October 21, 2012

Samuel: Greetings, dears.

Hello, Samuel.

S: I look up and Lillibeth is good. Well, how are you?

Good. Great. I’m glad you’re back.

S: I’ve not been gone. Thank you very, very much.

Very, very important couple of weeks coming up for you. Are you ready?

Better be. I’ve been dancing as fast as I can.

S: Keep dancing, Bonnie, keep dancing.

You’re coming to the end of your year. Now, according to your calendar, that’s a couple of months away. According to mine, it’s a couple of weeks away. So, I want to take a little bit of time tonight, and really, it is my intention only to take a little bit of time tonight, to talk to you about what you plan to do before the end of your world. [laughter] I am glad you chuckled, it was meant to be a chuckle. It’s a chuckle because the end of a year or a day is very, very much the end of at least a portion of your world. And I talk to you very, very often about the importance of releasing what is no longer needed, bringing into your life what you have been putting off. Making every day count. And really, that’s what I’m talking to you about right now. That’s pretty much the bottom line of it. But I want you to think about it as if you heard that the world is ending next week. They finally found that meteor that’s off the orbit they thought it’s going to be, and it’s headed right your way and it will take a week to get here. What would you do? And in all likelihood, you have all kinds of nice sweet, probably spiritual answers along the lines of, “I’ll let people know I love them,” or I’d stop working right away or . . .

Have a big party.

S: I want you to think about it. What would you do? Now most of you think along these lines as a regular part of your spiritual life. What do I need to let go of? What do I need to die to? What no longer feeds me? Or you should be. So this shouldn’t be really hard thing to think about. And yet, for most of humanity what really happens is panic sets in. There is no plan, there is no “here is what I’d do,” there is no . . .  Simply panic sets in. Why is that, do you think?

Fear of change.

S: And that would be pretty big change.

And having not been as un-self-absorbed through life as needed, so that it’s hard to step out of that mode and see how things are when you are not working that way, to see how it is when there is a sense of unity and love.

S: Unfortunately.

They think this is all there is, and it’s coming to the end, then it would be a very sad thing.

S: Could be, could be.

They think of all the things they could have done that they didn’t do. And there is no time left to do all the things they could have done.

S: Probably so. I would say because most aren’t happy with their lives. They’re not happy people. And as a result, rather than what you might think would make more sense, which is “Oh, my life is coming to an end finally,” It goes right with what Gail was saying: “I’m not a happy person, what can I do before I go to become happier, to feel that I have accomplished?”

Why do you think so many people in this world are not happy?

The world is going to end in a week.

Maybe they are living a life that someone expected of them rather than what their heart would like for them to do.

S: A very good reason to not be happy is living the life someone else wants for you. And I am going to take it a step further: not even knowing what really fulfills you and makes you happy.

What fulfills you? Let’s take a moment and think about fulfillment. Fulfillment . . . what’s that? What’s that all about, fulfillment? Is that about filling up?

Bringing something to fruition.

S: You’re really on tonight. You’re really on tonight. All right, it’s about bringing something to fruition. Or something that is ready for harvest, perhaps. And it’s time to be used. Are you at your best? Are you unripe? Are you feeling that you have made a difference in this world? Or are you thinking you’ve still got plenty of time for that? Fulfillment isn’t about having done something; it’s about how you feel with regard to what you have or have not done. So how do you feel about what you have done in your life? How do you know when you are feeling fulfilled? Well, I might say then, based on that exciting response, that maybe that’s a big part of the answer.

What comes to mind is complete . . .  Completed all I wanted to do and say with family or friends. I am complete; I’m at peace.

S: At peace, complete. Good.

I would add to that satisfied, serene even. That there’s no adrenaline/angst to do more. Peacefulness.

S: A lack of fear, longing, a sense of acceptance. I like that. It’s good.

In a different direction, I think that I would feel empowered to continue to create and express and be joyous.

S: That sense of keep doing what you’re doing because it’s working. It ain’t broke.

Fulfillment means the meaning I derive from something. So when I feel like I’ve done something that is not only meaningful to me but to someone else, that brings a kind of completion within myself about why I’m here. So when I feel like I am unfulfilled, I usually start giving; that makes me fulfilled; I feel like I’m completing why I’m here, in moments. I never feel like I’m completely finished with what I’m doing, but in moments, that moment’s complete. So recently, I’ve been a little down about coming back from Malta and getting back into things. And so I started giving and it’s brought me out of it, because it is completing, in those moments, why I’m here.

