May 2, 2004

Samuel: Well greetings, dears.

Greetings, Samuel.

S: Good, good, good. You are getting much more used to just letting your energy flow a bit more freely, and not sucking it right in when you’re sitting here. Very good.

Oh, and I know who that is. Hello, love. [Picks up Teetee] “Help me! Help me!” Ah, little do you know that I just scared a dog tremendously, not very long ago at all. Did she ever get over it?

So how are you. When last we were together—also good—when last we were together, we had talked a lot about making some very serious changes. So how were you with that? All right, do we need to review? When last we were together, what is it we were discussing? I’ll give you a hint: it was before the Retreat; it was the beginning of April.

Clearing out.

Cleaning out.

S: Clearing out. Cleaning out might be a bit different, yes? You have to be fifty for that, right? Right?


S: Yes. That’s right. [Looks down at his pants.] Well, we’ve got . . .

Yes, pantaloons.

S: All right. All right. Just making sure.

[. . .]

S: I probably could if I tried. The Form wouldn’t be able to walk again, of course, but . . .

Clearing out what?


S: Good.

I think you called them tentacles in our lives. Places that we needed to clear up and let go and complete.

S: Completion is the key word in there. Paula.

You talked about using an object, an effigy, of some kind that would give us a connection to the person or the circumstance of what we wanted to clean out, and using that to enable us to work through that magic process that would release it for the highest good.

S: Aye. How many of you did that? Good, good, good. Good. And Kathy, will you tell your version?

Sure. I wanted to make something three-dimensional, and I also wanted it to be organic.

S: The artists.

Yes. And I didn’t know how I was going to do that, and it dawned on me that I could use . . . I could bake something up and make it out of bread dough. So I decided to get biscuits and shape little people out of them with little arms and little legs, you know, with gratitude and thoughtfulness. I created a couple of little effigies, and while they were baking in the oven for eleven to twelve minutes, I was thinking of all the things that I was grateful for in those situations, and then I drove down to the river, and let them float down the Kentucky river, and maybe they made a few ducks happy on the way.

Very clever.

S: I still just love that. It’s just grand. And Don, you said?

She could bite their heads off if she wanted.

S: That’s right. But only those who did it to her first, you see. That’s the completion process. And she could sort of dress them up.

Yes, I used raisins for the eyes, seeds for, like, you know, the nose.

S: Stick toothpicks in them as part of the . . . all right, no.

Some years ago you suggested that we might do something of that sort, and . . . 

S: It’s a good one. They keep coming back.

Well, you suggested that we, you know, do some form of formal release so I made this little handkerchief effigy of myself. I put it in a little plastic box, and I drove all the way out to the Lexington Cemetery. And I decided that after I had said my little words over it that I was going to drown it in the pond out there. And I went to do this and the darned thing wouldn’t sink. I kept stuffing it down, but it didn’t want to die.

S: You said that this was yourself.

Yes, but it wouldn’t go. Finally I had to take it out of the little plastic box, soak it in the water to get it good and wet, and I threw it way out in the middle of the pond where I couldn’t reach it, and I figured it would go eventually.

S: I rather like how much like you it was. Very hard to keep down. That’s a good one.

So, along with that, I thought that there might be some questions that could flow with it. Additionally, since the retreat—many of you took part in the retreat that’s past; there might be questions that would come with this. Nice of you to come home, Gwendolyn. And simply that this is a time with so many things going.

[To Oma, the dog] You have questions too, don’t you? And nobody’s written it down for you, have they? Well, you talk to Heidi about it later, all right? And when you do that, she’ll ask it for you, all right? Good.

And with anything else going on in your life, you mjght have a few questions about it as well. I will tell you that my preference would be that it was something to do with the nature of sound or communication, but if you ask it right, I’ll answer whatever seems appropriate.

So Heidi . . .


S: You’re willing, and . . .

I have them.


S: You have them already. Oh, well, very good. Very good. Perfect. And you have a tail today, dear.

Why don’t you go around this way?

Thank you, Suzie. Thank you, Don. My roadies.

S: Oh, it would just be such a shame if you fell right off the edge.

