August 6, 2001

Samuel: Well, greetings, dears.

Greetings, Samuel.

S: What happened in your world today?

Well, I just had changes. I had expectations and then they’re not kind of working out the way . . .

S: Don’t you hate when that happens?


S: So did you get to recognize fear?


S: Yes. Aye. Aye?

I’ve noticed some very intense energy all about me.

S: Yes. That’s true.

With the weather.

S: With the weather?

The weather was intensely oppressive-feeling, in a way, but at the same time the energy of, for lack of a really better way to put it, of mass consciousness around me. —the same old loving to be stressed—and my day got better because I decided not to take part in it.

S: Well said. Yes. Yes.

I had the luxury of having a leisurely day to recover from the trip I took last week, and I was in the back yard having morning coffee with the cats, and I noticed that the energy, everything, is vibrant. I mean the energy, you can actually see things change. I mean things look like they’re moving, and it was wild, really different. As I was doing some merging with the cats, I noticed some really distinctive things I’ve never seen before. A kind of surreal world, like the real world is surreal and, you know, comes back into focus every now and again.

S: What is surreal?

Surreal means it looks not solid. It looks unrealistic according to what we see here.

S: Unrealistic.

It’s looser, molecules, maybe, but . . .

It’s like you’re looking into a viewfinder. Landscapes, scenes through a viewfinder.

S: So is it the world that is surreal, or is it you who are surreal, looking at the world?

Probably that one. Probably my energy is able to see differently now. I’ve noticed something since the Canaries, but this was really different today.

S: Interesting, aye. Interesting. Aye?

In this situation that I’ve been fretting about—and it involves money and a plane ticket, and it might not really go well—I might have to make a decision I didn’t want to make. But I did get quiet, and really asked for guidance, and decided that I would accept whatever way it went. And it ended up I gave it another try, and it did work out and I got the ticket.

And then another thing that I’ve noticed, not just in the last few days, but just really this summer, talking about something surreal, it’s almost like when you looked to the side, it’s almost like the presence, even more than ever before, there’s the presence of other things. I mean, things do seem surreal. It’s just like a flash of light, and it’s not paranoia, but just feeling like there’s somebody just sitting on your shoulder and that you just know that they’re there, whether it’s a guidance, a warm loving presence. Sometimes it’s a smell. And it’s not like I’ve never experienced those things, but it’s more noticeable now that there’s a presence about.

S: That’s understandable. 5:3:2 opens the door to your awareness, and that likely is what that’s about.

Tell me, let me ask in another way: What have you noticed about your world, your planet, today? Anything?

The Irish have decided to have a pact for peace.

S: Such is the rumor. Good. Aye. That’s what I’m looking for. Tell me more like that.


S: She said that the Irish are working on a peace pact now.

In the Middle East, the Israelis and Palestinians seem to be at more friction and more war than they’ve done in a long time.

S: A much greater escalation. It’s taken another step.

And it seems to be much more individualized, rather than country. I mean it’s individuals doing it, rather than the nations doing it. It seems to be so personalized that that’s especially sad, I think. I mean, but that’s why the nations have been doing it.

S: That is sad, especially; that’s true.

Along those same lines, I actually heard a news commentator saying that he was covering this—in Israel and Palestine—he was saying that many people are beginning to believe that the only answer is a war.

S: And is it?

Not at all.

S: How loud are you? Are you loud enough? Put it out there, into mass consciousness. You hold this world in your hands in so many ways. Be aware of that. Stop forgetting it. Don’t seek only the good parts of 5:3:2. Don’t seek only the fun aspects that awareness gives you. Make use of that. You have an affect in this world. Hurry up and accept that.

How are you doing now?

You mean personally?

S: Yes.


S: Aye?

It was a hard day, but tomorrow’s a new day, and everything works out the way it’s supposed to, so just, you know, start at the beginning tomorrow, and work on it.

S: And ultimately, that is very much a key to your world. You do everything you can, you do your best at the moment, you move through the day. And then tomorrow you do it again. And tomorrow, you do it again. And you throw your life off when you put your fears into the future. And you throw the program off when you do that, as well. Remember that.

Did you cut all your hair off today?

I did.

S: Aye?


S: Was it good for you?

It was. Yes. I even look kind of cute as an alien.

S: Such an interesting process, isn’t it?


S: Aye. The human form. Aye.

All right. Remind me what I spoke about last night.


S: That’s a good one-word version of it. How about just a bit more than that?

The Crown Portals.

S: Crown Portals were in it, that’s true.

As we get stronger, the grid gets stronger.

S: And the conscious connection you have with the grid is also accurate.

And the need for growing stronger.

S: The need to continue growing even stronger. Frank?

And one of the ways the Universe helps us grow stronger is by providing us experiences that test our strength a little bit more each time, so we’re put in situations in which we have to continually stretch and grow beyond the point that we thought we were capable of.