S: Good.

For me, it’s a temporary state of joy before I set the bar higher or go for another goal to say in an amusement park, “Let’s do it again”.

S: Good.

Fulfillment for me is when I feel full. And I have mostly had those experiences when I am giving my best, giving my all, and I have had a positive impact on others, I can see it and see the response in them. And that gives me meaning. So those three components: meaning, giving the best of me and seeing a positive response in others.

S: Good, good.

Similar to Steven’s to me is when I identified my gifts and abilities and I am able to use them on a daily basis not only to make others’ lives better, but myself better.

S: How do you know when you are not feeing fulfilled?

I think resistive, stressed, out of balance, out of time, looking for ways to relieve those things.

S: Good, good.

When I can’t get it all together.

S: Tend to be cranky, unhappy, snarky, judgmental, unhappy.

For me, I think there are different levels of fulfillment and unfulfillment. I can feel fulfilled in my life, but during a period in the day, I may not feel fulfilled with what I’m doing. So I think it depends on, for me, if I’m walking . . .

S: Is that a level of fulfillment or a response to a particular activity that may or may not be fulfilling?

I guess I’m not seeing the difference.

S: Where I’m going is, fulfillment is a symptom. And although it is true that you will have during your day times that you’re doing something and it’s not particularly fulfillment in the big picture, you may be experiencing a greater fulfillment. But, either way, it’s fulfillment or not, which is the symptom, the result of something you are or are not doing that pleases you.

For me it’s perspective. Using your “building the cathedral” example from a long time ago. I may bring the blocks to the mason and realize I’m helping build the cathedral and be very fulfilled with that. Then next day, I’m tired and sore and I’m just lugging blocks to some guy and I am not feeling fulfilled, even though it’s the same activity. So, it’s all my perspective.

S: Yes, it is. And what Frank just brought out there is the crux of it all. You seek a sense of completion and peace, and believe that what you do will bring it to you. You seek that happiness that comes from serving, giving, doing and you think that’s what’s doing it. Fulfillment is an attitude. But it is a vital need for the human self. It’s a detour for the spiritual self.

The human needs the sense of “I did a good job here.” And that’s a good thing; there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. That’s a good thing. It’s really good to know what works in your life and it’s really good to know what does not work in your life, especially if you’ve only got a week more to go, because then you can do more of the things that work in your life and make you happy. But, when you think that because I feel this peace I must be doing the right thing, or because I’m happy I must be doing the right thing, or I must be doing what my spiritual self says I should be doing because I am feeling . . . whole, your spiritual self is going to have to prove to you otherwise, because it’s an illusion. It’s not about what you do; it’s about what you are. And when you do what you do because of what you are, that’s different than doing what you do to become something you aren’t. And that’s a real trap that leads you to depression and unhappiness, a lot of frustration. Judging your life on the basis of emotional perspective is dangerous. And I am going to use Franks’ example which was, “I am laying bricks and love doing it and feel so fulfilled by it because I am a part of this great project,” but the next day, when sore and tired and jet-lagged, and have too many things going on, didn’t eat right, and haven’t done . . . and the list gets longer and longer and longer. You go to that same job that was so glorious yesterday and all you feel is tired and cranky and unhappy, because it’s a feeling, and they fool you.

Your emotions sidetrack you when you believe they represent truth. Here is what I am because I feel it. Dangerous. “I feel happy therefore I am happy,” until I hit my foot on the curb and suddenly I’m not happy anymore, because happy doesn’t last. On the other hand, there is a deep and true joy and fulfillment and happiness, but none of it is because of what you do. As important as what you do is, insofar as being kind to other people, and loving instead of being angry and frustrated, and . . .  What you do must be the result of what you are.

So here it comes. So what are you? Well, I’ll tell you right off, the answer isn’t “human,” because that, too, is an illusion and excuse, and only a temporary condition. This is the season for costumes. You’re wearing one all the time, because what you are is a piece of pure Source. You are a being of spirit energy using the body to accomplish what you are here to do.

So what are you here to do? The only thing that matters, the only action that satisfies, the only thing that counts. You are here to live love. And I know, as simple as that sounds, it’s absolutely not. But when you are living your life out of love, all of your actions become by far more fulfilling, because you are doing that which increases what you are as it functions through who you are.

