different from where you had grown up.

And what you wished to do was to go out and make it on your own, and so you just sort of spun the globe about, and put your finger to a place and looked to see where it is that you ended up. And for this particular moment, we will say it was Lexington, Kentucky, but really you could just fill in the blank anywhere it happens to be. That’s just where you mostly are now.

And you got there, and you started looking around, and you found work to keep you off the streets, whatever it happened to be, and you met a lot of people, and you figured out—what do you do when you first move some place? You find a place to live. You find a place to buy your groceries. Right? These are the things that you do.

But you kept finding that you weren’t happy. And you tried to get involved in what was going on, and you tried to do what you could in order to fit in in this new place, but you never really liked it. It seemed like the people were not friendly, that most of them only seemed to be interested in basketball. Right? That they all seemed to be of a particular mindset—did not like to learn the same things you like to learn, did not like to do the same things you liked to do—that they were just not a real great group of people. And you found yourself getting lonely, for one thing, feeling perhaps a bit like an outcast, maybe. You started wondering if it was yourself, and so you started on to all sorts of—what’s the word? It’s not self-preservation.


S: That’s the one. Self-improvement courses. You started brushing your teeth more often, buying new perfumes, getting different clothes. What are the things that people do? Taking courses on gourmet cooking and . . . you’ve got the idea. All in trying to make yourself the sort of person that others would like.

In the meantime, you even tried to do such things as go to one of the basketball games, watching what was going on. You tried some of the other things that were available in the town as well. What sorts of things.


S: You went to concerts. You went to concerts of all different sorts. You went to concerts of classical music, but, of course, they did not play nearly as well as your friends and family did back home. You went to concerts of rock music—which is such an interesting word there—rock music, and it was just a lot of clashing and banging, and you did not enjoy that too much. And you went, as much as you could, to get in as much as you could, but you kept finding that you weren’t enjoying what was there. What else did you?


S: You went to parties. You learned how to chit-chat so as to introduce yourself around and try to get networks going, but you just did not like the people you were chit-chatting with. They did not care about really important things, like you do.

How about shopping?

S: You went shopping in Lexington, and you found that the things for sale were not of a quality you were used to, that the prices were higher or lower or not what you wanted, and that what was available wasn’t what you enjoyed the most. It just . . . everything . . . nothing . . . all of it . . . none of it . . . it wasn’t right!

So you took to just mumbling to yourself a lot. You’d go out for a walk, and you’d just sort of say, “All right, look, I’m here. I’ve made the investment of time. I’m not going to move. I’m not very happy about all of this, but here we go. Universe, is there nothing out here for me?”

And one day, as you were walking down the pathway, you realize that you constantly see this other person who is watching you mumble along the way. And the next time you are out, mumbling along, you again saw this person. And eventually there came the point that that person smiled at you, and you smiled back. And over a few more days and a few more days, eventually a connection was made and a friendship was begun.

Now, let’s spice it up good. That this friendship had a lot of chemistry that went with it. Hormonal response—hello there! And it started moving its way into a relationship, and as that was happening, Lexington started getting better. In fact, this friend very excitedly said to you one night, Let’s go to a basketball game. I’ve got tickets and they’re really good ones. Let’s go. And you actually found yourself sort of excited about it. And when you went, your friend said to you, “We know that person,” and “I went to school with that one,” and “Here is what’s going on.” And you found yourself being interested. You were enjoying it.

And you went to a concert together, and you liked the music, no matter what sort it was. You went shopping, and all of a sudden there were fun things to do and good places to eat and nice places to shop. Lexington changed radically. And it went from being a cold, unpleasant place to one filled with happy people doing all sorts of interesting things. What happened? Aye.

You changed. Nothing else changed.

S: You changed. Yes.

You got outside of yourself, and started to have a different perspective.

S: Good. Good.

You made connection, anyplace. The relationships are what keep you tied to a place as much as the place.

S: That, too. That, too.

Even though you changed, you impacted that greater whole. Lexington was different, because of you also.

S: Aye. Indeed. Throw that pebble into the creek, and those ripples have an effect all around.

This side of the room is not talking tonight

The basketball game. All of a sudden basketball got very interesting. Why?

You have somebody to enjoy it with.

S: Yes.

One with one. When you meet someone it perpetuates the joy and happiness.

S: Aye, when you’re able to see through the eyes of another, you get a greater perspective. It allows all of the things you have mentioned to be so, but to see through the eyes of another requires what?

A relationship.

S: Right. A relationship. A very basic, bottom line there. To see through the eyes of another requires a connection there for it, but Frank?

