July 2, 2006

Samuel: Well, greetings, dears.

Greetings, Samuel.

S: So we have an invisible friend. [Referring to an empty chair] I think Bonnie tripped him. I think she stuck out her foot like that and made him fall over.

All right, your turn. Take a good, deep breath, and as you take that breath, stretch out your shoulders a bit, and turn—hello, darling—and then take another good, deep breath, and when you’re taking a good deep breath, this isn’t the movement. It’s this one. And you want to imagine that all of those poor, malnourished little air sacs within your lungs are going to be filling up like a big balloon. You can make balloon animals out of them later.

And the reason that I am reminding you to breathe is because when you get stressed—it’s a human thing. It’s a human thing that when you get stressed: instinctually your body slows down, which is particularly frustrating for you in this day and age, because when you get stressed you want everything to speed up. Nonetheless, your physical body slows down. You’re not taking as deep a breath. Sometimes, depending upon exactly how your personal body works, sometimes that lack of deep breath actually becomes a problem. You can get sort of dizzy from that. When you get stressed your body teaches itself to make do with what it has.

Now medically speaking that was a pretty awful way to say it, but it goes with my point. I’m going to say it again now. When you are under stress, your instinctual support system comes up. Major body systems change the mode in which they are functioning in order to be able to assimilate whatever is coming, to be at its best. And it does that—one of the ways—by putting you into small, shallow breathing patterns. Now, what good is that for physically? Under stress—the bear is coming after you in the woods and you are [pants]. Why? Frank.

Well, I was thinking if you’re hiding and your breathing shallowly it’s much harder to hear you.

S: Spoken by a true hider. Works for me.

The early intention of that is to—in a state of fear, and your adrenaline’s going—to actually increase your oxygen level because you’re gasping in short lengths. That’s the initial part of it, but if it goes on too long, then the reverse happens. You have actually less oxygen intake, therefore less cardiac output.

S: Yes. Yes. I should have called on the medical people first, shouldn’t I? Absolutely.

What’s going on with the body in those times of stress? What’s going on at that point where the body shifts? What is that?


S: An adrenaline reaction. Yes. Yes. Instinctually?

Your senses are heightened.

S: Your senses are heightened. Very good.

It’s a fight or flight syndrome.

S: Fight or flight. Your body is in security mode. What is the physical security mode? It’s, “Save this thing? Save this body no matter what. Stay alive.”

Well, that’s really pretty handy, isn’t it? Stay alive. That’s a useful thing if you‘ve got anything to do here.

If we’re really in danger.

S: If you really have anything to do here, it’s very helpful. If you are in danger, it’s helpful. But some of you have trained your bodies that adrenaline-exhausted living is normal. You have trained everyone around you that your best mode of action is fight or flight.

[Speaking about Hapi] Oh, that’s right, pick up your water. We’ve got a loose—mostly—dog.

[Speaking about Sanat] At least he’s not scared of him anymore.

S: That’s [ . . . ] because he’s not taking off after him and throwing things at him anymore. Aye, you think I’m not watching. Oops. It might not be a good evening, energy-wise, for him to be wandering. Brianna, not so difficult. She just looks for somebody who will lavish love on her.

In a very real sense the three dogs that are here represent the three versions of humanity in this room right now. Frank from where you are, tell me what Oma is doing.

She’s laying right by Cindy. She’s being very quiet.

Guiding and guarding.

Guiding and protecting.

S: And what is Oma?

A seeing-eye dog.

A guide dog.

S: A guide dog. A service dog. She is at work right now. She is being a good model of what it is she was literally bred to do. She is working.

And then we have Brianna. What is Brianna doing?

Looking for attention, love and attention.

S: Brianna—how many of you know Brianna? Many of you do. Probably one of the best answers to this one might come from the Wednesday-morning toning group. Well, I just about asked “Does she stay on tune?” but with the Wednesday-morning toning group her mode is also that of going around, getting pets. How does she do that? Does she just sort of . . .

She actively nudges.

S: Actively nudges. Actively nudges? And Mary Claire.

She’ll even, too, take her paw, and she’ll reach over and she’ll hit you on the leg to get your attention that it’s time for more. She doesn’t do it very hard, but she just kind of paws your leg to let you know it’s time for more.

S: I’d say that’s active nudging, yes indeed.

She’s a squeaky wheel.

