October 5, 2003

Samuel: Greetings, dears.

Greetings, Samuel.

S: Lexington. How has your world changed since we last did this? [Long pause.] Not much? Nothing’s really different? Life just continues on as usual? Well, if that’s so, that’s certainly all right, but I’ve got to tell you that if that is so, it is a sure sign that you’re not connected up where you need to be, because your world has been changing so much of late that for you not to be affected by it would, in all likelihood, represent some sort of—oh, what?—miniature death experience.


Well, my world’s changed a lot since I was in Mexico going through the processes that you gave to us while we were there, but what was interesting to me was that at the last meeting that we had here, you mentioned that over the next six months we would be facing, I believe, emotional, physical and trust issues, in that order, and, sure enough, I came back to a very emotional issue. So it was . . . it’s kind of already manifesting in my life.

S: And what is it that you do as these issues come up? What do you need to keep in mind? What does it mean to be signposts for?


It’s an indicator that a belief is no longer working.

S: Good. Good.

And because of that that it’s worth re-examining.

S: And let me just add a little bit in there. A negative response to those, where it’s causing difficulty, causing you pain, causing you to suffer some way, that let’s you know that it’s a belief that needs to be changed, because the ones that you’re really happy with you don’t necessarily want to change. Although you know, I’m sure, that now and again in your life, those are the ones that need changing first. But, let’s continue.

And upon re-examining that belief, giving yourself the break that says this might have been functional at one point in my life, it might have worked, but it’s not working now.

S: And why is it, do you think, that’s one of the hardest things there is to do, both to see it, and then be able to recognize it, thank it, more or less? “This worked for me at one time. I’m grateful that it worked for me. It’s not working now.” Why do you think it’s so hard?


One of the reasons it’s so hard is that even if it’s causing you pain, it’s familiar to you.

S: Yes!

And I know that what we went through in Mexico is that if you don’t . . . if something’s familiar to it, there’s a part of you—maybe your emotional bod— that wants to rear its head and hang on to it, because you don’t know what you’re going to replace it with once you do let that go. You know, the thinking that letting go means not having, and also the responsibility that would be entailed if you let that go, and now what do I do with that? Where’s my life going to change and how am I going to respond to that?

S: Well done, and well said. Good blooming there. Very nice. Very nice. Aye.

Also, going along with what Colleen said, in realizing that we don’t need that any more, is a huge amount of acceptance and forgiveness for having been in a position to have that in our lives and affect us.

S: So, for instance, let’s say that you have an issue show up to you, perhaps regarding finances, looking at Gayle over there and thinking healthy, wealthy, wise. That’s your request, right? I like that. And you find out that wealthy isn’t exactly in your checkbook right now, and you realize that there’s a pattern of that that’s not working for you, and not good, and whatever it might be that is a negative repercussion on any area of your life—something that isn’t changing, that isn’t working through. It’s a pattern that in one way or another keeps rearing up its ugly little head, and saying, “Gotcha!” There are actions you can take—[Dog grumbles.] Oma’s here!—there are actions that you can take to bring about positive and, better than that—better than that? I don’t know that that’s right.—effective change, permanent change, by replacing the old that did not work with new that does work.

But the effective, permanent change does not come by the replacement, which is where a whole people fail in making changes in their lives. All they do is the replacement. They are missing giving it a look, seeing where it served, letting it go, and forgiving yourself, forgiving the situation, the people, or the experiences that are a part of that situation here. And one more—forgiving what?


S: Source. That’s right. Forgiving Source for getting you in that nasty place. That’s a joke. More of you should be laughing there. Why do you need to forgive Source?

Because until you forgive, you always have that separation.

S: For one reason, because lack of forgiveness equals separation, and you definitely do not want to spend the rest of your existence here in a place where you are unable to make use of your co-creative partnership with Source. So, yes.

In any important relationship, it’s important to work out blame and judgment through forgiveness. So what more important relationship to do that with?

S: Very good. Very good. Forgiveness works to eliminate blame and judgment and, of course, in that particular relationship it certainly makes it a whole lot easier if you’re not blaming Source for this and that.