I’ve done it before.

S: It could flatten you down and shorten you. Can’t have that.

I am standing.

S: That’s the phrase that comes after Heidi. I am standing! And do you know the rules here?


S: When you’re finished with one?

I flip it.

S: You try to land it on Don’s lap.

Okay. That’ll be fun.

S: Good. Very good. So let’s go.


S: That’s me.

“Any unique opportunities available this week, come Tuesday, with the Wesak energy that we could seize the opportunity through any intent or action?”

S: Gracious, that’s a lovely thing. Yes, there are. Plenty. You’ll get the hang of it, don’t worry. Now, you see, if we can get through them all that quickly, there might be an opportunity for another hand or two to come up and say, “Exactly what are those opportunities that you would like to share with us?” But, I’ll answer what you ask.

“At the time that the labyrinth could and was successfully used as a tool for interdimensional travel, why did it work? How was that information given, and—weasels—and how can the labyrinth best be used in 5:3:2 energy?”

S: Good questions. All right, let’s break it into pieces. How was it that it became a portal, is that what the first one being asked [is]?

Right, a tool for interdimensional travel.

S: All right, a couple of things I want you to be aware of with a question like this—and tonight there are likely to be a good amount of very airy-fairy questions that you have absolutely no interest in at all, but the person right next to you might. So be patient when we work through those.

[Stuart comes up to rearrange Heidi’s microphone] Yes, he does that to me too. I think he just likes to feel on you. Could show him the ears. Where was it recently? Was it at the ULM meeting that just passed that it was not stuck on well enough, and it would just pop off, pop off, pop off.

So, back to that. There may be some questions that you’re really not sure what they’re about, and you may not be able to figure it out, even when the question is answered. So I would ask for those of you, when that comes up, that you be patient and that you be sure to ask somebody, because you might be finding out something that’s of particular interest to you, and you might be finding that it’s just the particular language used, it’s not really a subject you don’t know anything about. So, let me go back to that.

The labyrinth: I have said at one point that they were used as an interdimensional travel portal.

[Oma makes loud noise] I don’t mind if she barks, love.

How were they used in that way? This answer is not going to be satisfying to you, but maybe as it continues further it will. Particular ritualized work, no different than what you are doing today for things that do not have labyrinths attached to them. Any interdimensional work is always the result of a creation process that—just like now—involves common intent, common thought, common activity, all based on a—what might you call this?—a preheated oven. Before you cook your biscuits, you turn the oven on, you let it come up to the temperature you’re needing. Correct? That’s preheat. Yes? All right, yes. Sort of like a preheated oven. What do I mean by that?



S: Right. Perfect. Perfect. All of the above. Absolutely. When you have those ingredients together, something’s going to happen. Now, what it is that happens is different in many, many situations, and when you have a spot at which the same thing is done repeatedly, pretty soon that spot becomes [primed].

That also works with your mental self too. You create, more or less, pathways in your brain in which certain activities are more easily accessed. You create those solid labyrinths on the inside that are shown up on the outside. And by putting the place, the space, the awareness, and the working as one together, you’re going to be able to bring about what that space, place and common work was for.

More on that, or did I slide them all in there?

How was that information given? The information, the tool of interdimensional travel. How did people find that out?

S: How did they figure out that it could be used that way?

And how did, I guess, other people get that information to be used?

S: Just like everything else. Those who did it found out they could do it, and let others know that they too could do it.

That’s good.

S: All right.

And then how can it best be used in 5:3:2 energy?

S: Anything that involves creating One Heart, One Mind and One Body—oh, let’s don’t do that—is a very good thing. Oh, better already.

“Why did you suggest that we smudge our residences inside and out at this particular time?”

S: Because it’s such a good thing to do now and again. And I did not suggest it to everybody, did I?

“At the retreat, you said in passing, in connection with dying, as a result of not taking good care of the body, quote—I don’t know if it’s really a quote, but—you can help achieve Sacred Status from the other side. What would that be like? Is Joy doing it?”