S: Puts you into positions in which you are going to have the opportunity to constantly grow, to constantly change or what? Because if there is a choice, then there is something else within that choice.


S: Stagnation is certainly a choice. It is. More often that’s a choice when you think you don’t have one.


S: To adapt, yes, that is one. Stuart?

Dishwasher art.

S: Dishwasher art. Yes, that’s another version of not taking a part in the changes that are going on with you. Not consciously bringing forth the form that can manage the higher frequencies so that you don’t become dishwasher art.

Stay in the same place.

S: Which I will put in the same category, but it’s not exactly the same thing as stagnation. What’s the difference there? Stagnation and staying in the same place.

Staying in the same place, maybe there’s a choice there. Where stagnation is you don’t necessarily know that there’s anything else. You’re just in a holding pattern.

S: And what’s the difference between stagnation and a plateau?

Stagnation is resistance, because the natural flow is to move, and stagnation takes effort to stay there.

S: Well done. Well done. It’s the magic seat, isn’t it?

Now, I want you just to stop for a moment, and to think about why I was talking about that last night. And as you think about that, I want you to look in two places, your own heart and your world’s heart. And what I’m saying is, consciously growing stronger is your next best step. Why?

Because we’re leaders.

S: Because you are leaders. Yes, that is true. And I’m going to change that a bit, because the reality is because you are here to be leaders. Big difference in that statement. That’s right. D.C?

Well, it works with the energy of the grid. The stronger we become and the more we do, the more we activate ourselves and believe in ourselves, the more it strengthens the grid.

S: Because what you are experiencing goes into the grid itself. It creates the filter through which that energy flows, and it is colored by your experiences and thoughts. Heidi.

If the grid, the new grid, is a part of us and we are a part of the grid, in order for it to be stabilized and strengthened in a way that’s going to promote the completion of the Plan, we as prototypes have to be as perfect as we can.

S: And what does perfect mean?

Being human, it means functioning at your highest possible frequency.

S: I can go with that. I can go with that. Yes. That’s right. Stuart.

I think that the reason you were discussing this last night to us, for me personally, was that part of strength we talked about is flexibility, and the need to be flexible and adaptable. And when we’re not being flexible and adaptable, we’re putting all of our experiences in boxes. And we talked about that limited type of thinking, and for me what I took from the message last night was to look outside of the box of what I think is happening and to allow for a greater possibility or for a bigger picture, and bigger patterns in things that are going on around me, instead of just automatically assuming it’s this, putting it in a box, and moving on.

S: A good distillation there. Excellent. Aye.

Well, you said to consciously choose to grow stronger, and to me that was the key, because in order to do that, you have to take a look at where you’re weak. And if you’re choosing to move beyond to get stronger, then you’re having to say, This is an area of my life that’s not as strong as it can be. What can I do? Then you start looking to see what needs to be done in order to strengthen that in what comes into that arena that will help.

S: Excellent.

And you throw yourself off balance by doing that.

S: Excellent. You throw yourself off balance because . . . ?

Well, you’re choosing it, for one thing, and secondly because you’re thinking that you’re going along in strength, and then you realize you’re not. At that point you have thrown yourself.

S: You throw yourself off balance, because it’s the only way you learn to walk. You get up, you move as far forward as you can, you begin to fall, and you catch yourself. And the slow repetition of that, you do the rest of your life. And pretty soon you stop being afraid of it. Is that a hand up, Frank? Aye.

Yes. I was going to say when you grow strong consciously, it makes life easier, because, for me, when . . .

S: Hold just a moment. When you choose to grow strong, when you grow strong consciously, it helps make life easier. Who here believes that? Go ahead, Frank.

If, when things aren’t going according to expectations, if they’re not going the way you think they should or the way they always have, rather than looking at it as things not going right, and you look at it as the Universe giving me an opportunity to grow, and to see what my strength is, it changes my perspective, and instead of things going wrong, it’s an opportunity to grow. It makes it . . .

S: Absolutely accurate. Absolutely accurate. What’s the hard part about that though? Life.


S: Again?

It never gets easier. It’s always challenging. It’s always very […]

S: There’s always a new challenge in front of you.

Others’ free will.

S: And humans, oh, maybe not all humans, maybe just every one of them I know . . .

Almost all of them.

S: . . . tend to want the easy way. The easy way defined, of course, by their own version of what is easy, as if when you put out to the Universe you wanted the easy way, and it’s being handed to you as the easy way as if the Universe is trying to fool you, tease you, cheat you, of what is due you. Believe me, you’re getting it the easy way. Cathy.

Well, at some point, you get to a point where you just realize things just are, and you can make a choice, like Frank was saying, when you can make a choice that, okay, this is the way it is, and I can choose how I’m going to react to this. And when you can see that you don’t have to go down the spiral to depression and unhappiness and anger and so forth, it really does make life easier.