S: She’s a squeaky wheel, yes, she is.

She puts her head on your lap, but I think she seems to know sometimes to go to people who seem to need a little bit of something.

S: Oh, absolutely, she does. She is innately aware of when the energy is changing, and she provides comfort and support, and you think that you’re doing her a favor but she’s doing you one. But it’s important for you to realize that what she’s doing is she is actively soliciting attention and love.

And Hapi magic. What is Hapi doing?

He’s laying right by Sharon

S: Smart dog. What does he tend to do?

Run around and be crazy.

S: What I would have said he tends to do is pretty much what he wants being smart enough to make you think he’s doing what you want. And I said, the three types of people in this room: “I’m being very good. I’m doing exactly what I was told to do. I’m doing what I’m here to do. I am at service all right.” Which really ought to be everyone in here. But then there are those whose absolute work in this world is to be so cute and so sweet that it’s all right to go up and knock people around until you get the love you want. And then there are those who are clever enough at what they do that they are able to make it look like they are doing what you want them to while they’re doing what they want to do, which, of course, takes me back to where we were. Where were we?

Essentially, where we were was the three ways that you tend to express that stress. Maybe they work for you, maybe they don’t, but one of those ways is you just ignore it and try to pretend it’s not there. That’s the Cleopatra version of stress. What do I mean?

Queen of De Nile.

S: That’s right, denial. Then there are those who start seeking out people to share their stress with. They sort of sneak up under you, and all of a sudden you’re involved in their stuff. And, of course, you know that it’s by being a good friend that your job is to give what they need—to scratch them a little on the head, or massage . . . never mind. And then there is the “I’m just going to run around and do a little bit of whatever it seems works at the moment, and maybe this will work, and if that doesn’t do it I’ll try something else. Maybe I’ll lay here and just serve, and pretend like everything is all right. Or maybe I’ll go try some people and get more involved here, or here, or here, and see if that helps. Oh, I know, I’ll start going to all of the tonings and I’ll . . . and . . . and . . . I’ll . . . I’ll . . .” And your body is trying really hard to keep up with all of that.

At a time in which those in your country are taking a look at the idea of freedom—and it is such an interesting time for that, don’t you think?—at a time with that going on, you also have a lot of your own freedom issues coming up as well. And in one very real sense, the stress you experience in your life has everything to do with your sense of the freedom you have in your life. And that is what we’re talking about tonight. Dogs, stress, and freedom. All right, maybe not so much the dogs part.

When you think of Independence Day—had to think about that—the fourth of July, the celebration of your country doing what?

Throwing off tyranny.

S: Throwing off tyranny.

Declaring war on the country that was a part of it.

S: And that’s a little bit more accurate. You like to think that it’s the end of war, “We won. It’s all right.” And yet in reality it’s the day that people who could came together and said, “We’re going to do this.” Mind you, that was not the beginning of the war. It was not the middle of it, and it wasn’t the end of it. There had been plenty of skirmishes, some half-hearted attempts at making things better and changed. There had been a good amount of fire, shot, burn the village, kill them all. Could be talking about any country in the world, and that’s such a sad statement. It was that point where there were enough people willing to say, “This is enough.”

Now, what’s the problem with that, with there finally being enough people willing to say, “This is enough!”

What it had to take in order to get there.

S: That’s a big problem, yes it is. All that it took to get there. All that it took to get there was those individuals’ definition of pain. And what’s wrong with that?

That it takes pain to effect change.

S: Aye. What’s very wrong with that is that when you reach your limit of pain, then you say, “Change.”

It seems to me that Independence Day should not be about hitting your pain tolerance. It should be about releasing the need for pain to be the way you learn, the way change happens.

So enough people reached their pain tolerance and said, “Something’s got to be done about this.” What did they do?

They shared their pain with people who couldn’t have cared less, and sort of pushed it into a war, because a lot of people weren’t really necessarily affected by it. There were people who had a lot of monetary investments or financial investments.

S: Wait a minute! Are we talking about . . .

The United States. Sure. And so they were protecting their interests—perceived interests—and money drove it, and so then they made it everybody’s issue to get things changed.

S: Are you sort of insinuating that there were people who were absolutely happy to be the subjects of George?

A lot of them still are.

S: Frank.