S: Ah, Joy. All right, remember that you are this body. Right? You’re sitting there in the middle of it, and as far as it can reach is as far as you can reach, and as solid as you sit is as solid as it sits. You are this body, but you’re also beyond this body, aren’t you? And, even if that’s a hard one for you to think about—well, I don’t know that I’m really beyond this body, too—maybe I could say when you dream, you go to sleep and you dream. You do that, don’t you, now and again? Little bits and pieces here and there. Some of you much more than others. Some of you so much that you’re not sure which one is living. Which is not dreaming, dreaming? Yes. Think about your dreams and those dreams in which what you’ve done is you have looked out on the panorama going on—diorama, yes?—going on, and you’ve watched yourself or someone else taking part in one thing or another. Even if the way that you wanted to think about it was “There is a part of me that functions in dreams,” that’s all right. The only thing I’m going for is you are more, much more, than this.

However, one quick aside: right here, form rules. So, that’s something to remember when you start getting really frustrated at what’s going on with your physical experience. It’s a part of what happens here, and it’s extremely important that you slowly break down—or quickly break down, for some of you—so you’re not stuck in this, so throughout your experience you don’t begin forgetting that there is more than this.

So, that part of you that isn’t here, that part of you that is the one that, if you will, directs you here now and again, I call that the entity. For those individuals that have chosen to be a part of this time of transition in order to bring about the completion of Sacred Status for this planet, and in that work have chosen to—don’t misunderstand these words—to activate, to guard and to guide life force energy toward the completion of that greater Plan, they I call Guardians—Guardians of the Plan. Now, those Guardians, think of them as a greater entity, and they have one finger in the puddle and one finger not in the puddle. And the puddle is this planet, this time, this space, right here, right now, you, and the greater You, sort of like dreaming-the-puddle you. When the puddle is finished here, it connects back into the greater and the work continues, because the work of the greater is that version of the lesser—are you keeping up with this?—the work of the greater is that version of the lesser that goes beyond the boundaries that the lesser was stuck with.

Now, what’s Joy doing now? Working really hard to get over it. All right.

“Samuel, do you have any dog treats? This is from Oma.”

S: Is that those little soft things that you bring to them? Treats? All right.

“As Guardians, how can we best prepare ourselves to awaken the Dragon?”

S: Mouthwash and brush your hair. All right, some of you got it. Made sense to me. Just floating about. Maybe not everybody calls their mate “the dragon,” but there you go. Did that help. Well, maybe they just did not like it. All right.

What can you do to prepare awakening the Dragon? One of the things that you need to do, without a doubt, is to awaken and activate the Dragon within you. That involves something that I’ve been saying a lot of lately, that involves . . .


S: Oh, well toning is nice, but the word is . . .


S: Dying. Yes. Now this isn’t a purple Kool-aid moment. That’s not what I’m saying. I am saying how . . . wait, what am I saying? What do I mean when I am talking to you about the importance of dying?

Releasing ego.

It’s up to you, it’s not about you.

S: Releasing ego, which shows up as “It’s up to you, not about you.” I like that. There was more in that.

Okay, make biscuits and do completions.

S: Make biscuits, do completions. Those things which . . . those things in your life that are holding you back from being what you are. Those things in your life that hold on to you and cause you to have within your life such things as impatience, anger, hate. Those things that bring out in you your excuses about, Well, I’m only human. Dying to those parts of you that are not God. Doing that awakens what is inside of you, sort of like when Oma gets really excited by your energy and starts running around in little circles—a few moments ago, aye—there’s a part of you in there that’s doing that same thing, and every time you move closer to being what you truly are, you get a little happy dog dance going on inside of you. Worked for me. And the results of that allow you to do it again, and try it again, and do it again, and try it again, until you have filled your life more with that which works to bring you to the fullness of what you are, while you are here doing the best you can, where you are, with what you have at the moment as who you are, and blooming, growing and blooming through that process, is that awakened Dragon waiting to become an activated Dragon. What do you think creates an activated Dragon? It’s not hard. Don’t look toward a great, deep version of it. Yes, Suzanne.

Doing something with that energy.

S: Perfect. Perfect answer. Say it again.

Doing something with that energy.