S: That’s the theory. Indeed, that’s the theory. And depending upon what you need to move you, you learn that early or you learn that late. Depending on what you need to move you, you learn that, which was pretty soon you learn that if you let it go, it will weave into the greater whole, rather than trying to get in there and change it to the shape of you. To allow it to be. To flow with it. To move with that.

You learn it early or late, but you learn it. And if you learn it early, it’s because you have a low tolerance for two-by-fours, and that’s a good thing. If you learn it late, it’s because you have a very high tolerance for them. That’s not a good thing.

Lillibeth was bringing out a very, very important point, and it’s going to be the springboard through which questions come through. Her point was, by knowing what your blind spots are you will become stronger as you move to strengthen what works for you, and to move from or change what does not work for you. That’s what you said, more or less, right?

But most of the time, individuals who are a part of this work, or any spiritual practice, want to give over their blind spots to God.

And blind?

S: And remain blind, yes. They don’t want to deal with them, they don’t want to function with the knowledge that there’s something you can’t do. It is absolutely built into the evolution of your physical essence, not your spiritual essence. Pay attention to that, think about it a bit, what’s being said there. It is built into your physical essence, and the need to individuate and become strong, to allow ego to proceed as personality into the world so that you can survive. You cannot make mistakes. So you shun them, or you relabel them. That’s called putting a spin on it. Right? And that’s all right if it’s not an act of denial.

There are times in your life in which the wise thing to do is some conscious denial while you get strong enough in other areas to be able to deal with it. The problem, of course, is too often denial becomes a means of functioning in life, rather than a means of getting strong enough to deal with something later. And as a result, they forget that part about coming back to it later.

In your life, you have attitudes, beliefs, absolute deep core truths that are not serving you. And when you have, in your hands, your head, your heart, one of those attitudes, you serve it. If it’s not serving you, you are serving it.

What are the sorts of things in life that are these stumbling blocks? Try not to give me broad categories. Remember that this is a special evening we have together, because this is a subject that I see important enough to get out to those who take part in this work. I want you to think not only for yourself, but for them as well. And when I ask you for questions, I want you to be asking the questions that will bring about the answers for others, as well as for you.

What is it that shows up as stumbling blocks that keep you from being able to move forward with strength and ease in all that you do? Lillibeth and then Claudia.

Well, I think one of the things, when you were talking about beliefs, core beliefs, that don’t serve us and then we serve them, that’s been very accurate in my life. And last week actually I was thinking about how I view relationships. And my viewpoint of relationships has always been a stumbling block for me, and part of that is because I have beliefs about how I think I should be loved, and if I’m not loved in that way, then I think that I’m not being loved. So, it’s almost alien beliefs coming in. I want to phrase them as alien beliefs, but not meaning alien as off this planet. They’re alien to me. But then when I think about them, I’m thinking, Well, they are alien beliefs, because I’m getting punched by them, you know, and recognizing that they seem so foreign to me, because all of my belief systems have been formulated through so many influences that have come to my life. And they’ve been changing and growing over the years, but I’m still uncovering more and more of that.

But when you say that you serve them, that’s entirely accurate, because you become enslaved to the belief that if you’re—and I’m using this one example—if you believe that a person has to love you in a certain way for you to know that you’re loved, and they don’t do that, and you keep pushing for that form, then you are always enslaved to that particular belief. And you will never have it come to you in a way that is the love that can come in its own form and that you can learn to accept in its own way.

S: You are bypassing what is possible in that way.


S: Yes, good.

And I did have a question.

S: I’ll get there eventually.

Okay. All right.

S: Good. Claudia.

I have a belief that if I’m not perfect, then nobody will love me, they’ll abandon me.

S: If I’m not perfect, if I don’t do everything perfectly—and of course that perfection is your own version of what perfection is—then you won’t be loved, you won’t be accepted. Or, which is more likely what you do, it’s not what you won’t be, it’s, “I will be rejected, I will be abandoned, I will be betrayed.” Indeed, that’s a good one.

I tend to, when something comes up and it agrees with what my beliefs are, I don’t investigate it. An example right now: there’s debate going on about drilling for oil in the Arctic wilderness, and I’m just against it, but I realize I’ve not researched it at all. My beliefs are not based on fact; they’re based on emotion.

S: So, be it a political issue or a personal issue. All right.

My first reaction is not to investigate the position that is against what my response is.

S: The reaction more than likely is a reaction, and it is a survival mechanism for your current way of living, thinking, doing, being, as is very often the case.

If you are not sure what your blind spots, difficulties, problems, are, all you need to do is look at what makes you unhappy. What gets you going? What causes pain in your life?