However, just as a bit of interesting—maybe you know this . . . no, that’s not what you call it. It’s for your information. That’s it. Thank you. Maybe you know this. It’s not quite as catchy is it? It doesn’t work quite as well. All right, so, your response—no, let me change that—first, your version of Source, in all likelihood, in this society as a part of this culture, your version of Source is your version of God. Right? When you think Source, in all likelihood, your first set of thinking is God, which really is unfortunate because that is quite a limitation that little box provides. Because, more often than not, when you are thinking of God, in this society, you are more than likely thinking Old Testament version, New Testament version, neither of which is necessarily kindly enough to take part in your everyday affairs and co-create this life with you. And the version that you choose of which god you’re going to use at the moment—well, it seems like a whole life to you, but in the moment—is the one that relates to what in your life?


S: Yes, say it, Mary Claire.

Your father.

S: Interesting, isn’t it? Because in your life, the first god you had, or god and goddess, as the case may be, were your parents. The ones whom you totally relied [on], the one on whom you needed every particular aspect of your life to be covered by them, the ones who showed you how to function or, as the unfortunate case sometimes is, how to dysfunction in the world, to the child you were, they were your first understanding of God. To the adult that you are, the tendency is still to relate God the Father as God like father. And as a result of that, the issues that you have in this world with your father tend to be the same issues that you have with Source.

Now, that’s just to put aside and think about, but it’s worth thinking about, because one of the greatest difficulties that I see going on in your lives at this time is your inability to feel as though you have a clear and supportive and balanced relationship with Source, allowing you to be a co-creative partner, rather than the one that all that stuff happens to, and that relationship is the key to your experiencing success, joy, and fulfillment, if those things mean anything to you, in this life. Your ability to confidently make use of that connection so that the god in you can function in the world.

Now, when you are so busy seeing Source as a somewhat dysfunctional, definitely punishing, judgmental sort of god, certainly as the—would you say reclusive? Might you say that in a lot of this society, God is the ultimate hermit? Up there, away.—and the way that you allow yourself to experience that connection has everything to do with your ability to forgive or be the victim of, your ability to become all that you are, or—here we go again—be the victim of your ability to change your life for the positive and most effective, or—once again, say it with me now—be the victim of your life, of your beliefs. That’s why forgiveness of Source is needed.

You forgive yourself. You forgive others or the situation, what’s involved in that particular experience. And you forgive Source, your version of Source, and your version of backing away from Source. Very good.

Tonight, because over the last few months I have been giving you a lot of assignments and been opening some very interesting doors with you about what’s coming up—how to function at your best and highest with what is coming up—it seems to me that this would be a good time for questions and answers. And because I am, more or less, just tossing this onto the heap, let me ask Stuart, is there anything that people need to know? Speak loudly, clearly, talk to the sticks.

Don’t talk while you’re talking. So if you go to answer, if they stop talking then it’s easier to hear you.

S: All right. Very good, then think about what you want to ask while Frank is asking his.

We talked to you about this before, you had said that until the Mexico trip was over, you wouldn’t be able to talk . . . you wouldn’t know what you would be talking about and teaching in your next set of workshops. And I was wondering if, now that the Mexico trip was over, you would be able to tell us that.

S: Now, one of the things that I thought it might be handy to say is that you want to remember that you want your question to be general enough that everybody can relate to it, because this is not an individual session, no matter what Frank thinks. Therefore, while you are thinking through your question, make it apply so that all can relate. [To Frank] Can you do that there?

Sure. I’m sure everyone would like to know . . . 

S: Asked for it, didn’t I? Yes, in the next workshop I’m going to be giving the short and condensed version of what was done in Mexico. It is about, right now, recognizing your godhood, your role within Christ Consciousness, your role as God in this world, what the major setbacks are, what the traps, sabotages are, to allowing yourself to awaken to that role in this world and in you.