S: Right there. Choosing to act at the best, the highest, the most loving. Choosing to serve this world as a beacon of love, an emissary of love.

And when you have awakened and activated the Dragon within yourself, then your energy shifts to a frequency that will allow those particular points of high level dragon energy in this world to begin shifting as well. Now, that’s a very, very short version of a much longer process, but [it] works for this.

“As Guardians continue in the dying process and become conduits for the Perfected Ones, is it possible to have that perfected energy at all times and to be aware of it? If so, what is the most important thing that we can use that energy for?”

S: Yes, unity. Unity is the key for it and the work with it.

“You have encouraged us to make friends with the stars. In that light, will you tell us what are the names of the other stars we set up in the Star Weaving, and perhaps a word or two about the energy each represents?”

S: Hmm, have I heard this question before? I think so.

The first thing that I want you to remember is that there are very few things on this planet in which your word for it is anything like my word for it. The names of the stars. What are they? There is the brightest star in the Pleiedes that I refer to as the center of your galaxy, the heart of it. What word is that?


S: And how many ways do I say that word?


S: At least. At least, because it’s not my word, it’s your word, your name. As much as I absolutely, totally adore whoever you are, it’s not the name that relates. And, in fact, now and again, I’ll look right at you—and have to some of you—and call you a name that isn’t the right one this time around. It’s hard to keep them all.

So for me to say to you, “All right, here are the names of those stars,” it’s not going to mean anything. I will say this, though: they relate . . . no, let me say it this way. I will say this and nothing more: they relate and are indeed parallel hierarchical transmission sites and physical receptors.

“Please give . . .” 

S: You’re doing very well at it.

Thank you.

S: I’m impressed. Aye.

“Please give . . .”

S: She’s good for so much, isn’t she?

I try. “ Please give us some anger-management suggestions for Guardians. “Crawling under a rock for a while” helps, but is there something else you could recommend that would be helpful, especially with quick reactions?

S: Over and above crawling under a rock for a while? I thought that was a really good one. You get angry and you just crawl under a rock for a while, and help yourself until you get over it.

Anger is a habit, it’s a reaction. It is a habit that has remained in your life because, for some reason or another, you have found that it works to create—and here you pretty well have to put in your own answer to the blank—to create, in one way or another, getting something you want.

Now, it’s a habit. It’s not real. What do I mean by that, It’s a habit, it’s not real? When you’re angry, it feels pretty real doesn’t it? We’ll do Catherine, we will do Janet, we will do Paula.

[Looking at Teetee] Has she eaten something strange? Feathers? All right.

A reaction to a perception of separation.

S: Anger is a reaction to a perception of separation. Big picture—yes, that’s very true.

Anger is the opposite of love,

S: Yes it is.

And fear, and the way I see it, we have really created fear, it’s not a creation of us, of our spirits. So, the anger is not real because it’s ours.

S: I really like that answer a lot.

It’s an automated response that we have had some kind of conditioning at some point that often covers up some deeper emotion that we don’t want to feel.

S: Good.

So anger is a way of dealing with it.

S: And usually the emotion that you’re trying to cover up is what?



S: Big picture—fear. Smaller picture—you are afraid of a loss. Now, what is that loss? Well, there are for as many ones of you that are sitting here, as many ones of you that are watching this, there is a different version of what that might be. But, for the sake of giving an example, let’s try this. You’re driving along, minding your own business, being a good little boy or girl, and all of a sudden somebody comes into your lane and cuts you off, and it makes you so angry when that happens. Some of you say the most interesting things when that happens. Your volcabulary immediately goes right down the tube. All right. Why does it make you angry? What is it possible that you could be fearing? Or, right down to it, what is the loss that you’re afraid of?

All right, control is one. A very obvious one. If somebody takes up the space that you are in and there is not an immediate quantum shift into a parallel universe, then there is going to be some sort of collision, and that’s scary. So you not only are losing control, but part of what you might be losing control of is life. That can be scary. Any other thoughts about control, what one might be losing?


S: Choice. Free will. Good.

The culture’s predictability of driving.