Now, there actually are a few of you in here who have, for whatever reason, come to a point in your experience in which you don’t feel pain, and it’s not because of a glorious spiritual structure that you built in your life, it’s because of that very nice wall you have. So if, as you think about it, I can think of nothing that makes me unhappy, see if you can move beyond the little wall that says that, because I would like to promise you, there are things going on in this world that make you unhappy, and as you look at those things, I want to ask you, what are you doing about it?

What are you doing about it on two levels? To keep it there, and why? Or to train it out of you. What are you doing? What is the action you are taking? And most of the time, individuals who are functioning at very high frequencies, who have Guardianship potential in their compact here, most of the time those individuals reach a point in which they stop taking action, and think they’re at a point that they can just do it here [in their heads]. I would like to remind you that this is what gets you in trouble, not what makes things all right.

Now, with those things in mind, with those springboards given, I want to take some questions, which—as I have asked—I want them to be about becoming stronger. Practical questions regarding what you can be doing in this world. And Lillibeth, you said you had one.

I have a couple. One is, last night when talking about resistance as one of the means by which we grow stronger, sometimes it gets a little confusing to know when it’s appropriate to resist. I guess I’m looking for “right action”—how to define when resistance is the right action in a situation—because sometimes—I know it’s about discernment—sometimes there are moments when you need to not resist, and there’s sometimes moments when you do need to, and if there are keys and signals that we could look for.

S: All right, the first thing that I want to ask in there is, when you are talking about “When is it right to resist,” of course, my natural response is, you don’t ever resist. You’ve got to change the word there. That’s not what you’re talking about.

And you switched it to “When is discernment?” How do you know, because it really is a discernment issue? And that’s right.

But what is a situation that you might be asking about, and what I’m looking for here is not a specific situation, but looking for a pattern that you’re going at in which you are saying resistance could be the right thing. Are you saying resistance, or are you saying stepping back and doing nothing, or are you saying fighting off? What are you saying in there?

I think I’m saying when to step back, and when to step forward and take action.

S: Generally speaking, I have a rule for living. If you feel strongly that what you are doing, based on—and I’m going to say prayerful without it meaning to insult any of you pagans, all right, but it covers a whole lot more than just visualizing something or just thinking and contemplating something—when you are talking to the Universe, and you have a very clear understanding that this is what you are to be doing now, right there, that levels the field, because most of the time you don’t do that. Most of the time, you react. You base your actions on your convenience, because you believe that you are deserving of a certain amount of convenience. So you look for the easy way, and then when you start running into difficulty, you then tell the Universe that it directed you the wrong way.

All right, let’s go on from there. Most of the time, you don’t give that step one. Frank said earlier, you don’t do the research. You don’t look to see how this aspect of it fits with who you are and where you are, and how this aspect of it fits with who you are and where you are, and weigh them and actually put your mind and heart to it. More often than not, that very first step isn’t done.

But let’s assume it is, and you move forward and you get smacked in the nose with a wall. You try again. And you try again. And you try again. And then what? Four times. I give you all your cheeks, that’s right. For coming or going. I’ve had enough. I’ve given this person four tries. I’ve had enough. I’ve given this job four tries. I’ve had enough. Give it four tries, because more often than not, not because there’s a magic number in four, but more often than not, as you are working through your layers, you’re at a point in your life where four tries fairly well gets through your own stuff.

Most of the time, however, the reality is you aren’t sure which direction to go anyway. And what you are resisting is what you don’t know. You are resisting the unknown, the future, whatever this might be, that could hurt me. And rather than making an educated, heartfelt decision based upon what you see is your best and highest activity at that time, it really is simply a means of getting you away from pain. Hopefully, smelling good through it. Isn’t it?

And so the very first thing that you need for discernment is to know you. What do you need to do to know you? What do you do to learn you so well that you know that when your jaw starts getting stiff it’s because your body’s angry before your mind knows it? What do you need to do to know what happy and good and loving, to and from you, feels like? What do you need to do to know what you think about things and what your beliefs truly are, not just the ones you’ve learned to say because it’s right in present company to do so? You’ve got to first know you.

The second thing you’ve got to do, and notice that I said this is second, because all of the holy amongst you are going to think it should have been first, you’ve got to know your relationship with Source. But the reality is until you know you, you are going to confuse every foray that Source makes into your mind, you’re going to mistake it for you, your mother, your enemy, your best friend. You’re not going to get it, because you don’t know you. You don’t know your voices, you don’t know your thoughts, you don’t know your connections, and you must have that. Frank, are you adding to this?

I was going to say what I find also sometimes is when I’m not being aware of myself and my voice, then it’s real easy to hear my voice and say it’s the Source telling me what to do.

S: That’s true. And when you don’t know your voice, it’s also very easy not to make a decision and just do what somebody else wants you to, which very often drags you into trouble.