There needs to be a desire.

S: And that’s the one. You’ve got to want to. You’ve got to want to.

So this you, that had been so miserable in Lexington for so long—and, all right, let’s take Lexington out of the picture here. Maybe we could fill in—oh, what?—Louisville would certainly work, but let’s don’t even go there. Broaden it out a bit more. How about Earth? Earth works. Or a phase of your life. That’s right. Or what else? Form. Being in this stuff. Being . . . and you fill in that blank. Here. Now. Lonely. Not satisfying. Not friendly people. Not exciting things to do. Until you’re looking through the eyes of another, which requires your wanting to. Why would you want to?

Because you’re sick of your own.

S: Perhaps. Perhaps it’s because you’re so sick of being so miserable that you’ll grasp at most anything. But Jim said earlier, you want to because there’s a relationship there. Now, that one was the one step before Frank’s point that you’ve got to want to, you’ve got to have that desire, but you want to have that desire because there is a relationship. Must be a relationship that works for you, in some way, for you to care about how they see a thing.

Remember these things. Pay attention here. It’s going to come back.

You have a desire to see through the eyes of another, through the eyes of somebody whom you have some sort of a relationship with. Why do you have that desire? It might be because you’re so miserable. It might not be.

Because you want to be closer to that person.

S: Yes! That’s the one. You see through the eyes of another because you desire to, you choose to, and you choose to because you want to be closer to that other—in order to choose to be closer to the other.

Wouldn’t it have been a lot easier if I’d just started at the bottom instead of constantly working back?

What must you do? No, let me say it differently. For you to choose one thing, what does it need? Did that set you up better?

For you to get what you chose.

S: For you to get what you chose. That’s true, but for you to choose this thing, what does that need?

You have to be aware that you want it. You have to know what you want throughout.

S: True. That is true. And you’ve got to be willing to let go of this thing. When you choose to see through the eyes of somebody you wish to be closer to, you are releasing your desire to stay lonely. You are being willing to let go of what was making you unhappy for the hope—that’s all it is, it’s a hope—that this will make you happy.

Are you with me? Can you see what I’m saying in your own life or in everyday terms, rather than this game of somebody who’s lonely and unhappy and does not quite feel like they fit in—which, of course, you cannot relate to at all. Somebody who doesn’t really have a lot of friendships and relationships, who decides that they’re going to try to reach out because they’re so miserable. Surely, there’s got to be something out there. And they take one little step forward, reaching out to another, because they’re willing to let go of the loneliness, the not fitting in, the unhappiness. They’re willing to release what has been for the hope of what might be. Is there a question?


S: Go ahead.

That example is someone who has a miserable period of their life that they’re going through. But what if the experience of seeing through the eyes of another and your life getting better happens, then you want to do it because you know it makes your life even better, so then it becomes a pattern in your life. You’re letting go of what you have because you know it will only get better.

S: Hopefully, because you hope, but you’ve got a bit more success behind you, but you continue to hope.

Two things to think about there. The first one is ,what are the eyes you see through in this world? And why? Why? How does it serve you?

And the second thing is, what is it you’re giving up in order to have hope in your life. What is it you are giving up in order to have hope? Now, this younger you was giving up what? I’ve already said it. This isn’t hard.


S: Loneliness for one thing. Sure. Unhappiness perhaps. But even lonely and unhappy, it was still living day to day. Still making it through. There was a certain amount of safety in that loneliness and unhappiness. It’s hard to seek the unknown. You devise all manner of hiding from yourself that you have stopped seeking. You learn to justify it. You build your life around enjoying poverty in any number of ways.

All right, hold that. Hold those thoughts. Hold that picture there. All right.

Now, hello, dear ones. And how are you?


S: Good. Good. It’s always nice to hear you say things are great. You know, it seems like it’s been months that I say, “And how are you?” And you go, [gasps dramatically]. So much, so fast. Slow down!

You’re in a very interesting time right now, a time in which there are some very strong energy currents moving about. And those energy currents are floating very easily into a type of thinking going on in mass consciousness right now. Anybody have any ideas where I’m going with this? Think about what this time is about. Ideas?

A lot of fear, unrest. Worry about stock market and job losses.

S: But what I want you to think about is how a lot of that’s being channeled right now into the time of year that you have. You know that you’ve just . . . you’re moving toward Easter, and so for the Christians amongst you, you are in the midst of what?


S: Yes. Another interesting picture.

We’re moving into springtime and with that is the desire to . . . the energy’s there to do something. That there is probably not as clear a perspective of what that should be.