And I know, you have heard me say this over and over and over. But here’s the thing: You are standing at the edge of the world right now; you have been through so much change. But you’re about to go through more, and you are not going to make it if you’re only feeling the outside stuff. Because you will not be satisfied. You will never feel you’ve been able to do enough, because you will judge yourself, because you will judge others, because you will become angry and you will become frustrated, you will feel guilty, you will feel fear. When your focus is on what’s on the outside, then there’s nothing beyond this world. And all you have is what the world can offer. And what can the world offer? Constant unending lessons in how to get along with others.

And yes, that makes it chuckle, but that’s what it is. Every day everything on the outside of you is about getting along with others in one way or another. And if you’re human only, you come at it from a place of fear: “I want to get along with others so they will like me because I am not very likeable.” Or, “I want to get along with others so that they’ll see how great I am . . . I hope, I hope.”

Or you’re coming at it from a place of love. The function of Source in this world is love. And love can be described many ways but here it comes—one of the ways it can be described is spiritual fulfillment. Humans learn that love is something that you give or receive, and you dole it out like cards in a poker game. “Did you get any good love?” “What do yours look like?”

And frankly, it’s pretty sad. It’s not what you give or what you take; it’s what you are. And that’s really the exciting part. Your very nature. Because what you are is a function of Source in this world; that’s how it works. And there’s a really long story that goes with all of that, but you’ve only got a week. [Laughter]

So I’ll bring it back around to it. You’re coming upon a time that is about endings. And when you’re looking at endings, there’s always that sense of, “Have I done everything I need to do? Have I been everything I need to be?” and all I want to do is remind you, it’s about how well have you loved? And I know that what you know about love now is different than tomorrow. I know what you give in love now is different than what you gave yesterday and that five years from now, or two weeks from now or two days from now, you may look back on it and say, “Wow. That’s what I thought love was about. Do I know ever so much more now.” But, it’s about love, and if you use parent-child, for example, it’s not going to be good enough. If you use lover to lover as your example, it’s not going to be good enough. And if you use friend to friend as your example of love, it’s not going to be enough. Maybe, maybe something in you can remember—pfft!—what Source love feels like, but the fact of it is, the only thing that you can do is your best by what you know at the time.

Ask yourself, “Is this the most loving thing I can do? How can I be more loving in this situation? How can I better express my love?” A very weird thing will happen: you’ll get an answer. Oh, yeah! It works that way. And the more you let the love you are function in this world, the less afraid your human self is to live it, the stronger your spirit self becomes to give it.

Any moment now could be a total change from what you thought your life was going to be. Are you living the life that is going to satisfy you at the end? It really, really is about the love. And no matter what you do or how well you do it, when it comes down to it, the only thing that matters is the love.

Now there’s a lot, a lot that I talk to you about the human self functioning in the world, and a lot that I talk to you about the spiritual self trying to function in this world. But, you are coming to an ending of many things in your life, and you need to come to that knowing that you have given the best of you. Because in the end, that’s all that matters.

I must say, it’s quite a punch in the head to not make you laugh and not play with you. But you will understand this. It’s a very big time in this world. And you are leading the way. There is only one answer. Give it your best love.

A quick aside. Many, many cultures found this time of year, the end of harvest, to be a time to recognize the power of death in this world, those who have passed already beyond this world, the end of a season, the end of a year. Over these next couple of weeks, let yourself think about somebody you know who is no longer a part of this world, who has died. And let yourself think about how grateful you were for them, even if you have to really dig hard to come up with how that is so.

And the reason that I am asking you to do that is because of what it will do for you. Gratitude releases you. So allow yourself to become a bit more free. The more you are able to see how those in your life have helped make you you, and you’re grateful for it, the more power you have to shape everything that remains.

Think about those who have passed. You are grateful. Why? Hah! That they’re gone. Sometimes. And in that process, you’re going to strengthen a piece of you and let go of something that’s been holding you back, whether it has to do with that person or not, because that is the gift the dead bring you.

Was it a question, Frank?

I was going to ask, is it only people “out of your life because they’re dead” or just ”out of your life”?

S: Well, if you don’t have anybody who’s already moved on, use somebody who’s simply out of your life. But the power of this time has to do with [how] those who are no longer attached to this world can give back to you by showing you a lost piece of yourself. It’s a good thing.

All right. It’s an important week, watch out for meteors. I promise we will play at the next first Sunday, all right?

Only if we make it through this week. [laughter]

S: Right, only if you make it through the week.

How about a Questions and Answers? That’s always fun? Haven’t done that in a long time. I love laughing at your questions.

Glochanumora. Happy trails.