It seems there were a group of people who had a reason in their mind for change, and they were able to communicate the vision to others, and perhaps use those—with the people they were trying to motivate—use reasons that would excite them to action, which may have been different than what was exciting them to action. What drove the leaders of the revolution may have been very different, as David was saying, than what drove the masses behind the revolution. I mean the communication of vision, but using the language that worked for the various individuals.

S: Let’s talk about that for just a moment. EarthLight lives in a district . . .


S: . . . historic. A district of history didn’t quite seem correct, but I knew it was right in there somewhere. A historic district, all right. You live in a historic district—correct? All right. And this historic district has particular rules that must be followed. And those rules say, for instance, you cannot paint your house purple. I’m making that up. I really don’t know what they say, but we’ll say you cannot paint your house purple because nobody in history has ever done that. It’s breaking down already, isn’t it?

So with that in mind, Frank has to go to his neighbors and say, “They’re not letting me paint my house purple! That just isn’t right, is it?” And the neighbors say, “No, it’s not right.” No. More likely they say, “We think it’s absolutely right! We don’t have a problem with it at all. Don’t paint your house purple. So Frank has to look for something else. Now, what are the sorts of things he might come up with?

A loophole.

S: All right, he might come up with loopholes.

Something in the law that would help him get what he wants without violating the law.

S: To get around by not violating the law. Getting what he wants. Sure. That’s good.

Sometimes people go with a “what’s next” scenario. “Well, they won’t let me paint my house purple, but that might mean that they also won’t let you have your pool. And what’s next after that? You can’t have a dog? What’s next?” And whatever they come up with, it’s just to extend, to show that once you take away one freedom, all of them are at risk.

S: And, hopefully, the neighbors are very afraid of that, or that might not make it either.

The person could try and get them to be on their side by bringing up their personal fears. For example, instead of complaining about the house being painted purple, he could go in at it from the “They’re just trying to control us. How could we let . . . ” you know . . .

S: We cannot let government rule over us this way. Sure.

Try to find a bigger, broader topic than the purple paint.

S: Something even scarier, and a good way to do that, as David said, is to take the one that you know is going on, and then amplify it. You don’t have to have evidence when you’re doing that, you know. You just have to hit their fear, and that requires something. What does it require.

You have to know your audience well enough to know what you can motivate them with.

S: That’s right, you’ve got to know your neighbors well enough to know that the idea of not having a swimming pool is going to bother them, or that this one small right is taken away, what’s coming next? What about totalitarian government?

Now, believe it or not, I’m not speaking politically tonight. I’m speaking human nature. That always seems a bit funny, don’t you think? I’m talking to you about human nature.

Well, it seems like you have outlined the way that we can put ourselves into stress, which is “This isn’t working for me right now, and if that doesn’t work, then this [doesn’t either].” It’s a domino effect. And so you can convince yourself of the worst-case scenario.

S: And your audience in that case is . . . What you fear makes you stressful. The stress is the signpost to that fear. If you don’t give into it, what happens? Aye.

You bring it into awareness, and you don’t become affected.

S: That’s good. That’s good. And most of the time that’s right. I would like to say that all of the time that’s correct, but it’s not correct all of the time because some of you have all kinds of other moves you can make to ensure that if you missed being afraid enough the first time, you’ll get it the next time around. But as a whole, instead of avoiding what you fear, take a look at it. Look at the reality around it. Take a look at why it is so meaningful to you. And where in the process is it? Is this about painting a house purple? Or about being under the tyranny of King George? It was King George, right? That just seems so current. It did not seem right all of a sudden.

And you also need to take a look at—and this is a big one—is it your fear? Is it your fear, or is it a fear that you have been told all along “You should be afraid of this!” and here it is, happening. Is it your fear or is it something that you used to fear? And maybe you don’t now, but you don’t know it because you’ve gone into automatic drive.


S: Pilot. Is it your fear? Is it someone else’s fear? If it’s your fear, is it your fear now? And what is it you are afraid of in that fear?

Now, I’m going to do something really rude here. It’s not that it’s rude as much as it’s just not nice, so set yourself for it. When you are experiencing fear in your life, it’s only because you are afraid that something in your current reality is going to change in such a way that you will be unequipped to manage in the way that you currently like to manage things—every fear, every one of them. As they concentrate down by boiling out the excess—that’s why you call it “I’m in a jam,” right?—when you are in a jam, it’s because you are afraid you will not be capable of maintaining your life with the change you believe is going to happen.