I’m going to be talking about it because at this time right now, the most difficult problems going on in your life are because, number one, you are not functioning to the ability that you have to function. You are not allowing yourself the success, the power—and when I say success, I’m not meaning board room success, although business success is a nice thing. I’m talking about that part of you that feels whole, complete, ready in this world. That in order for you to experience the success you are here to experience since Fusion, you need to awaken the god in you. Now, I’m purposefully not saying the goddess in you, and I’ll talk about why that is so.

And the other thing that is easily noticed right now, at this time, is one of the greatest things keeping you from experiencing it is what seems to be—in spite of an honest and true desire to move beyond those issues that are getting in your way—ego and relationships. There they are. Recognizing God in your life and overcoming ego in order to have relationships that work on all levels. These are the directions I’m taking, because these are the directions your life seems not to be taking.

[To Frank] Weasel!


I didn’t hear you say, but I’ve heard from other people in references to your saying that at this time our dreams are very, very important, that we should be paying close attention to them. Well, I’m having some very wonderful dreams, but I can’t make heads nor tails, make any sense out of what they mean. Any suggestions for how to . . . they’re very interesting, and kind of bizarre, strange dreams. I’m not sure I can . . . 

S: Having fun with them at all? Not frightening?


S: Some.

They’re interesting.

S: Dreams are very, very important. They’re very important, because as a physical, mental, emotional and spiritual being all wrapped up in one big body bag, you have . . . it’s more fitting than you might think. You just don’t want to think of yourself as plasma sitting around in a sculptured bag, but that’s about it, isn’t it? All right. Dreams are very, very important, because they are the means by which your physical world and your spiritual world both interact and balance. Dreams become more important to you as you awaken further, more, how your frequency . . . as you awaken more to your spiritual activity. But I’m going to put that one aside for a moment.

Dreams come in several packages, unlike body bags. You have those dreams in which your mind is simply working out the day-to-day experiences of your life. And those dreams usually show up sort of like you’re dropped into the middle of a scene, and then all of sudden the scene is over. And it may have been really interesting, but there’s not really any sort of story that goes with it. It’s just your brain working stuff out.

As opposed to those dreams—and you now what I’m referring to here—those dreams, in which there is a beginning, middle an end. It’s as if you are watching a film. There is a story that goes with it, and you are aware of it. What’s more, in these dreams, you might also be aware of you in that dream. You might have, over years, developed the—and I will say talent, because it is indeed a talent—the talent to be aware during those dreams, where you can say, “Wait a minute, I know what’s about to happen here. I’ve had this dream before. I don’t want it to go that way. Let me wake up, or let me do something different.” And you do. You also have those dreams in which you’re not the participant, but you’re just watching.

Those last two categories are the dreams that I call real dreams, and they are the ones that your spirit is making use of. They’re the ones that allow your soul to do the same sort of working out, spiritually speaking, that your mind and emotions do in those bits and pieces, weirdo dreams.

What do they mean? The number one thing you must remember with your dreams is that you are the ruler of your own symbology. Do not disempower yourself by thinking, “Well Frank said that this dream must be about this,” and so you take that for yourself. Because your symbology is unique to your experiences. Red fire truck shows up in your dream, you automatically think, “Warning! Danger! Beware!” Maybe. Or maybe that’s what the person who wrote the book that got the most coverage thought, and in your desire to not really have to investigate what you think about things, you don’t allow yourself to check out your own symbology. Maybe for you, fire engine means . . . give me something.


S: Passion. All right.

Fun and excitement.

S: Because when you were a young child you got to take a trip to . . .

The firehouse and ride on the fire engine.

S: Got it. Got it. Sure. Sure.

Immediacy. Something that’s immediate.

S: Something happening right now. Good. Sure. And it depends upon you.

Quick question: so tonight you have a dream and a fire engine is in it, and you think, “All right, what does that mean to me?” And you come up with the answer. Next week when you have a dream with a fire engine in it, can you rely on that earlier version of what it means? No, unless you are among the walking dead who never change. I know. You laugh. But some of you have been. It’s part of the process of knowing yourself. Do you see it carved across the top of the pillar?

More often than not, however, the most tricky thing about dreams is not figuring out what the symbology is and defining which are mind dreams and which are real dreams. The bigger trick is remembering your dreams. For some of you it’s sleeping long enough to remember your dreams. So what do you do for that?