S: For many. And you at this corner of the world are moving into springtime, and in another corner they are moving toward autumn. Your world, as always, is seeking balance. You are also constantly seeking balance. You have Lent. You have the time of great sacrifice. Well, all of your major religions right now are working in that same sort of energy flow. Somebody want to try to figure out what that is? And I’m not just talking your major Christian religions.


S: Rebirth. Yes. Yes. Good.


S: Good. [Laughter] Again?

March Madness.

Basketball madness

S: Ah, that one. The great religion of Lexington. Yes. All right.

[…] greatest. The most drastic change, as far as spring and rebirth is concerned that is made, both in the natural world and in the human world.

S: Or autumn and the slowing down that’s creating a platform to move from again. Autumn, unlike winter, where you have that which is gone in order to come through, autumn is the time in which you’ve got to plan what’s going. Spring is the time in which you plan what’s coming.

This is a time in which the focus is sacrifice, be it because it is a death moving toward a resurrection, in whatever way you want to see it through the seasons, through the religions. It is a time of sacrifice in which the story, for one third of the major religions in your world, the story is that of Abraham who took his son and, depending upon which version of the story you’re going to pay attention to—and for this purpose it doesn’t make a difference—it was Isaac, it was Ishmael. Why? Aye.

Because God asked him to.

S: So it would seem. Said, “Abraham, take the kid to the hill.  Tie him up and sacrifice him.”

Now, I’ve told this story before and what was my point? Anybody remember? I said that it was not Abraham’s story. It was the story of the child whose father said, “Come with me.” He came. Father said, ”Put on this blindfold,” and he did. Father said, “Lie here for a bit, will you?”

Very much what we’re doing here on the planet, isn’t it?

S: And he did. All right, you have that story in your head. Now move back to where we started this night. Back to falling into Lexington, being unhappy. Finding somebody. Looking through their eyes and finding that it’s not so bad there after all. Got it? What’s the point? Stuart?

Trust. It’s sacrificing the known or sacrificing ourselves in order to expand that.

S: That’s good. That’s very good. And the word you said was. . . ? Trust. Aye. Sacrificing the known requires trust. Sacrificing the known.

Abraham laid his child upon the altar, because he believed God said, This is what I require. Why would he do that? Many of you are parents. Could you? Why would he do that? Well, clearly it’s because the God of Abraham was so cruel that Abraham knew that if he did not do what God asked for, he would smite his family and all of the tribe, and onward and onward.

Of course that’s the reason. Because surely everybody knows that humans respond to fear very well, and therefore threats of depredation and degradation are the best sort of things to get the herd into the proper corral. Right? Well, looking at your own life, isn’t that what works? Hasn’t it been for years that you have found you are more motivated by fear, that you talk about what makes you happy only with those who are happy in the same way you are, because you don’t want to be different, even if what you have works? Because you don’t want to risk what? What’s your child that you won’t sacrifice? Ego? What is it that you are bartering hope, trust, and freedom for?

Abraham could risk his son only because he could see through the eyes of his God. You risk nothing because you only see through your eyes. And, indeed, there is little hope there, because your eyes hold the memory of what is not enough.

And for the sake of this evening: God’s eyes, what would they see? If you looked through the eyes of Source, would March be as mad? If what you saw, you were seeing through the eyes of a lover, would it be different? If it were through the eyes of Source, that loss, would it be different? What, what do you sacrifice really?

This time, this time right now, has everything to do with releasing, letting go. Purification is what it’s all about. Cleansing in order to what? Well, probably in one form of thinking, in order to be worthy. But just as I was playing the “where did that come from, and where did that come from, and where did that come from” a few moments ago in regard to why is it all of a sudden Lexington looks better, and why is it basketball is more fun, and why is it because choosing to see and willing to risk so that there would be trust, what about for you?

Very detached, if possible, look at your life. The first thing that I want to ask is, How much of a stranger are you looking at when you look at your life? How long have you been following the same rut so that you really don’t know you. Do you have a situation happen to you more often than you’d want to admit in which people tell you that they love things about you that you don’t know about you? You don’t see that. Or maybe they don’t like about you things you don’t know about you. For all the safe and obvious reasons.

When you stop and take a look at you, do you even know who you see. And what you do see that you know, why is it you know that one? Stop and look through the eyes of yourself for a moment. Why is it you know what you know about you? What else is there to know? How far have you come? How far is there to go? Are you still living in a world in which you are lonely, unhappy? Are you still living in a world in which there are not other people like you? None of them have two eyes, two ears, one nose, two legs, two hands. That’s enough, that’s a start right there! Are you living in a world that is dangerous, and so you fear getting out in it? Are you living in a world that is unsafe, angry, out to get you, to hurt you? Are you living in a tent, because you do not believe yourself worthy of the palace, because you’re not willing to sacrifice the tent if the palace is not right in front of you?