What’s wrong with that? I mean, really, it sort of makes sense doesn’t it, that if you’re going to have a big change come along in your life and it’s going to probably have an effect on everything that could possibly happen to you from now on, well, you might should be a little bit worried about that. That makes sense. It doesn’t sound stupid, does it? And yet there are several things wrong with that statement. Lillibeth.

It’s such a limited viewpoint.

S: Well, it is, isn’t it?

It comes totally from the experience that you’ve had and it doesn’t allow for who you are in the greater sense, and it doesn’t allow for all of the opportunities that are around, and all of the ways and solutions that could come up.

I recently saw my mother go through this. She was having her car worked on, and she had gotten herself to the point where she believed that she wouldn’t have a car. And she hadn’t even had it in the shop yet, but she had herself convinced that it was going to be something so incredibly unmanageable that she wouldn’t have transportation. And we probably had seven or eight different conversations about what were the possibilities of this and this and this that could actually be much better than her scenario was.

S: Trying to show her alternate doorways.


S: But under door number two, what if it’s this?

Exactly. And it turned out that it cost her five dollars to have an adjustment made to the choke on her car. And, you know, I said, “Isn’t that great?” and she said, “Well, let’s just hope it lasts.” But it was just such an example of a part of a thinking that I grew up with, you know, with someone in my life like this. And I understand where it came from with her. I truly understand, but it was so challenging to work with and so funny to watch, and sad to watch, and yet at the end of it, it was this, you know, I kept asking for help at the toning circles for her because I wanted her to have that opportunity to see that you can put yourself through this if you want to, but there’s this possibility out here of something so much greater than you can perceive at this point, and it doesn’t have to be hard. And so, you know, all of that came through for her.

S: What if it doesn’t last?

Thank you anyway for all of the energy you sent.

S: That’s really lovely. What was her mother afraid of?

Being eighty-five and losing her independence.

S: Yes. She wasn’t afraid that the car was going to cost too much money to get fixed. She wasn’t afraid that overnight she was going to wake up the next morning and find out she did not know how to drive again. In fact, it wasn’t even really about the car, it was about something she’s afraid of, and that is—say it again.

Being eighty-five and perhaps losing your independence.

S: Yes, having to become reliant on her daughter, or a friend, or parts of you that you’ve never had to rely on before. It wasn’t about the car.

And when you are in the middle of these stressful times, you would do yourself such a favor to step back and ask What is making this a stress? What is it that is a stress?” What are you afraid of? You are afraid of a change in your current situation, in one way or another. Use that as an “All right, what kind of change am I looking at here? A new car change? Well, that’s not such a hard idea. That’s not a big deal. It must not be that. A dishonest mechanic change? No, that doesn’t really seem to be it either. Having no car. That’s it, I’m really afraid of having no car. Why?”

Now, if it’s any help at all, the reason that I’m going through this conversation with you is not because you have massive amounts of stress coming your way and you need to learn how to run and hide. Run and hide! It’s because it becomes a pattern for all of your life.

Your inability to deal with change, your inability to trust, is all about you and not the situation you’re in. Its you that you do not trust. It’s you that you do not trust. It’s not Source you don’t trust. Unfortunately, for some of you that’s because you don’t have the foggiest notion what Source is about anyway, so of course it’s not that. It’s you you don’t trust. It’s you that is slowly destroying your body from the adrenal glands onward by heavily working the what-if gene part of human nature. “Well, what if . . . what if . . .” It’s somewhere down on the thirty-fourth chromosome. That’s a bigger joke than you realize.

What if we didn’t do that?

S: What if? Most of the time when you are stressed it’s because you have let your fears work rather than your heart, perhaps. Rather than what your mind is telling you might be more workable. You let your fears go. And one really obvious way that happens is, you get so overworked for a couple of reasons. One of them is because you are one of my favorite types of human—you are an absolute perfectionist! Maybe an obsessive perfectionist, which means that nobody can do it better than you, so you must make sure that you do it all so that it will done to the standards you require, whether or not those standards have anything to do with what’s needed in the particular situation.