A couple of things. Before you go to bed you can tell yourself that you are going to be conscious in your dreams.

S: Good.

That you’re going to be aware.

S: Wait, before you’re conscious in your dream, let’s be conscious of the dream. All right.

Conscious of.

S: And conscious in.

And then you’re going to be aware of when you’re in the dream, of the dream.

S: Good.

And then, as if you wake up, don’t just get up and do something, but try to remember. Try to think about Was I dreaming? Was there an image? If you’ve only got just a little tiny piece of it, just focus on that and then try to go back through like as if you were going back through your day, and remembering something that had happened—one event, and then the event before it, and then the event before that so you retrace your steps, and oftentimes that will come. . . the whole dream will come back. And then write it down. And ask El Moriay to help.

S: And you might—get that all in there all at once—and you might even make yourself a small placard that says, “What were you dreaming?” and put it on to your clock so that the first thing you see is “Remember That Dream.”

And what Lillibeth is describing here, more or less, is keep a dream journal. Keep a dream journal. Think of it sort of like a gecko. It’s important. Pay attention. Keep a dream journal, which is to say that you start out at night by saying, “I’m going to remember my dreams. You may have to do that for nights and nights and nights before you actually do remember your dreams.

When you wake up and you remember even the smallest amount—color, scents, I felt agitated when I woke up—that’s all right, write it down, because the act of doing that signals your brain, “We really do want to remember these things. We really do want to know more about what’s happening while my body is sleeping, and my soul is skirting the dimensional universe.”

I’ve found something interesting about the dream journal. I’ve had dreams, say I’ve had last year, and I’ve thought that they were a story that was fiction, but then found out that they were actually related to actual events that were happening elsewhere.

S: Added bonus.

In this world. In this physical realm.

S: Very nice.

In my life.

S: And because you have the dream journal, you have the record of it. Oh, very nice. Very nice. Add in there?

I have a question.

S: Sure.

After you’ve started remembering your dreams and you’re writing them down, what’s the next step? Because I have found that I can remember my dreams, and I end . . . it just . . . it gets to be laborious after a while.

S: Well, and once you start remembering—you’ve trained yourself to remember—you go from just small paragraph to pages of details, and that, indeed, can be overwhelming. Always, when you are actively remembering your dreams—and I don’t want to leave out the part about how to sleep better, so make sure I come back to that—all right, when you’re actively remembering your dreams, there are two things you constantly want to be seeking. The first one is, Is there a pattern here? Is this situation, these people, this construct of experiences, whatever, is this something that I see in my waking life? Is it something that I’ve had before in my dreaming life? Look for patterns. And when you look for patterns, seek personal meaning from them. It does not mean you have to have a meaning. You might even be the sleeping and awake observer, and you don’t know what it means, but you dutifully write it down. Look to see if you find a pattern, and if you do, does that pattern mean anything to you? And the second thing that you want to do about your dreams then is to begin directing them, because once you are easily able to remember your dreams, it’s time for you to begin making them work for you.

Now, what do I mean by that? I mean “I want to dream tonight about understanding those issues in my life, which are keeping me from fulfillment in relationships.” Well, you might should set yourself up a week for something that—that deep, deeply entrenched. But, start directing them. And when I say directing, I do not mean more light over there, and . . . focusing them to what your waking self wants to know. Your brain has started accepting; now, be a conscious student. Let yourself learn.

Now, about sleeping, a couple of things. One of the biggest reasons that you have trouble sleeping is because you are becoming more and more and more sensitive in this world. Sensitive to the bombardment of information, sound, light that’s a part of your world so much that a piece of your brain won’t let you be aware of it all. You need to filter that out consciously so that your body can relax. So, as long as you’re functioning at a high enough frequency that you are becoming more sensitive in the world around you—and you are—you need to allow a longer wind-down period. I don’t mean watch the news before you go to bed. I mean no television inside the house; quiet before you go to bed.

I think he’s saying that Vernon can’t keep the television on until he gets sleepy.