S: Sure. Sure. You’ve got to look at it with open eyes, and anytime you’re looking for the spiritual foundation of a thing, look at it with an open heart as well. Don’t automatically cut off—this isn’t about fear, I’m not afraid of anything. Weave it through your heart. If your reaction—reaction—is not one that adds to the love and joy in your life, there’s two things you want to look at. The first one is reaction. Responses are a choice. Reactions are an automatic, unthought process. And the second thing that you want to look at . . . well, I’m hearing it from some of you. All right, you want to pay attention that you’re not in the middle of a reaction, and if you are in the middle of a reaction, what is the loss you’re looking at?

[. . .]

S: Or in any other situation, whatever it happens to be that you’re looking at. By giving yourself the opportunity to rethink the situation, you’re going to give yourself the opportunity to replay it. And when you replay it, you will do it consciously—please, please, please—and change it. And when you do that often enough, it will become as familiar to you as anger used to be.

Now, does that cover all kinds of anger? No. On a very broad list of it, sure it does. But on the moment by moment what you are experiencing with this particular person or this particular scenario, or that particular car, it may be different, but ultimately, that’s going to help you make that change. It’s all about your reaction.

[. . .]

S: Thank you.

“At the retreat, you responded to some questions about current world events, specifically about Iraq and our upcoming election. I understood you to say that right now is a very dangerous time and the uninhabited Guardianship is watching the planet. When you refer to this . . .” 

S: Actually what I said was “it.” You are being watched.

Okay. “When you referred to this being a very dangerous time, what specifically do you mean?” And there are a number of questions about politics and the Middle East, so this is sort of a general one.

S: Do you remember in your life, can you remember back far enough to remember the first time you hurt yourself? You know you are absolutely free and fearless until the first time pain comes into your life. And pain comes into your life on different levels.

Those of you who are parents, you know that you might have two children, and one of them doesn’t care if it falls and bleeds and hurts itself; it just picks up and keeps right on going. I shouldn’t keep saying it should I? And you really just . . . physical pain isn’t one of those things that’s very scary to that child. And the other one: it might be that just the possibility that pain might happen causes the child to crawl under that rock and hide for a few days. People are like that. You all have different levels of tolerance of everything.

When you look back to the first time you remember hurting yourself, what was your response? Now, every one of you have a different version, and so I’m going to just make one up here that will sort of fit for many of you, perhaps, and I’m going to go with a physical pain rather than the mental pain of your father going off to work and abandoning you, and the deep pain that caused you that you’re still working to get over. You were minding your own business, you had just learned to walk, the whole world was opening up to you, you took a step in perfect balance and the next thing that happened is you just went down hard and fast. Like a lot of things in life, there you go, boom big! And maybe you cried. And you did not cry because it hurt all that much. Why did you cry? It’s because you wanted comfort. That’s pretty much the only reason you ever cry—seeking to comfort yourself or to gain comfort from others.

Now, that was a very defining point, because all of a sudden that—how old are you when you start to walk?

A year. Maybe less.

S: A year, two years, five, six. Twelve or so. Forty-five some of you. Yes. Yes. I suppose it depends on what kind of walk we’re talking about there, yes?

So that one-year-old has a choice all of a sudden. “I am never going to put myself in a situation that hurts me like that ever again,” or, “Whoa, that wasn’t fun! I’m going to be more careful next time.” And then there are those amongst you who are the, “Whoa, that was fun too, let’s keep going!”

What’s the parent doing, watching all of that?


It depends.

S: Gasping. I know about Depends now.

You learned about that at the retreat.

S: At the retreat, that’s right. Somebody else. All right.

The parent may have not noticed, that’s possible. Comes running because they heard the yell. That’s possible. Sure, that’s possible. It’s possible that the parent saw the child take those first steps and was so overcome with the beautiful power of that child’s first step on its own that it missed the fall. So far none of these are particularly likely, but just imagine that everything covered there, and I’ll just shift right on to the point.

Most of the time, the parent is proud, happy, that that sign of proper development is happening, and they’re watching, not wanting that child to fall enough times that they stop trying, but to fall enough times that they know they can get over it and keep going, and become brave enough to walk eventually.