How many of you have ever known somebody to do that? And for those of you who raised your hands, how often was that person you?  It’s not to say that it’s incorrect to do your best, not at all, but it’s only incorrect if that’s not what is needed for the larger picture. If you’re going to run out all of your energy right there at the beginning and there’s nothing left over for the end, because you got so involved right there to begin with, and you did not look at consequences, well, that could provide an out further down the road for you, couldn’t it? Oh! My goodness! Do you think it is possible that there is some obsessive-compulsive, perfectionist behavior that might be a sabotage to a full function later down the road? Yes. I promise.

It is possible that you have said yes too many times. “Yes, I would like to do this, so I will.” And “Yes, I would like to do that too, and so I will.” And “Gosh, now that I’ve got involved in this I see that it means more than I thought it did, so I have to do that too, and it’s just so stressful.” Now, what do you do for one of those, other than keep-your-mouth-shut therapy? You laugh. That’s a good therapy, isn’t it? Keep-your-mouth-shut therapy. But keep-your-mouth-shut therapy does not happen in the life of somebody who believes that their worth is based upon what they do. “Oh, wait a minute, Samuel! You said one of the good dogs was the one that was laying there serving. Isn’t [being] here to serve what a Guardian is all about?”

Well, just going back to good old Oma. Oma was trained—she was bred and raised and trained to lay down by Cindy’s side? Cindy is that all she does for you?


S: No, not at all. She has been trained to do many other things, not just lie there. And sometimes you’re not looking at the whole picture. Sometimes—hah! Sometimes you’re forgetting that there’s more to it than passively lying there—being very obedient ,of course. And as a result you let things pass you by, or you hold yourself to only one particular form and not others, because you’ve found what it is you’re perfect at, and you’re going to do that and nothing else. And some of you are still lying there, obediently wishing you could go run with the wild dogs.

Sometimes, it’s because you have said yes too often to yourself. Sometimes it is because you have said yes too often to others, but that is always because you thought there was something in it for you, and that something in it for you, hopefully, was recognition and respect and security. And because of that, when you do and do and do and do, and you don’t get that recognition, you start feeling cheated. You start feeling that instinctual security response starting to rear up inside of you to say, “This is wrong! This isn’t right! I’m stressed, because I’m not getting the payback I thought I would be getting when I volunteered to do this.” Life on earth. “I’m not getting the respect I deserve for being the one making it all happen. And my great wisdom. I’m not feeling safe here.” It is—oh, let me say this your way—it is so not about any of that; it’s you.

Stress comes from saying no too often as well. Just a moment ago it was yes too often. Now it’s no too often. And although this one is simpler, it still comes back to you. Oh, don’t you just hate that part! And that is when you say no to others when it’s really something you want, or no to yourself when it’s really something you want. “No, I need to take the day off. I’m afraid I’m getting sick. I’ve got to do something good for me, so I’m going to go home and rest.” But you feel so guilty about that that you get on the computer and you finish up all of your work that you would have been doing at the office, because you don’t really need a break from work, you need a break from you. Then it’s a whole different kind of specialist you’ve got to go to.

Stress affects you physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. And I would really love to be able to say to you “Well, if you take care of the physical and the mental, the spiritual will take care of itself.” But, you know, that’s not true, because they are fully intertwined, and because of that I would like to give you a few really frustrating, stress-making, sad, difficult, pushing-all-of-your-buttons, bringing-up-all-the-stress, suggestions on things you could do in each of those areas to relieve a large part of the greater stress going on in your life. And I say I’m going to be doing it that way because my telling you things to do does not go directly into your heart, where you are able to stand up and see the big picture and say, “Oh look, this is going to be such a good thing for me, I will do it.” No, instead it goes through your head. Immediately through the whole file cabinet of “That didn’t work before! And I’ve tried that, and it’s not going to work And . . . and . . . and . . .”

“What if it brings about change in my life? And, worse than that, what if all of a sudden better, and that means all of that other stuff I did was wrong?” Life is so challenging, isn’t it?

If the foundation of fear is what? Go back in those notes. Go ahead. Dig them up! Dig them up! Saying, “yes” that’s true, but it’s a security issue more or less.

Fear of failure to cope.

S: Say that again.

Fear of failure to cope.

S: Failure to cope. Gracious, Harvey, that would have been so much simpler. Why didn’t you use that title earlier? Yes. Frank, say it the long and boring way.

Fear that you won’t be able to maintain your life after that change comes about.