And then finally along that direction, discernment, knowing what is the right thing to do, as opposed to the right thing for you to do. And I’ll get to that one in just a moment. Knowing the right thing to do has to do with the security issues of the society you live in, and how you intersect and function in that, because you have as much of a responsibility to do what is right—meaning legal—in your society as you do what is right for you. You are in this world, in this society, and you must work in it. There are ways to bring about change. Seek those ways, but you must be karmically impeccable, and that does mean you pay your tax, and that does mean abide by the copyright laws, and that does mean that you follow the rules of the society in which you live.

You also have your own moral system, but the reality is that your personal moral system as a guardian of light in this world with a compact to help make a difference is so much stricter than anything your society would ever come up with, it’s not the problem.

You get yourself in trouble when you are justifying your wants instead of serving your needs.

I said four tries through, four “turn your head the other way before you walk off and say, ‘No more of this,’” because four works well. Give that a try.

I have a question about that.

S: About which?

About the four tries.

S: All right.

And that it brought up for me . . .

S: But more quickly.

It brought up for me wanting to know what are appropriate consequences. How to know appropriate consequences. When you’re saying that this action is not fitting in with how I want to live, and you negotiate that, and you say, okay, you have four times in which you can make a change. What is the . . . how do you determine the appropriate consequence? Does it always have to be an ultimatum? In other words, not to throw the baby out with the bath water.

S: It needs to be something you can live with. You offer the choice that you are willing to live with. The consequence is then . . . and you set up something that is really not payable. You’ve got to remember their motivation as well. And there’s not an answer that says, Here, this is what you always do.

But you must remember that when you are in the process of negotiating within a relationship, if there are not consequences that both agree to then you don’t have a compact. If you don’t have a compact, you don’t have a vision. If you don’t have a vision, you’re going nowhere. That simple. But those consequences need to be reality-based that both agree on. If you arbitrarily say, “All right, I’ll just never see you again,” well, you will be punishing yourself. That’s not likely to be something you would have gotten agreement with, is it? And if it is, then maybe you’re wise to go on.

So just remember that when you are seeking the consequences you want it to be a choice that you agree with. Stuart.

Last night you were talking about getting stronger and were using an analogy of resistance training with weights, and I want to continue that analogy a little further. In order for that to work, to make you stronger, you have to have at least one or two days’ rest in between exercising. Otherwise it’s just going to tear down the body.

S: But when you have this one or two days rest, do you just forget about your exercise program altogether?

Not necessarily.

S: All right. Just making sure.

And you have said that . . . and you mentioned last night the plateau time is about over, and you’ve mentioned the time of inactivity. Are you saying that the period that we’re just completing has been this rest period in between? Okay. Can we continue the analogy through this process? Are we going to. . . . How can we recognize these periods of rest, of like days off, in order to rebuild ourselves?

S: Darling, that’s your illustration, not mine.

You can’t take that illustration to that degree; it doesn’t work.

S: For as many facets of your life as you have, there will be those that are going full blast while other aspects are resting. Then they will be going full blast while these aspects are resting.

Any time you have specific knowledge that I’m just holding back from this strengthening activity so that I can get stronger, count on it, you’re fooling yourself. It’s a blind spot. You are resisting in a way to keep your old life safe, and you’re holding yourself back. It’s not good.

Is it a continuation of that question? All right.

I wanted to add one more question to it.

S: Quickly though.

How come if. . . . I’ve asked a lot of people; no one has felt like this is the period of plateau or rest. And I’m just wondering, how can we realize if we’re in these periods or not, because my life has been […]. I’ve been going at a faster pace than ever before, and how can that relate to a period of plateau or inactivity?

S: I have no idea. You’ve been going very fast. Have you lived through it? Looks like it. Are you damaged because of it? Doesn’t appear so. In fact your energy is as strong as it’s ever been. Are you saying, Is this as easy as it gets? And right now I’m going to look back on this time, and say, Oh that was the plateau. What are you saying?

That I would not have recognized this as the plateau time as you have said, and I’m not sure . . .

S: I’ve not said this is a plateau. I have said this is not a time to be idle. You are being idle. It’s not a plateau, though. Aye. Aye.

Maybe along Stuart’s lines, I’m wanting to expand on this idea of resistance, and I’m thinking of the analogy of, does it mean getting out into the world and becoming the door-to-door salesman or just not answering your door when someone comes knocking on your door?

S: That’s a big difference there. Think it through a bit more to ask it differently, because you’re saying does it mean I must become what I don’t like?

No, I’m saying, do we need to be actively out seeking activity?

S: No, out doing.

Or is activity going to find us? At least what we need to be doing, is it going to find us if we’re looking for it?