This is a time—here it comes, you know the words—of great change. And it is, isn’t it? It really is. And the world you are living in is a reflection of you, what you feel about what’s out there—I’m happy, I am sad; people are wonderful, people are scary. Has everything to do with the relationships you let yourself have. Has everything to do with what you are not willing to give up. I cannot give up my miserable self in order to seek a happier one, because the miserable one has been with me for so long. I’ve learned some of my best stuff from the miserable one. All of my survival mechanisms are based in this misery. This is a good friend. I cannot risk.

So God, Source, All That Is—pick whichever phrase flows the most easily for you—put Abraham into Lexington, and called him Marion, called him Hester, called him friend, called him Jerry, called him by—quick, take a look at your name tag; what does it say?—by that name. And said, “You are in a wonderful place, a place that can be summed up in one word. And that word is promise, such promise. The potential, not only for happiness, for majesty, is so great. Everything you do is a part of you, Abraham. You will love it there.” And depending upon what Abraham’s relationship with Source is, Abraham went there saying, “This is going to be fun, or not.”
So, perhaps one of the first questions is, Is it that you just don’t want that relationship, and that’s why you won’t see through those eyes? You don’t want that relationship, because you said earlier that what it takes to be able to enjoy basketball is seeing it through the eyes of your lover. But you’ve got to want to. Is it that you don’t want to? “Oh, no, Samuel, that’s not it! Because that leaves the other reason: It’s not worth the sacrifice. I cannot risk letting go of . . . ,” and in the same way that you filled in the blank earlier with earth or this phase of your life, I cannot risk letting go of . . . ? Let’s fill in a few blanks here. Of what? Again?


S: I cannot risk letting go of my ego which says, this is what reality is about. This is the box. I cannot get out of the box. Everything that’s in here is okay. Nothing else is. I cannot sacrifice . . .


S: Control. Sure. I cannot sacrifice . . .

The need to be right.

S: The need to be right, sure.


S: That which I’m familiar with for that which I am not.

The approval of others.

S: Cannot sacrifice the status quo, because I’ve got it worked out there, and I know what they like and I gave that to them, and they know what I like and they give that to me, and if I don’t have that approval, I won’t have that. And I’ve got to have it in order to pay the rent or buy the groceries or have the relationship.

You don’t make the sacrifice because you’re better at what you are than at what you might be. It’s not worth the sacrifice because you’re happy as it is. It’s not worth the sacrifice, because what you’re exchanging isn’t right there in front of you. And the reason it’s not right there in front of you is that you’re looking through the wrong eyes. The reason you do not see it dropped into your lap is because you’re looking through the wrong eyes. The reason you do not hear “Thank you. You don’t have to do anything now. Put the knife away”—“Good news,” Abraham said—is because you are doing everything you can to hold on to that knife and focus so much on that knife, and you’re so overwhelmed with the intensity of the experience holding that knife, getting ready to let go of the most important thing in your whole life—I’ll do it, I’ll do it—that you cannot hear the little voice that says, Thanks, that’s enough. Go home now.

You’re so wrapped up in yourself that there can be no other. And what a view it gives. Looking through your eyes, what a view it gives. Is it really worth it? Well, it’s safe, and that’s something. It’s safe. That’s something.

You do not see it. It’s right in front of you, and you must ask Samuel, “What path should I take? What choice is the right one.” You ask your friends, “What do you think?” You ask your family, “If it were me what would you do?” Because you’re not looking through the eyes of Source.

And, here it comes: Why? Why? Because it serves you better not to. And that self, the one that is served by not looking, that’s the one to put on the altar and sacrifice. This is a time of releasing what does not serve. This is a time of releasing what does not serve. And remembering that the microcosm is a reflection of the macrocosm. Hear me carefully as I say, This is a time of releasing what does not serve. It is time to sacrifice the self that will not look through the eyes of Source by choice. This is a time of releasing what does not serve, because [long pause] . . . because your world is going to be run by those who are serving, and that is to say, you will be herded or you will do the herding. You must release what does not serve. It’s time to stop fooling around.

Well, that means a lot of things, doesn’t it? It’s time to stop fooling around—along with Lent and rock music. To stop fooling around, meaning stop kidding yourself and stop fooling yourself.

All right. The train goes with you or without you. All aboard!

Happy trails. Glochanumora.