Is that what I’m hearing?

S: You need to buy him one of those . . .


S: Earphones that you can connect in, right? So that it does not disturb others.

Along with that, however, is you might also look to what you ingest before you go to sleep, and it might be one hour, you might find it’s even three hours—how many of you find you’re very sensitive to caffeine? Now with that sensitivity to caffeine, what’s your cut-off?


Two hours.

S: Maybe as early as noon. You can have a cup of coffee or a cup of tea in the morning, but there was a time you could drink it all day and now you can’t.

You want to be sure that you’re not giving yourself stimulation by mouth, which has some interesting concepts that come with it right now, before you go to bed, because you want your body to relax. And you don’t want to be having a chemical imbalance that affects that.

Many people take medications before bed, yes? Pay attention, because if some of those medications get your body . . . what do you call it? Jazzy?


S: Stimulated? Active, I’m going to say. All right, active.


S: Not necessarily energized.


S: Wired. I like that. Yes. If one of those responds in you in such a way that you’re getting somewhat wired, you might want to see if that’s something you could take later in the afternoon instead, or maybe even change it to morning. Pay attention to what you are putting into your body in all sensory levels. Pay attention to what you’re putting into your body insofar as food, drink and chemical stimulants. Make sure, first, that it’s not you letting yourself be overwhelmed, laying there in bed saying, “Gosh, I can’t imagine why I can’t sleep,” because you are wired.

Second, make sure that your bedroom is dark. I don’t mean not light, I mean dark, because your body’s rhythms respond to light. You are a being of light. In this world, you respond tremendously to light levels. You cannot healthily live if you are not around sun.

How many of you find that in the winter you tend to find yourself a bit more on edge or depressed because you don’t have so much sunlight; you have that disorder that comes with not being in the sun. You respond to light. You are a being of light.

To sleep, to put your body into dream cycles, you need blackout dark. Now, how realistic is that? Well, if the husband that you love so much you would not do anything to make life difficult for him cannot to go to sleep until the television has lulled him into a complete stupor—as it will do—you might check into ear plugs, while you buy him that cute little earphone thing that you plug into the television, and you might seek an eye mask, which is to say don’t make your sleeping partner miserable. There are negotiations that can be made to make that work. But darkness, a lack of stimulation sensorially, and chemically, physically, ingesting and so forth are very, very important to good sleep.

[Oma groans] Well, you see, she woke up and said, “Wait a minute, I know where I am now. And there is that person up there who really likes me. I should be allowed to run and play like before.” Ah, yes, Mom says no.

You need to allow yourself to know that you can go to sleep because you’re safe. Really. Some people are not able to sleep—I don’t want to make some great psychological leap here and say because really you’re afraid of death— I don’t agree with that, but some of you have experiences in your sleep that cause your security system to push them away. As a child you might have had a surgical experience, and you were put to sleep, unlike what you do at the veterinarians, and your body got cut on, and pieces got removed, and it hurt after that, and now your body gets tense when you say, “I’m going to go to sleep now.” Now, that sounds silly, but that’s very common, very common.

Another aspect of sleeping: something that can stop you from sleeping is that your body has too much stored-up energy to be able to let go and sleep, which is to say that nasty, dirty, curse word . . .


S: That’s the one. Say it.


S: Yes, regular exercise. Two or three times a week, letting yourself exercise to blessed exhaustion. Now, that’s not saying kill yourself, because that’s a whole different sort of sleep, and that’s not what we’re looking at here. But letting yourself get truly . . . [lets out a long sigh]. Some people push themselves to exhaustion in order to sleep. I am not talking about that, and if you regularly do that, you need to work to reprogram your body altogether, because I can assure you that if you are putting that much strain on your physical and emotional body, so that you are only able to go to sleep when you have just worked yourself to nubs, then your body is trained so that the only way you can sleep is to pass out. Those people tend to be addictive personalities. And those people probably—and I’m speaking to a few of you in here—drink yourselves to sleep using that same pattern, because your body knows that it cannot go to sleep unless it is put into a place of exhausted stupor. That works: exhausted; mind cannot turn it off, so must force it off. That’s unhealthy. You didn’t need me to say that now, did you? You know it is. And in those situations you’re going to need to retrain the body by treating it like you have a new little dog that’s not housebroken, and you have given it little short spurts, and lots of encouragement. And you say, “Body, we’re going to take a nap this afternoon,” and you’re going to make everything restful and dark and easy, and you’re going to give yourself ten minutes of just resting. And once you’ve done that you say, “Good body! Good body! Yes, that was great! Now we’re going to do it again later,” and eventually you’re going to let your body learn that it’s not frightening to go to sleep and you don’t have to be absolutely withered to the point that you cannot think, you cannot feel, before you’re allowed to go to sleep.