S: I’m being careful with that answer, only because I promise you—promise you—that the Universe has more in store for you than you ever think you could manage, that there is more possibility for you than you even now think you are capable of, that there is enough out there that you don’t have to seek it. But you need that attitude of openly seeking. You need that attitude, that energy within yourself, that puts out there “this or something better for the highest good. I am open and awaiting to that which is for the continuation of my work in this world, and the advancement of the Plan for humanity and all life force upon this planet.” That’s out there, and then see every experience that comes into your life, every one of them, as an opportunity, as I said recently, for healing. You give it or you receive it. To see it as an opportunity for helping to raise consciousness because you’re either getting yours raised or you’re doing something that’s helping to raise theirs simply by not avoiding what opens up for you.

Now, as a for-instance there, the—what’s a meter reader?

Somebody who walks around and reads the gas or electric meters.

How much you’ve used.

S: Oh, reads! All right. It’s meter reader. I did not know what that was. All right. Reads the meter. All right. The meter reader comes into your home, and says, “Oh, you have such a lovely house, and there are so many interesting things you have from your world travels. Do you travel a lot?” And in your head immediately comes a lot of choices. Well, if I say yes, they might think I’m rich and come to rob me. If I say no, then I will have to explain where these things come from. If I say, yes I do travel a lot I might be getting myself into a conversation I don’t have time for.

You automatically have all of these choices that open up for you. That’s what you take advantage of. You bring yourself to a point in your life where you don’t resist out of fear: Well, if I say anything about my spiritual belief once they have dumped on me theirs, they’re not going to like me any more, so I will back away from that opportunity. But they have given you theirs. They took the opportunity, so that door is open. You don’t have to seek it; it sought you. Your choice is to hide and keep yourself safe by not getting involved there, even though it was dumped in your lap, or to move forward carefully and easily and begin training yourself, step by step, how not to fear that.

You can spend all of your life insulting human consciousness by believing they’re not up for what you have to say, and you will be a part of ensuring that human consciousness never does get up. But you, by living your loving and kind and—hear this—normal life, become an example of another way of thinking, instead of that weirdo over there—the cat lady—who has these weird beliefs about this or that. When you are a part of someone else’s life, they listen to you. And there’s a whole lot of ways that you can choose to be a part of someone’s life, even briefly or not. Move forward. Take those chances.

From over here. Nay? All right. And here again. Aye.

Well, I’ve been working a lot on manifestation, you know, and I feel now that a large part of my understanding of it is the part that my mother has played in it as the feminine, which is creation, and the masculine, which is action. So for my mom, most of it has been passivity and not doing a lot, and for my father it has been being out of control. So, I’ve had a real fear of failure, because to me to succeed, to take action, would be to be in a really bad place, and to be . . . so I’ve really been afraid of taking a lot of action in my process, and I was wondering if there was anything more you could help me heal so that I could. . . . Give me a suggestion in moving on.

S: All right, we’re talking about strength. Give her your wisdom for strength. You’ve heard this. You have experienced it in your own life.

Taking small steps and getting success with small steps. Have a goal there, but break it down into very small steps, and get success, and then if you run into a problem, step back, try another way, and get success there, and then back on your track.

S: And to add to that extremely good advice, to add to that, stop doing it all by yourself. Create a network, a supportive, loving friend and laughter-filled network. Stop being all by yourself in it.

And keep an action success journal.

S: Very good.

Every time you take action and it’s successful, no matter how large or how big, make note of it so you can keep a record of all the times you’ve been successful taking action, rather than being aware of the times you weren’t

S: That’s very good. And all of it’s working toward self-empowerment as you’re working to move through something that has been holding on to you so strongly for so long.

I just want to back up to what you said about asking for help. Since the moment I did that, my life has just snowballed into happiness.

S: Yes, that’s true. And one of the things that happens is that you sometimes find that what you are after shifts. And you have done that in your life. That what you thought you were after shifts, because you are opening up the doors to opportunity. And it’s not simply parental issues or abundance issues, manifestation issues; this information is good for everything you are trying to bring into your life right now. Every attitude that you are working to replace something that isn’t working, you can bring into your life, step by step by step, setting small goals, getting a network of people who are supporting you—not your task—but you, who are a part of your wholeness and supporting that, keeping a journal that shows you your patterns for success, you will do it that way. It’s good advice.

To me it’s so important to have that partnership with the Source, and I think we deny that. So often we think we have to do it, or the Source is there, yeah, we think so, but we don’t really believe it, you know. I think we fool with that, fool around with it, all the time, and we don’t give enough credit to the Source for what the Source does for us and with us.

S: That’s so true. You want Source to look like you so you can relate. You want Source to be more than you, and when Source is more than you so that you don’t get what Source is trying to say, you are angry because you can’t understand the language, because it’s beyond you.