Human beings seek power over—power over. Power over you, power over another nation. The nature of the human security mechanism is, If I rule I can make everybody do what I know is safe and therefore right. And in a hundred different ways you express that every day. It’s all about keeping yourself safe. Bottom line of the human scale is, I am safe when I know what’s happening, and when I know what’s happening I’m all right. So I’m going to do everything I can to make sure that I know everything that’s happening.

War is the result of “You need to be doing what I tell you to do. I’m the one doing it right so I will let you know that you must do what I say.” Now, that’s a very broad version of it, but from the beginning of humanity, in one way or another, that is always what’s there.

But right now your world is on the brink. On the brink of what? Of recreating itself or destroying itself, frankly speaking. Frankly speaking would be with a pun, right?

There are Guardians here, remember back, the ones in the puddle—that’s you—and there is that greater part watching to see how the ones in the puddle are doing, what they’re doing, how they’re doing it, and then faced with this remarkable time, what are they choosing. Knowing that if that baby falls one more time the baby might just give up, but if you interfere and let them know that you are there to pick them up and dust them off and keep them from being hurt . . . How many of you were the sort of parents who carried your child around until they were too heavy for you to carry, because that was a lot better than letting them fall and hurt themselves? Some humans lead countries that way. I will rescue you from your own self. I will take from you your ability to find out what you are capable of because I am much safer if I know what you’re doing, and so I want to be in a place where I can tell you what you will be doing.

Your world is on the brink of walking or not walking. And those parents, for the sake of this particular version of expressing it, those parents are also on a brink, figuring out how much is enough, not too much. Figuring out which falls are okay. You fall on the bed it’s not very bad, but you fall and knock your head up against the concrete porch, it might be bad. Do you step in when they have nuclear opportunities? Or do you go ahead and allow that to happen knowing that—[Stuart signals to Samuel] you see, that’s the sort of thing Stuart does. He’s saying, You’re going to have to shut up very soon—or do you allow it to go because it’s all right for maybe three hundred thousand people to die a merciless death, but not all right for three hundred million to? It’s a very dangerous time. There is war all over your world. There is war in your streets, right here in America. Do you realize that? I mean war, not psycholigical.

And although this is moving off the question, I’m going to just pop it out there, your ability to deny what you see does not help, because it does not mean that people are not dying, losing hope, getting angry, and making the next fall a lot harder, a lot worse.

The Middle East, as I said at the retreat, is not the only place on your planet that is absolutely dangerous for you. There are many, many poor choices about what is and is not worth your attention. You don’t have to get involved in voters’ registration. In fact, frankly, that would probably have less of an effect in the larger picture.

What you can do is activate your Guardianship. Get your dragon activated. Serve what you are through who you are. Send energy. Pray. Put a Band-aid on the globe and every time you see it, change it to a new place, anything, anything that reminds you that your tiny little slice of this world is just that, a tiny little slice. It’s so much bigger and there’s so much more, and the only way you can make a difference in it—a serious difference in it, not a temporary one—is to make a spiritual difference. You being all you can be—as opposed to all you’re told to be—you can change this world. But—you almost can repeat it with me, can’t you?—but you can only change this world by changing yourself first. And the only way you can change yourself is with love.

Your world’s in a very dangerous time. You are being watched. It will not be allowed for this world to destroy itself, but how many will give up hope because so many have said no? Particularly have said no when they came here to say yes.

Hi, there, all right. Don’s lap, not Marion’s face.

“I take antidepressant drugs. They leave me emotionally flat. I’d like to get back to that old self that was fairly happy, but I don’t know what to do. What is your view on depression, and what can I do besides take drugs and supplements”

S: What’s wrong with drugs and supplements?

Better living through drugs. Nothing. I don’t know.

S: There are two sorts of depression that you deal with. One of them is, your day isn’t going very well and you feel a bit down, and you’ve not had enough food and your blood sugar is sort of off, and your . . . the dragon you woke up to was not really going to awake and be very friendly through the day, or . . . and you find yourself down.

Now, I do not under any circumstances want to imply that depression is anything but a very serious thing that needs to be taken care of. And mainly that’s because depression wreaks havoc in your mental as well as your physical experience.