Sleep is one of the most important balancers you can give yourself, and your dreams are the gift of that good rest, that good sleep. So don’t neglect them.


Do you have a trick on how to get back to sleep after you wake up in the middle of the night?

S: Magnesium. Really. Particularly in this society, your body is potassium, magnesium, calcium—balance is hard to pay strict enough attention to that you see how it functions for each part of your life, and magnesium helps the nervous system relax—small amounts.

Any time I ever give a suggestion about some sort of supplementation, I recommend that what you do is you go wherever it is you go, the drug store, you find the highest potency of whatever it is, and you take half of the recommended dosage. That is to say if you find magnesium in—how do you find it?

[. . . ]

S:  A thousand what?

I don’t know, I’ve never taken it.

Two hundred and fifty milligrams.

S: Two hundred and fifty milligrams. And you have a choice of fifty or one hundred or two fifty, you pick the two fifty. It says take two four times a day; you take two, not four, at whatever it is it says.

For going to sleep and not waking up, you want to take it right before you go to bed. And I can think of no reason why your body would react against magnesium, but if you are unsure about it, speak to your doctor. Make sure that there’s not something. Or your healthcare partner. [Whispering] Say, “What does magnesium give me?”

Aye, love.

From what I’ve heard, for [. . . ] you want some level of sensory deprivation. You don’t want to . . . 

S: Actually, yes.

For infants, we’ve often put them to bed with soft soothing music, so that’s not something you would recommend for adults?

S: I would say that if what you’re able to do is wind down enough of the sensory input so that all you have, for instance, is—well, you don’t want to go to sleep with candlelight, do you?—very, very low light and a nice low, gentle, wind-down music, that is a whole lot better than watching television until you drop off with all the lights on, and you wake up a few hours later, you turn off the lights, you turn off the noise. But ideally, you want your body to safely—and that’s important, it needs to feel safe—to safely be able to let go of the waking world so that it has a specific, purposeful change into the sleeping world. And it might take steps that go with it.

This end of the room . . . there we go. Jerry. All right.

I don’t like to talk about myself . . . 

S: Which is rare because most people love to talk about themselves.

But I’ve gone through something of a transition since Mexico, and it’s real hard to describe, but it kind of scares me. For one thing, I’ve experienced kind of being out of focus. And another is some detachment, and my observations of things are different. And it’s different than anything I’ve experienced before.

S: Is it unpleasant for you?

Not scary unpleasant, but different. And I was just . . . I’m curious as to, is this something to be expected, or is this . . . ? Well, that’s a yes-or-no question. What might we expect?

S: What is it that’s going on with you that would allow you to have those sorts of feelings after such a profound and important awakening, after working through so many really big issues and finding patterns that needed to be changed, to all of a sudden feeling detached, sort of separate? Is there a purpose in that? Is it something that should be expected? Is it something that should be changed? How does it work?

Processing it all.

S: It’s a good enough question that I’m going to go with it that way.


S: I want you to remember not only for those who were on the trip to Mexico, but for everybody who has been going through profound life change—I’m not necessarily speaking about the life change that shows up in rating your stress levels; I mean the life changes that come with realizations about yourself, changes that you make in how you work in the world. You’ve always been a workaholic that leaps on everybody, and you realize that you want to change that, you want to settle down, you want to be a nicer, friendlier version of you. Well, that’s a big change. So I’m not simply saying that you went to Mexico and your whole world got turned upside down and you met the gods of old Mexico. It does not take that remarkable of an event to experience some of this, but particularly for those who did have those remarkable events, to remember that you have gone through some of the toughest soul-searching that you ever have.