You set up the parameters of what you will accept as evidence of Source in your life. And by your own parameters, you don’t accept. It’s very hard working with humans. That relationship is everything. But in order for you to have a relationship with Source, you’ve got to get over the idea that it means not being you. Try for a week to imagine that your best, your highest, self is Source. It’s not saying that’s not what you think; just try accepting it, giving credit to Source for the highest and the best that you do so that you can become more adapted to understanding that the Source that works in the world is the Source that’s in you. The best and the worst of Source in this world is you. When it stops having to be the ancient god of the Assyrians or the current god of the grove or the . . . when it stops having to be a separate being, you’ve made it. You’ve done it.

Stuart, I don’t want to run out here, but you’re blinking at me.

And it normally doesn’t blink?

S: No.

Okay. It does that because it’s counting down the minutes. We have three minutes left on the tape.

S: All right. Give me a three-minute question. You’ve been very patient, love.

I have a question about ego. I’ve noticed lately that I have been thinking that I’m less than or thinking that I’m more than, and I’m trying to find the balance in not letting either one of those get me off focus, and I was wondering if you have any suggestions for staying balanced within that.

S: I do, but it’s a very unpleasant one. Stop judging. Comparative judgment is what you’re doing. I’m enough here, I’m not enough there. Based on what? What’s that based on? The only boundary marker is, Are you doing your best?

Now, I’m going to use your very activities with Skills for Service here. You started out being in charge of Skills for Service, and finding that it was quite overwhelming. There was so much to do you knew nothing about, and as a security measure everybody else became the expert because you were not. But as you slowly began seeing things changing and you got more confident—and that’s the key there: you began accepting your power, and no longer putting it out there on others—and as a result it seemed as though you were more balanced because you weren’t judging so harshly.

Now that may sound like a very strange answer to a tricky question, but it really is that simple. That really is what the issue is about. Once again, back to that, take it step by step, pay attention to the process, be aware of your patterns, make use of the highest and best you can do at that time, and do it. And then tomorrow, something else, and tomorrow something else.

This tape needs to end. This time for that tape needs to end. So let’s all turn around and say goodbye to the tape.

Goodbye, tape.

S: Question, Suzanne?

I do.

S: Good.

Right after we opened the Northern Crown Portal, I felt a relaxing of a pressure, an urgency that I’d felt for years. And the release of that energy also freed me. I felt like I could do anything, and had lots of ideas. I felt that anything was possible. That feeling lasted a week or two, and then the feeling of urgent pressure built again. This urgent energy makes me feel like I’m not doing enough. I’m full of ideas of things to do, but with the urgent pressure of this energy, I feel like I can’t do any of them. I don’t have the physical, mental or emotional energy to follow through, and the confidence I felt before has gone. So how can I handle this urgent pressure energy so it doesn’t beat me down and defeat me?

S: Just ignore it and maybe it will go away.

I’ve tried that.

S: What is the difference between right after the opening of that Crown Portal, when you felt a release of the pressure, and now? What’s the difference?

The difference is that after the Crown Portal, I felt like I had done what I had come here to do, and it was almost like the feeling that I used to have after I had completed the school year and I had the vacation coming up. And so I thought, Wow, everything else is gravy, I’ve done what I’ve come here to do, and now I can really just have fun.

S: I like that. That wasn’t exactly what I was asking though. Where were you? What were the circumstances? What was going on at that time?

I was in the Canaries. I was on vacation. I was away from home.

S: It’s a working vacation.

Yes, but I knew that . . .

S: You were surrounded by individuals who had the same vision you did, you were having constant contact with the highest and best of your own self, constant contact with the highest and best of others who were consciously, purposefully working toward One Heart and One Mind, working in unity. You were working with a program of visualization and meditation and sound work that was stimulating you to your highest frequency. You had constant contact with me daily to review that as well.

Now, once that Crown Portal was open, which of those circumstances stopped?

Well, they all did. They didn’t stop so much as they lessened in intensity.

S: That’s right. That’s right. And what you felt didn’t stop as much as lessen in intensity as well.

Now, having said that, and made that point which could be a place to end, I also want to go another couple of directions with that one. One of them is the bottom line for individuals who are here in guardianship energy with the potential to work at a high frequency, are capable of—oh, I don’t like this—are capable of feeling the burden of the Plan. Not that it’s your feeling, not that you feel the burden of it, but you watch the news and you see the pain, and you know that everything will be woven into the greater picture and that things will work out for the highest good, but it still makes you cry.

You know that those that you’re around are going through a change process that you recognize from your own self, and you know the pattern, and you know that this is eventually going to lead to a greater opening and a deeper love, but it’s painful in the process.

You see, you understand, more and it can be a burden. I know that. And the reality is there’s nothing I can say to you about getting rid of that, because it’s not good to get rid of that.