S: That’s right, but that is failure to cope, isn’t it? Don’t you know. If that fear is in your life, there’s only really one thing you can do to change that. Now, what do you think that would be.

Taking action.

S: Taking action’s what got you there. How about—yes, for those of you who are saying, “Stop being afraid”—well, yes, but it’s not quite that easy, is it?

Now is that a time signal coming from you? Stuart did just give me one. He’s about to start sweating and going, [whispers] “Shut up.”

You prove it wrong. You prove it wrong. You get bigger than it is. And here is a way you can do that physically speaking. Physically speaking, “Well, I’m not healthy enough to do that. I’m not strong enough to do that. I’m not . . . I’m eighty-five years old and will lose my independence if I do that.” Ultimately, every one of these things are going to be about proving to yourself that you can make it through anything. They are about looking the fear square in the face—although that’s not the end you’re looking at when it’s a fear—and dealing with it. But you’re not going to be able to do it if you are not strong enough for it. You see, you’ve got this fear that “I’m not going to be able to do all that has been asked of me. I’m just so tired all the time, and I’m . . . my adrenals have turned my system into a constant force of sabotage to my own self, and my health is so poor that I cannot make it.”

Well, all right, there are things that got you here, and being that we’re talking to Americans, there are a whole lot of things that got you here. I don’t mean here, I mean here. That got you to the point that you are feeling ill, overwhelmed. And you can’t imagine feeling strong enough to make the change because you don’t have power over your own body any more. It betrays you, you abandon it. Which came first? The abandonment. You abandon your body and it runs away from home. You laugh. It’s true. And how do you abandon your body? Well, now, in this room, for every one of you there’s a different way to say how you can abandon your body.

Let me ask you a couple of questions that I do not want you to answer out loud. Is there anything in your life that could help you make a change for the better by doing something different in what you eat every day? How about in the way you exercise? Stretch it. Strengthen it. You feed it right, you keep it strong and healthy, and it gives you a chink in the wall of your stress. Now, I’m not saying that just knocks the whole wall down. I’m saying it gives you a handhold. Unless, of course, living eaten up inside out with stress and heartache is really what you prefer. [Child makes a noise] I agree, it’s really sad.

Mentally speaking, emotionally speaking, stress shows up as an inability to control the reactions that speak of your emotional state. I’m not saying control your emotions, gracious, no. You need your emotions. They tell you important things like “I really like this, I really don’t like that,” that might be exactly what you need to know. I am saying the reactions that come with the emotions. You see, you have come so far away from the heart because you’re afraid of that change that you have let the symptoms let you think that that’s what wrong. The reactions are not the emotions, and the reactions you have control over.

So my suggestion is again, to give you a starting place: Change your reaction. And I would like to suggest that you change it to something believably positive. Key word there?


S: Believably. Not positive? No, believably. Baby steps. Baby steps. Change one reaction. You have lived long enough under the evil ruler of “I feel so angry.” “I’m so happy!” “I’m so sad.” Because, you see, when you act it out your brain believes it, and your brain says, “Oh, I know what to do with that!” and it starts insulating you in every possible way. It insulates you physically—although I think that for the most part stress sticks out in front of you—mentally, emotionally and spiritually. And spiritually because you are divorcing Source when you have to do it your way, no matter what, no matter how hard you get pounded down for it, no matter how often it doesn’t work, at least you’re doing it your way, because—well, because you’re Americans and you have a history of independence.

And in actuality you are imprisoned. You are imprisoned by bodies that don’t work, by emotions that have their own lives, by a sense of expectation and deserving that leads you into pain and procrastination and sabotage. You are divorcing Source by insisting on doing it all yourself, which effectively says, “It’s stress, but it’s my stress. Don’t fix it.” And you know you could really use a little freedom.

Very quickly, firecracker. Firecracker.


S: Fireworks, yes. You look up in the sky and it’s a beautiful display of light, sound and power, and then it’s over. And for too many of you that’s all you have. You really do think that you’re only good for that one great display, that one piece of the job. And so you build your whole world around that one display. “This is what I am.” And then, of course, everything in your life becomes about keeping that safe and making that right.

And I want to throw out just a tiny little rock into the pond. Maybe you’re capable of so much more. Maybe if you actually gave yourself a chance, you would surprise you. Maybe if you did not let that fear rule, you could fly. Get-out-of-prison Day.