So, you’re walking down the street and you trip over a rock and you cut your leg, and it’s just bleeding—really frustrating. What do you do? You probably go into your house and wash it off, and maybe you put something on it, and you put a Band-aid over it. And why do you put a Band-aid over it? So that it will be protected from further breaks in the skin, and won’t get infected—yes, those little bugs, that’s all I could think, your germs. Yes. And there are times that those things that happen every day in your life, you need to just give yourself a tiny Band-aid. I’m not talking of chemical depression, and I’ll get to that in just a moment. I am talking, the day was really . . . nothing went right, it was one thing after another, all your issues showed up, you aren’t happy with the way you responded to it. You’re just ugh.

The blues.

S: That’s music.

The music came from that.

S: So that might be a good way to take care of it.

And you have ways that you deal with that. Unfortunately, some people deal with it in ways that end up creating other problems: go beat somebody up, or break the walls, or drink, or whatever. Eat too much chocolate. And you’re learning what works for you to turn you into that and to turn you out of that is very important, because being able to do that is going to go a very long way to keeping you out of a chemical depression.

When I say chemical depression, I’m not saying you took too many aspirin. I am saying that some have genetic predisposition in this way, and someday ask me why somebody would choose something like that. Sometimes it’s not a genetic predisposition; sometimes it’s because you have not learned to sufficiently keep the adrenelin and resultant cortisol flowing into your life by stopping it very early on when you take that first fall down the steps first thing in the morning, before you get to the part when you end the day saying, “This day really sucks.” As opposed to socks, which is also different than sex, which can be a way to get over it. Chemical depression can be affected easily—well, that’s not true, not easily, but readily by working with somebody who has an awareness of the sorts of chemicals that are available out there to jump-start your body in one of two ways, into stopping the hormonal interruption of the adrenaline-cortisol connection, or by allowing more of those brain chemicals that say “I’m good, things are all right” to come your way again.

Gross generalizations, but essentially your body, for whatever reason, is not registering in balance. Without saying I’m going to do this for the rest of my life because it’s just too hard to make myself balance this way, which is disruptive, and unless that’s truly the situation for you, frankly you’re just being lazy. It takes what works to push you that extra step so that your body can withdraw enough and begin healing.

A chemical depression is a statement that the body, the physical body, is constantly on overload and responding inappropriately to what your life is like at the moment. When you can force it into functioning properly for a period of time, your body will begin to let go of that overload. The problem happens when you begin to think you cannot do it yourself, or, worse, when you don’t use it as a prescribe. Instead you use it as you think it should be, and as a result your body doesn’t have the opportunity to heal and change.

There are people in your world who are absolutely trained to know what it is that works, and you don’t. That was good for that one.

When you have an illness and you need antibiotics, do you take them? Why? Isn’t it rather an insult to your immune system? If you were a proper Guardian wouldn’t you be able to just think it and release all of those good white cells that go and charge up against those invading body bugs? Shouldn’t you?

I think that’s the next card.

S: You take it because it allows you to be able to get all of the rest of the systems of your body in balance without having to be constantly working on that immune system. It’s how things work. You are right here in this world at a time in which the technology is here. So until you wake up in the morning and can look yourself in the mirror and can say, “Oh, I think I’m going to be just slightly two points off on the hormonal scale today, so there, good,” it’s really pretty cruel to hold back on something that could make such a difference and give your body time to heal and relax.

All right, we will continue this next time, because I like this. So hold those and come back here same time, next time.

I’d love to.

S: Good. Good.

For those of you who know Heidi, you probably with the right enticements could get her to slide your new question into that particular pile of them.

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S: Fundraiser to the end. Good group. Fun. Pay attention to this month. A lot of very . . . a lot of doorways. You’re going to be seeing a lot of doorways. Now, the good news with that is a lot of doorways are a good thing. The bad news is they mean choices. The best you can with what you have at the moment. Giving to each other, service, love is the key to opening the door to understanding what the right decision is, because the more you do that feeds what you truly are, the better you are able to see what needs to be seen in this world.