It is possible that you are being too dramatic for it, that you’ve had enough boredom in your life that the only way you know that you are living and loving is by the amount of drama that is going on for you. So you can take something that is painful to watch, and it can become the greatest drama of your day. That can happen, and it’s possible that that’s a part of what you experience when you begin judging exactly how high you are in the human hierarchy by how much pain you feel for the world.

You laugh because you know what I’m talking about.

But that does not change that the reality is, as you are moving from form that will become dishwasher art with this energy to form that will maintain this higher frequency, you are going to be experiencing a lot more awareness on a lot more levels. Get used to it, and get over it. Get used to it. And stop judging your day by it.

Now there is also something else to be said in here: When you have a strong connection with Source in your life and you are regularly feeding that connection, when you are doing those things that allow you to strengthen your spiritual connection and you are surrounded by those who are doing the same thing, that feeds you. And as a result your burden is eased. It does not mean your burdens go away. It means that they are distributed amongst those who function at the same frequency you do.

What you want to be careful about, though, is thinking that because you are this being of great insight and spiritual awareness, that it means you’ll have no problems. You’re wrong. You’re wrong. As long as your free will crosses the free will of another human being, you are going to have the opportunity, the challenge for growth, and it’s all in the attitude that you choose to look at it through.

A very dear friend was fired from her job, was put into bankruptcy, her son died, and she got a divorce—all in a year. You think you’ve got troubles?


S: You have to. No one else wants them. And she’s a happy woman. Not all the time. Sometimes she’s quite unhappy. But as Joy just said, she’ll keep her own. She doesn’t wish her problems on others. She chooses to see them as challenges.

When you can realize that you have nothing in your life that you cannot handle, you begin to grow stronger. When you quit seeing challenges as tests to fail, when you stop seeing the things that go on in your life as great painful dramas instead of just one more thing to deal with—“All right, here it is”—when you truly communicate with others and you find out their story, more often than not it makes yours look pretty small anyway. And if you can move yourself off of the planet and into the spirit you are enough to get a view of humanity and see some of what’s going on out there that makes you look like you’ve got such a cushy existence—not to take from you the reality of it, but to take from you the drama of it—you can function. Everything that you have made it through gives you the skills to continue. That you are here able to say, “Oh, everything’s so hard” shows that you have made it this far. What are the skills you used to get here? Realize that that‘s what they are: they are skills, they are gifts. Do something with that.

And the final thing to add to all of those aspects that’s going there is that when you are in a place in your life in which you are absolutely doing what you are here to do, that pressure lets up.

However—and this is not meant to worry you, although it might—when you have been going down this path of your compact and you begin fulfilling what you are here to do, it puts you on a different path. And it has its road. And when you fulfill it, it puts you on a different path, and it has its road. May you never be burdened by a reality in which you don’t feel there is so much to do, because when you stop feeling that there is so much to do, it shows you’ve become useless.

The intensity of the drama, defining your life by that sense of overwhelm, is showing that you are not taking your power. You’re not looking at your strengths. You’re not saying, “Moment by moment, day by day, I will get through this as I have every other moment, every other day.” The skills that have brought you to this place are the skills that take you from this place. Be aware of them. Use them. But do not mix up the intensity of your spirit saying, “This world needs so much I will give what I can” with the human that says, “This world needs so much, I am not enough to give.” When you listen with that human construct, you are doing it because you are seeking an excuse for backing off.

You have the strength you need to do what you are here to do. When you find you drop in your tracks and it’s not because of abuse, then you could fairly well say you must have been doing something you should not have been doing, because you have the strength to do what you need to do.

I would stop on that one.

You have indulged me this night a lot, because my message last night was just too much for one night’s message. My agreement with your television company says that the Sunday nights must have certain boundaries, but now and again . . . now and again you’re standing on the edge of a cliff, and you know that your next step is to walk off; You know it, but you’re afraid because you don’t think you are strong enough to manage.

I am seeing people in very high places digging up every excuse in the book to not serve, to not make choices, to let the world make it for them. What do you think is going to happen to the 5:3:2 function of the grid in this world if the world is making your choices?

Worse than dishwasher art.

S: You’re right. Worse than dishwasher art. You’re right.

What is it you are so afraid of? Why is it you think—how could you possibly think—when everything on this planet that is Source is love, that you are not loved and cared for and protected? Because that’s why you fear. And that’s what you seek, and it’s there. It hasn’t moved. Everything you have. When you move your moment of power into tomorrow because you fear tomorrow, you lose the strength you have.

You gain strength by recognizing what you have come through and what you’re here to do. Stop hiding! Stop giving excuses that the world thinks is just fine that you know don’t wash and think that you’re getting away with it in the larger picture. You’re not. You can’t. Please stop.

Be well. Be strong. And again, I thank you for your time this night. Thank you for making this a priority. It reminds me a lot of the good old days. Let’s do this more often.

Glochanumora. Happy trails.