And even if you were not with that group in Mexico, I can guarantee that over the last few months you have done some pretty intense soul searching. And I can guarantee that because that’s where your world is right now.

Sharon, you are adding to this?

You talk about humans being box . . . seeing ourselves as box constructed. The good thing is that it sounds like he’s experiencing the person of the box expanding out of the dishwasher art that’s workable, and the incredible ability to detach, that’s human enough to merge with Source like he was doing. And that sounds like an incredibly wonderful thing that the rest of us need to hope for.

S: And that is, bottom line, absolutely accurate. Bottom line, absolutely accurate. The problem with it, though, is that most of the time humans don’t like it when they say, “I’ve just gone through the most awful stuff,” and I say, “Great!” because it represents making some very important changes.

It’s the detachment part I want to focus on. One of the worst human habits you keep—pull it out now and again and stare at it; oh, I love this one—is that you have convinced yourself that change is something to fear, and that change means not having. Of course, that goes with abundance issues of there not being enough, but that’s another day. You have undergone massive change; you have undergone some changes that have had an effect upon the way you think, the way you see the world, the way you function in the world. You’ve had changes to your awareness. You find yourself being on to you more than ever before. You are aware of what’s going on with others in a much more complete way, and you have to bite your tongue now and again not to hop in and tell them what they need to do, because you know what would help, because you’ve seen it in you.

Letting go does not mean not having. Being detached does not mean you’re not involved.

Joni, so a child comes into your office and they are terribly sick, and you look at them and your heart breaks, and you start to cry, and you have to just go over to the corner and say, “Oh, I don’t know what to do for this kid, because he’s so sick, and I love him so much and he’s so sweet.” Right?

That doesn’t make you effective at all.

S: Of course not right, because she could not do her job as a . . .


S: Thank you. Pediatrician. I knew there was a word in there that fit this. If she allowed herself to be totally caught up in what was going on so that it overwhelmed what was going on with her.

The detaching there is not backing away and not caring, it’s eliminating what is not necessary in order to be able to more adeptly act. Look at that.

Now, over and above that, it’s also you have a lot going on in your life, you are tired, you have been very, very busy, and there is a certain amount of break your body needs. So now and again, particularly after a trip as intense as that one was, you should expect a certain amount of . . . I’m going to say, your heart telling you don’t jump back in yet. Wait. Back off. Let more of this process. Understand where you are before you add to it. And, of course, that’s true always.

My timekeeper is saying [makes gestures] for to do otherwise will make it so that this is not workable for the rest of Lexington.

As a whole, if there’s one thing that I want to be sure you get, it’s that you have the power to make changes in your life and changes in your world because of it. To make changes in your life that make things easier, bring you wisdom, help you understand the way you work better, looking at your patterns, looking at your dreams, paying attention, functioning consciously, letting your body rest physically so that you can be more active if needed spiritually. Letting yourself know yourself is not a once-in-a-lifetime thing: “Oh, I remember those months ago when I really got to know me.” All right, it’s a constant process. It’s not assuming that the way you feel is the way you’re always going to feel. It’s not assuming that what’s going on is always going to go on.

You are here for one reason, and that reason is because you have the ability to make a difference. Don’t be afraid of that. Get yourself in control. Know you. Know your power. Know your weaknesses. Be willing to change. Be ready to forgive. Be prepared to fall on your nose and skin your forehead and break your toes over and over and over. It doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is that you get back up.

You are in the world at a very important time. You have things that you offer that nobody else can, and it is an abominable waste of time to not be what you’re here to be. It’s not hard. It does require consistency.

Changes that are going on in your world right now are going to be continuing through the rest of this year in the very dramatic, dynamic way they are now. You’re here to help that process. And, bluntly speaking, it’s time you get yourself together so that you can.

Glochanumora. Shall we do it again next time to be able to get in those other questions?